Day 16 of This Is Personal (TIP) 21 Day Fast: Father

This week is about to blow our minds as we dive into how to pray the Lord's Prayer using the names of GOD. It has really been a place of worship and intimacy. I hope you are ready. 

This Is Personal (TIP)  is a 21-day fast and journey. During this journey, we will move from seeing the Word of GOD as a guidebook to seeing it as a space for personal encounters with GOD! We will explore three focus scriptures and create space for us to reflect and journal about: How to create our own record book with GOD,  How to move from who we are to who GOD has called us to be, and How to stand firm in the process during the difficult times.  Though the journey is individualized and personal, it allows for collective accountability and discussion. 

You can send your prayer request and answers to the homework assignments to: thisispersonaldevotional@gmail.com

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She Reached The Hem of His Garment

Great Day Readers!!! 

Can you believe that January has almost ended and we are about to be in February and that I have done two entries this month?!? Let's pray I keep it up! I am going to truly try as my life continues to create opportunities of demands and advancements. My declaration this year is to be consistent in all the assignments GOD has called me to. 

This morning I  sent out a text to the people that are in my inner circle about something so personal and vulnerable to me. It came after me preaching a message and honestly me realizing I had never said some things out loud about parts of my life as a wife. I had never openly and out loud admit that my bleeding was caused by a miscarriage because by the time we got to the doctor to see what was going on I was no longer pregnant. After taking pregnant tests prior. What do you do when you know something; however, your denial and others' influence will tell you that you are lying to yourself? (That's another topic for another day) Below is the message that I sent to my circle that I feel that you could benefit from. I hope that it blesses and frees you as it did me.

Good morning! Listen on yesterday I got to preach on the story of the woman with the issue of blood, it's one of my favorite stories due to the fact I used to be her. No, I didn't bleed for 12 years; however, the almost year of bleeding felt like forever. It created so many emotional trauma moments and increased my areas of fear. It causes me to question my existence and my womanhood. I was married at the time to an insensitive husband, who didn't understand the fears that haunt me in my sleep. Not meeting his needs, realizing I had a miscarriage, and not knowing if or could I get pregnant again. I felt alone and isolated, ashamed, embarrassed, and scared. However, during my morning meditation, these scriptures spoke to me. 

God, I invite your searching gaze into my heart. Examine me through and through; find out everything that may be hidden within me. Put me to the test and sift through all my anxious cares. See if there is any path of pain I’m walking on, and lead me back to your glorious, everlasting way— the path that brings me back to you. Psalms 139:23‭-‬24 TPT

 He heals the wounds of every shattered heart. Psalms 147:3 TPT 

I know you are wondering how did those two scriptures speak to you. When I reflect back on that moment I remember the anxiety and depression I felt, "anxious thoughts and path of pain". It wasn't until I ask Daddy to search me that the second scripture started to manifest. I don't know where you are in this journey called life. I don't know if you are still in the first scripture or you experiencing the second. I just want to encourage you to stand still and allow Daddy (GOD) to heal you. Know I'm praying for you and I love you! Thank you for the honor to do both.

Even though that text was for my circle, that text was meant for you as well. You may not be in either place. You may be in a place where life is all good and you are progressing along in this journey; however, use this as a reminder when times get hard.

Prayer: Daddy thank you that even in the midst of adversity, disappointment, frustration, and confusion, you are there to search us, guide us, and heal us. You are there to remind us that you heal, you create wholeness, and you are at peace we just have to stand still long enough for you to search us. We love you and honor you. Thank you for being the one that creates ways out of no way. In Jesus Name! Amen

Hebrew Boys Faith

Listen I don't know about you, but the weight of waiting has been heavy on me lately. The wait of waiting on the unanswered prayers and deepest cries of my heart desires. I was talking to my mentor about how I was feeling and how the weight of waiting was turning into depression. I found myself paralyzed and lame in the thoughts of my wait. After telling me the feelings I felt were ok my mentor hit me with a question that hurt me and arrested me at the same time. She said "Shawndrika,  what if what you have been waiting on never manifest in the earth? Will you respond with the faith of the 3 Hebrew boys...Even if He doesn't do it we still know He can?" (Daniel 3:17-18) I looked at her crazy as tears fell from my eyes to know this statement of faith could be my reality. Though I felt broken at the thought of this reality, the Holy Spirit arrested me at the same time. He reminded me that when the 3 Hebrew boys made that statement it wasn't  from a place of doubt or hopelessness but, from a place of true surrendering. They were saying to Daddy even if we don't see you manifest the situation in our favor like we want you to, you will still come through and get the glory out of  our lives. That's the key...Daddy getting the glory!! What you are praying and waiting for may not manifest or come in the package you want, however, if you surrender it to Daddy...it will manifest His glory in your life and draw you closer to Him. I hope this word and revelation reminds you that the wait is worth it! Remember the weight is there for you to surrender not to hold.

Prayer: Daddy we thank you that even in our heaviest moments you wait for us to surrender that you may get the glory out of our lives. We yield to your will today as we wait for you to manifest your glory. We take heart that what we are waiting on may not come in the package we want or the time we think we want it, however, it will come on time and work in our favor. In Jesus Name. AMEN!

Merry New Year

It's 2019 and I don't know about you, but I am so excited about everything Daddy has planned for me to accomplish this year. I was really feeling lost, unprepared, and unplanned about this year.  But, during vision casting today I realize I just need to have a board meeting with Daddy A meeting to ask  Him what is it that He is requiring of me, and what I need to do in order to get those things accomplished. The answer He gave was so profound. I will share it with you.

Know this is the year of activation and cultivation. This means that you can't hide behind the scenes anymore. I am going to pull on your gifts... Yes, gifts... You have become comfortable with one gift, and I have many more in store for you. Don't allow constructive criticism to be seen as a personal failure. Know that it is pruning and refining you for your next. It may not feel good and yes it's uncomfortable, but it's necessary for this season. Here is what I need from you:

- Eradicate, the root of generational curses that have caused you to fall. Seek me for the strategy to do this.

- Place, yourself in a position where you can be used for my will, not yours. Be comfortable with being uncomfortable.

- Openness. Be open to hearing me, feel me, and know me at another level and realize that I am about to do something new, and you are worthy of what I have for you.

-Opportunity. Position yourself in a place to be poured into and cultivated. Be ok when people pull on your gift. Don't be a shame of the opportunity I present to you.

-Obedience is better than sacrifice. You can't sacrifice who I called you to be in order to fit in. This is the season that you need to learn how to be ok with sticking out. Be obedient to the crazy instructions I give. The ones that don't even make sense.

-Press, beyond your emotions, feelings, disappointments, discouragements, and discomfort. I am a prize worth fighting for.

-Pursue, me like you never have before. Know that I seek for you to be lost in me until there is no more you, only me.

If you do these things daughter I will show you my favor, you will experience a new level of joy, peace, grace, love, and your self-control will go to another level.

These instructions aren't easy nor are they hard. They are a challenge to trust Daddy in His word, actions, and your relationship with Him. Question: How much do you trust Him?

If you aren't new to this blog,  then you know that I have an issue with trusting Daddy with my all, but in 2019 my prayer has been... Daddy, I trust you with me and all of me !!!  I won't worry. I won't doubt. I won't look back.

Prayer: Daddy this year we seek to be what you called us to be, and not what we are comfortable being. We seek to walk in your will, word, and way, trusting you all the way. We seek to fall in love with you and we know that it's you we pursue. Thank you, Daddy, for this new year, and please forgive us for not being comfortable with being uncomfortable, as you take us to a new level. In Jesus Name! AMEN!!

Demand In The Earth, Dangerous Prayer (Part 1)

So, last week I told you about my transition and this week can I tell you about my dangerous prayer?
Ok, I know you are like a dangerous prayer... Yep, a prayer so dangerous that you are scared to even pray it because the consequences are so great and the process may feel unbearable. A prayer that comes with life-changing results and a stretch, tug, and pulls on your purpose and next. With all that being said and explained, let me tell you my dangerous prayer...

I was with one of my favorite sisters and she was on the phone with someone talking about the service that she offered through her company that she is the founder and CEO of.  (She is an international educator. She teaches all over the world and helps parents in and outside of the US become better educators for their children) As she continued her call I realize how much a demand my sister and her services were in the earth. I told her, "Sis you are truly a demand in the earth"...That's when the dangerous prayer entered my spirit and came out my mouth... "Lord I want to be a demand in the earth". I didn't realize it was a dangerous prayer until three days later when I got an email saying... "Hey girl, I have been looking for you!" 72 hours after praying, GOD the manifestation of my words became my reality. So, I knew what I prayed had to be dangerous due to the quick turn around that took place.  A week after getting the email, I was on a call with another sister who told me, "Sis, I am glad you called me I need you to pray about your participation in a conference that I am having in October." Look, let me tell you all something when I prayed that prayer, I was not really expecting results. OOOOOOO... Pause...Stop, back that up... "I said when I prayed the prayer I was not really expecting results". How many times do we pray prayers without the expectation of seeing them manifest? I'll wait, while you think of the many times you said prayers that you thought would take forever or never to manifest.

Let's be real for a moment, we pray some prayers and expect GOD to do them right away, but there are times that we pray and before we say AMEN, we already thinking GOD ain't about to do that for real.  But, we continue to pray the dangerous prayers not realizing the setup that we are creating for ourselves.

I know you are wondering what am I trying to tell you. Am I encouraging you to pray these dangerous prayers? Am I warning you about these dangerous prayers?  What am I telling you? I'm telling you both. I want to encourage you to pray these prayers, but be aware of what comes with them. Be ready to deal with the consequences or should I say the demand that will come with them. You will be the one that people seek out. You will be the missing piece of the puzzle. You will be the one that creates a demand on someone else. Do me a favor take time right now to pray your dangerous prayer (don't read another line until you do). All it takes is one time, and that one time will cause you to pray more dangerous prayers.

Prayer: Daddy thank you for making us aware of the impact we can have on the earth if we are bold enough to pray dangerous prayers. Thank you for letting us know that we can be a demand in the earth, that you have purposed us to be a blessing to others, and create moments where you can move and breath life in situations. Thank you for allowing us to be what the earth needs for your glory. Thank that today we open our mouths with a heart of anticipation to speak the dangerous prayers that are needed for your victory to be seen. In JESUS name... AMEN!

Gut Punched

So today during my prayer time GOD checked me about my words and how I see myself. Now remind you that I was not praying for me at all. I had completed my intercession for those that I need to pray for and had read my devotion for the morning. I have purposely been making a conscience effort to be silent after prayer, because I told Daddy I wanted to hear from him. I wanted to start really making my prayer time the two way conversation it should be.

So as I laid there in silence, tempted to speak. I heard God say this "Humility is not denying your gift, ability, or beauty by dumbing them down. Humility is being in a place of acknowledging that I gave you those things and thanking me for them and sharing them with others. " So let me give you some background. I always deny my greatness.... Always. Let me give you an example... People will say "You are so smart. " I will say I don't feel that way I just think of good ideas that work out some time. See there, I was thinking I was being humble but in actually I'm downing the greatness of God in me.  

I know you wondering where did the gut punch come in... Well, Daddy check me.  He said and I quote "Every time you down grade you,  you down grade me. " Ouch!  " Being thankful and boastful can have a thin line sometimes and I understand why you try to dummy down who you are, but people aren't recognizing you they are recognizing me through you.  So when you get a compliment that's the opportunity to give me glory.  Because to deny anything great in you is like saying Daddy you messed up, you not perfect, you didn't know what you were doing when you created me. " Ouch again.... And there my readers is the gut punch. 

Today I  urge you to check your thoughts of humility.  Are you trying to dummy down who you are so you won't sound boastful? If you answered yes can I tell you that's not good. To be humble and not cross the line of boastfulness, you simply must give Daddy the glory and he will take it from there.

Prayer: Daddy thank you for the gut punches that you give. Thank even in our trying to be right we don't have to deny you to be humble. That Daddy when given a compliment or bring bragged on it's an opportunity for us to give you glory. Thank you Daddy, for those moments and reminding us everything about us is good and perfect because we are a reflection of your image.  In  Jesus Name!  Amen

The Friction of Wind

So today while at prayer Daddy revealed to me the purpose of wind. No it's not just to circulate the pollen in the air or keep us cool. The wind at its greatest speed will cause a great friction to occur that will cause things that were hidden or unknown to be revealed. Don't believe me? Let me give you scripture to back it up. Mark4:38-41
³⁸ Jesus was in the stern, sleeping on a cushion. The disciples woke him and said to him, “Teacher, don’t you care if we drown?”
³⁹ He got up, rebuked the wind and said to the waves, “Quiet! Be still!” Then the wind died down and it was completely calm.
⁴⁰ He said to his disciples, “Why are you so afraid? Do you still have no faith?”
⁴¹ They were terrified and asked each other, “Who is this? Even the wind and the waves obey him!”

Now I know you are saying what did the wind reveal in these verses? Well something great actually. Let's examine each verse to see how the wind revealed some great things starting with 38. In verse 38 we see two things that were revealed. The comfort, peace, and calmness of Jesus and the doubt of the disciples. Verse 39 we see the authority of Christ and the obedience of the wind. Verse 40 reveals the hearts of the disciples, their lack of faith, and dare I say it religious mindset. Ok let me pause because someone might get offended. But let me say this. These men had seen Jesus heal the sick, raise the dead, feed 5,000 with 2 fish and 5 loaves of bread with leftovers, and never went without anything. Yet they did not feel that Jesus the one that did all of this, could not save them from the strength of a might wind? This is the mindset of some believers (me included) if it's a great thing Daddy can do it but he does not specialize in the minor. WRONG!!! He specializes in all things concerning his children whether it is corporately or individually. Minor or Major. Religion in the sense I am talking about, is doing the action without the relationship. Or in disciples case seeing the work and going through the motions of following without realizing the work, works for them. I  know that sounds  heavy (in the words of my sister) so let me break this down in simple terms. That's like getting saved but not realizing it comes with benefits for the here and now. That's like having bluetooth capabilities and still holding the phone because you are not use to the accessibility that the bluetooth gives you. I hope you get it. So in summary, the disciples had access to Jesus and knew with him that miracle, signs, and wonders would happen but they forgot that it applied to them as well.... That's religion.... Ok, lets examine the last and final verse...Verse 41, which revealed three things... 1. That the disciples had allow the spirit of fear to consume them so much that even after Jesus gave them peace, they were still doubtful. 2. The disciples realized the authority of Jesus. 3. (Last, but not least) The disciples hearts had fail to realize who they were truly connected to. Isn't that crazy that after all that Jesus had done in these verses they were still left with questions. But that's like us, right. We ask Daddy to do something, give us a sign, or answer a prayer... He does it and we are still left questioning things about him. But I am here to tell you that the friction of the wind also creates space and opportunity for something new. Even thought verse 41 ends with a questions it also create the moment of growth that lead to so many great historical and biblical events. Events that gave us access to Daddy. So the questions now come: Are you ready for the friction of the wind in your life? Are you ready to see the heart that the wind will reveal when it comes to your relationship with Daddy? I know I am ready for the wind...it maybe painful, but it will at least create the opportunity and moment for me to passionately pursue JESUS and draw closer to Daddy.

Prayer: Daddy thank you, that though the winds in our lives may seem strong and unmanageable, we can call on the name JESUS and find peace, rest, and calmness. We thank you that it's at the name of JESUS that the winds must obey. We thank you, that we will never doubt or have little faith in the things of you Daddy.  Draw us closer to you through the winds of your glory, your peace, your grace and mercy. In Jesus Name, AMEN!

Unbothered Daddy

So I am in my office with all these thoughts going on in my head and I pick up my daily devotion calendar that is displayed on my desk just to change the date. Let me remind you I have had this calendar for years! Maybe 13 plus years. But I pick it up to read what March 21 says and this scripture has wreaked my day like literally wreak my day. Tore up my brokenness, rip my doubt, and breathe life into me. Isaiah 54:10 NIV: "Though the mountains be shaken and the hills be removed, yet my unfailing love for you will not be shaken nor my covenant of peace be removed,” says the LORD, who has compassion on you."

I know you saying how could that one scripture wreak you like that? Well when you are in a place where you don't know if Daddy  is doing something for you and feel like things are going silent.

You wonder Daddy do you still love me? I mean to feel like Daddy are you really bothered by the things that I am bothered by or am I just praying empty prayers? Well this scripture  just ripped  those thoughts and more out my head. In one reading my heart was change and I had an awaking moment of who Daddy is. Daddy is Unbothered. That means that there is nothing I can do, this world can give, bill collectors can say, my finances can show that moves Daddy away from his covenant of peace. Ok, let me preach to myself. There is no amount of debt, issues, reports, stress, fear, anxiety, disappointment, feeling, or emotion that can shake Daddy’s love, compassion, or peace for me and towards me. Do you understand that? Daddy is so unbothered about what we are bothered about. He does not care how much the world says we have failed. Whether it be with goals we have set, debt we tried to cancel, or the lack of funds in our bank account. Daddy is unbothered with our strategies, but he is bothered that we have not sought out his peace and love, and that we have become so overwhelm with the world that we have allowed mountains and hills to block us from his presence. 

Prayer: Daddy help us to become unbothered by the things of this world, our life issues, and every strategy that we have created to get us out of whatever we have created for ourselves. Daddy help us become bothered by your love, peace, presence, word, and will for our lives. Help us become bothered by your supplication, provision, and strategy. Help us become bothered with being bothered in you. Bothered by your voice….Bothered by your assignments for our lives…Bothered by your love, healing, and just you Daddy. In Jesus Name! AMEN

Goodbye and Hello

EEwww!!! I don't know about you, but I am glad that 2016 is coming to an end. I am glad that I did not experience any really lost this year, but seeing my friends say goodbye to family members and helping them through the grieving process has been something else. Seeing people have what I have been praying for... I mean rolling on the floor, crying out to GOD about, and fasting for come to pass in their life with ease and me feeling like GOD had forgotten about me has been a test of true faith. But with all the bad came some good. Not only did I get one new job, I got two! I was able to see my sister work in her purpose, graduate with my third degree, and see numerous of friends get engage. What a great way to say goodbye to 2016 and hello to 2017. 

As I continue to share my Daddy Daughter Conversations for the fourth year I pray that three things take place in the heart of you the readers:

1. You become inspired to stretch your faith to a level that makes you lose control.

2. You remember that Daddy loves you and that he is seeking to have many conversations with you. He wants to give you the plans, purpose, and favor you need to accomplish all the assignments that he has prepared for you.

3. You remember the power of your words and that you use them wisely. Remember that all it took was a word for GOD to create the earth. And that same power rest inside you. 

Love you all and thank you for being open to reading the imperfections of my perfect love and conversations with our Daddy.

Prayer: Daddy as we say goodbye to one year and hello to a new one, we ask that you give us guidance to accomplish all that you have called us to. That we never miss a moment to communion with you. That we never take for granted the opportunity to be in your presences and express our love to you. Daddy, we ask that you correct us in anger, helps us control our flesh, and reassure us when our faith gets weary. We speak life to the dead things in our life, and we speak death to those things that hinder us from our purpose in you. We seek you more, not for your hand, but to see your face. We open our hearts to your love and our ears to your voice. That 2017 will not look like a reflection of 2016. We celebrate you on today Daddy, and we thank you for the opportunity to see a new year for so many will not be able to have the chance to start all over again. We thank you for the newness in our life, and before this year ends we celebrate everything you have purposed and favor us for no matter the time frame, Daddy we trust you more and more. 

In Jesus Name

AMEN

#Goodbye2016Hello2017

#DearFutureHusband

I can't believe that my journey of #DearFutureHusband started a year ago. I never knew that my little post and comment to my future husband would impact not only women but men to desire their own future mate. As I enter into 2017 it is important to me to continue the ministry of my #DearFutureHusband by creating #DearFutureHusband365. I hope as my readers you will take part in this great conversation whether married or single. I think speaking to your future or current spouse is a great way to create moments of appreciation, growth, and create intimate moments that will last a lifetime. The Bible always reminds us of how powerful our words are and the wisdom we should use when it comes to using our tongue. Here are a couple of scriptures that got me all the way together when it come to my tongue. 

Proverbs 12: 18 The words of the reckless pierce like swords, but the tongue of the wise brings healing.

Proverbs 15: 4 The soothing tongue is a tree of life, but a perverse tongue crushes the spirit.

Proverbs 16:1 To humans belong the plans of the heart, but from the Lord comes the proper answer of the tongue.

Proverbs18:21 (The well know scripture about the tongue) The tongue has the power of life and death, and those who love it will eat its fruit.

It amazes me that after Proverbs 18:21 we find the scripture that summarizes the heart of courtship between a man and woman. A man that finds a wife finds (obtains) favor with GOD. This can only happen when we know the power of our tongue. Daddy is so Amazing in his strategy. He gives us the formula for us to get our in positions to be found as a wife and for the husband to gain GODly favor. I LOVE IT!!  

Prayer: Daddy we come seeking you for wisdom on how to use our words and speaking the future of our lives into existence. Daddy as we continue to wait for our future spouses, please us be patient in your timing. Help us to understand that your timing is perfect and it comes with a greater reward, one that our mind couldn't even think of. One that outweighs our heart desires. One that creates a moment that causes us to stretch out on faith and trust you more.  
In Jesus Name 
AMEN!

Victory in Him

Good Morning Readers!!!

It's been a while since I have blogged and I do apologize I hope that my time management will be better since I have now shift into a new position, which by the way is what this blog is about. So let me see if I can tell this story as short as possible so that I can get to the meat. About 6 months ago I start getting indirectly bullied by a co-worker that has been in the field for about 20 plus years. She felt the need to tell me how to do my job to others and criticize how I get my work done. It even got to the point that she was having meetings with my direct and indirect supervisor without me. I finally got feed up and meet with her and my indirect supervisor. After the meeting, I felt like maybe somethings should ease up, but unfortunately, that was not the case and because of this stress started to cause hair loss and health problems. (Sidebar: What do you do when the enemy comes after your glory? Answer will be given later) Well of course like any other person I started to pray for instructions, answers, and directions. I got it! It was time for me go and move towards something new. It was not hard to swallow it was just hard to deal with the process of applying for jobs and not hearing anything for months. But let me tell you that GOD is Jehavoha Jira.. he will provide in his perfect timing and give you the desires of your heart. So today is my last day at a job that I have worked at for 4 years. I have learned so much, gain so many relationships, and had the honor of working with one of best friends, and it still hasn't hit me that I am leaving.   What does that have to do with Trusting the GOD in You?  All through this process, I have learned how to do one thing Proverbs 15:1 A soft answer turns away wrath. Because of my soft answers, speaking to the coworker that was bullying me, and being the example for those watching me, I learned how to trust the GOD in me. I learn that there are times GOD needs you to be the example even when you are going through, and even be a person of integrity even when you have the right to not be. To be in a position where show love when loving that person hurts. But the GOD in you says stand in trust me. Let me encourage someone right now. The enemy will present ways of escape that look like GOD's but know that the illusion of his way will always get you back to where GOD told you to be in the first place. Stand still and watch GOD not only fight your battles but make your enemies your footstool. They will know who GOD is by the time you realize that victory has already been won on your behalf.

Prayer: Daddy trusting the GOD in me has been the most difficult thing to do in this season when it seems that everyone but me is getting the desires of their heart. Help me realize that your timing for me and my life is totally perfect and if I just stand then you show my enemies what victory looks like.  Daddy help me to trust your instructions, stand on your word, listen quickly and speak slowly. Help me to remain confident in this one thing that I will see the goodness of you. In Jesus Name. AMEN!

The Statement

Hey blog readers it's been a while since I post something but while on facebook I ran across a memory note that bless me all over again.

The note is titled: THE STATEMENT

So in a conversation that I had with a sister on tonight she brought out something that I never thought about. So may time in our time of repentance we make the statement "GOD forgive me for the decisions that I MADE." As she was praying for me, she stated "GOD allow my sister to move past the statement I MADE, because YOU are the author and finisher of our life story." NOW maybe you didn't get the revelation of the statement, so let me break it down. SHE said that I MADE, BUT YOU ARE THE AUTHOR AND FINISHER of OUR LIFE STORY. Which means that there is no such thing as a "MADE" Decision. Ok. GOD is the creator of all, and in the word He gives us free-will, but that doesn't cancel the fact that He created the situation to the decisions that we make. These same decisions that either set us up or out. Ok. I'm sorry I'm about to lose it over here. GOD knows what decisions that we are going to make as well as the outcome of how it will play out. Let me just say this, in order to be a victor you must receive the victory of YOUR LIFE STORY!

This bless me all over again!!! I was deep before marriage..lol But the point of this is that we have to realize the statements we make will never change the course to our GOD destination. There are two examples that come to mind from the Bible that really confirm how the statement of our decisions will not change our GOD destination. Come here Jonah. He decided that he was not going to do what GOD called him to do and despite his attempt to escape the assignment by verbally speaking his plan, he still ended on the shore of his GOD destination. Come here Peter... You told JESUS you would not deny him but you did it several time and you curse... But look at you being the disciple you were called to be leading nations to Christ!!! WE can make decision but despite our decisions we will get to the GOD destination. The question remains will you take the 40 year or 40 day journey???

Prayer: Daddy today we come to you to say thank you for being the author and finisher of our life story. We realize that no matter what decisions we make you will get us to Your destination. We thank you for forgiving us in our bad decision making that manifest disobedience, and giving us the opportunity to reach our GOD destination in your grace and mercy. Daddy we shift towards a mindset of obedience and we thank you that no matter what statement we make the result is we win in you. Daddy help stay the course of  your will. Help us warn off distractions that cause your voice to be drowned by the weight of this world and the worries of this life. Remind us Daddy that you are the provider and everything we need can and will be found in you. Daddy help us make the right statements over our life and speak only what you have spoke to us. Help us trust you and help us with our faith in you when things don't look like what we think they should look like. Remind us that your timing is perfect and what you have in store for us is greater than any thing that we could even image or think.  In JESUS Name! AMEN

All I need

 I feel some kind of way and I don't know why but in the way that I feel it seems like defeat is the only thing I can feel. I am so in a place where I need the supernatural move of GOD to be so real that I know that GOD is about to do something mind blowing.. Have you ever been there? In a place where you need Daddy to do something like RIGHT now?!? Like Daddy if you don't move right now I know that I am going to lose it no matter how much I try to hold it together?!? Am I by myself? Well even if I am just in case one day you feel like this I want to share my wisdom.. HOLD ON!! YEP!! HOLD ON. Even when it doesn't look like GOD is moving or even hearing you because all you do is sit in silence waiting on a response, he is doing something. But I am always reminded of the formula of GOD. IF you then he will. If you hold fast to the promise then he will manifest just what he said. IF you speak his word then he has no choice but to manifest it. IF you ask he has no choice but to give it to you. He can't lie he is not a man, so you have to get to a place where you stop seeing him as such. I know you don't, but I find myself doing it...I know that he is our GREAT GOD, but because of my relationship with him and how we operate I forget how great he is. I want him to come to my level so he can feel my pain, emotions, and feelings, when he is trying to get me to his level. The level of peace, joy, love, provision, wisdom, understand, and pure trust. But can I tell you that it can be difficult when you are in crisis. When you are in a place where you are like GOD if you don't move I don't know how to make something happen for me, but I am about to make something happen!!! If I am by myself again.. that's fine but I know I am not! I just came to encourage you my readers and say.. HOLD FAST!!! What seems like a lifetime of waiting is only seconds to Daddy. What seems like stillness, is actually rapid movement to GOD. We will never be able to catch up with the timing of GOD, but we can always be in the right place to experience the benefits of his perfect timing.

Prayer: Daddy help us to hold on and hold fast to your word and promises. Help us to be in the position that we can experience the benefits of your perfect timing. Let us never become weary in our well doing that we lose focus of your presence and glory. Even in silence assure us that you are still listening and in stillness that you are still working for our good. We thank you that everything we lay at your feet, especially when we are in crisis. We thank you that what we lay at your feet is being worked on, worked through, completed, removed, destroyed, restored, and manifesting for our good. For your words says that your plans for us are great and they will manifest hope and a productive future for your glory. Daddy help us and let us remain in the vain of your glory. In JESUS NAME! AMEN

A Daughter's Heart for Her Sister

Daddy my heart continues to be heavy as I see the news stories, the tweets, the facebook messages, the engine searches, and the constant coverage of the death of my soRHOr my sister... Sandra Bland. Daddy I look at the video and the hate for the officer continues to rise, the disappointment of being a woman rings in my mind, the frustration of being black and educated continues to overcome my heart; I think to myself  how can I forgive someone that took the life my sister, who took a simple moment of frustration as a moment for him to flex his authority. How can I allow this moment of history making, epic news be a moment for your glory without feeling some type of way that's not negative. Daddy my sister is dead. A woman full of purpose, life, and voice. Your Daughter is gone at the hands of a man or even  men who saw her as a problem, when you saw her as a solution. But what hurts the most Daddy I would have done the same thing. I would have cooperated but I would have told the officer that I know my rights and authority as well. I know the routine, I know what authority he carries, but I have some authority as well. Daddy my heart screams for you, for this is not a burden this is a cry of pain, hurt, frustrating, angry, and lost not just for myself, but my sisters nationwide. How dare they devalue us Daddy! Did you not call us precious rubies? Did you not call us priceless? Did you not call us your heart? Do we not have your last name? Daddy I can't wrap my mind around the thought of this act, the evidence of my sister's death, the disappointment of a system that speak of equal justice, but shows only favor towards certain people. Daddy this event has turn my world and others upside down. How do we get pass this moment? How we progress towards better? What do we do? Where do we go? Who do we run to?
Daughter please calm down I have heard your heart and the heart of your sisters and my people when it comes to this situation. Know this.... your sister didn't die in vain... My purpose will always remain and my glory will out shine the evilness of this world. Daughter my heart hurts for you and your sisters. I know what she meant to many of you. I know her impact in the earth. I knew that this would not be an easy thing to handle or even accept for any of you. I know that her family seeks justice, I know the heart of the officer and his co-workers. Daughter I know what happen to your sister and all I need you to do is trust me. Trust my justice it's greater than the thoughts of what you think your justice could bring. Trust my heart, that I will be the one that heals you, your sisters, and her family. Trust my revenge, because it's big and greater than any plan of revenge you could come up with. Trust my love, because even in chaos and unanswered questions, my love will bring clarity. Trust my peace, because it will surpass all your understanding. Trust my war plan, all I ask is that you put your war clothes on and show up for the battle, I will take care of the rest. Trust my ways, for  my ways are not like you ways. How I handle things will bring forth a better outcome and create a movement that man can't silence.Trust my timing, in my timing I produce perfection, though it may seem that my timing is off, remember this... I am an on time GOD! This is what I need you to do Daughter... as my daughter worship. For what you fighting is not a man but the assignments, ambushes, and attacks of the enemy. He is seeking to kill and destroy what I have created and unfortunately daughter it's starting in your family. Daughter don't allow what they report to dictate how you should respond. I am giving you clear instructions on how to respond and that's by standing still, worship, love, prayer, remain in my faith and faithful, and trust. When you do this and hold fast to what I promise you will see the manifestation  of me and the shifting from defeat to victory. Daughter stay encourage know that Daddy has this under control. I know that this may be painful, but all my processes come with pain and sacrifice, but know that it's all worth it. I love you Daughter and know that I am always here waiting for you. I AM... I AM and that's all you need to remember.

~Love you Daughter of Mine

Daddy

The If Formula

Romans 8:13: What then shall we say about these things? If God is for us, who can be against us? I read this same scripture in at least 10 different bible translations and they all read the same thing. From the KJV to the Message. So what should this say to us. Simple "Ain't No Need to Worry." Life decisions with the enemy's plans will cause consequences that we are not ready for, but IF GOD is for us, who can be against us.. Let's talk about that IF GOD. So many times in the Bible, we see IF GOD. IF we trust GOD, IF we hold on, IF we pray, IF we praise, IF we turn... then... Then Daddy will show himself strong and make us victorious. So many times we miss the formula of GOD and it is simply found in this verse and many more. IF... There are no BUT's in GOD only IF's which really reflect the free will that Daddy has given us to make our own decision with the consequences of his actions already in play. Let's reexamine Romans 8:13 using the IF Formula What then shall we say about these things?  (If you look back on Romans 8: 20-30 we know that these things are the promises of  GOD and the position and promises that come with being a Son/Daughter of Daddy.) IF GOD (if Daddy has allowed you the option to choose the decision on what action you will take or make in order to get to what he has already placed before you) is for us, who can be against us (Who can destroy, take away, talk about, mistreat  Your Daddy given victory?) so many times we miss Daddy's ifs thinking that we need to do more, but Daddy is simple he just wants your decision to be obedient to his word, will, and way and he will produce the things you didn't even know that you needed.

 Prayer: Daddy right now we stand on your IF. If you are for us, if we trust in you, if we hold on, you will do exceedingly, and abundantly over what we ask or think and because of that we will follow the if formula of you. Daddy today we make the decisions to be obedient and to yield to your will. We know that being in a position where you take control is not easy, that's why give us freewill, but today we surrender the free will you have given us for yours. We thank you that in we have promised that outlast the earth and in you we will reap the harvest of the seeds we did not sow, just because of your IF formula.  In Jesus Name. AMEN!

Life Changing

Daddy I really don't know how to start this conversation. My life and world has been turned upside down. My mind has change and my heart seems empty. I never thought that I would be here. In this place wondering where are you Daddy. Wondering why me and why now. Daddy I thought I was prepared for the moment of lost, but never did I phantom the aftermath of grief. Never did I think that the absence of the one I lost would conclude in me feeling lost, unloved, feeling faithless, losing sight of purpose and goals. Daughter stop before you go one let tell you my heart hurts  for you. I know that the absence of your love one is a grief that is also familiar to me. Seeing my son on that cross calling out to me as he called for me in hurt. It hurt worst knowing that if he didn't finish his assignment on the cross we couldn't have this conversation. Baby girl this life changing event was not to place you in a bad place, it was to trust me more.  This was not meant to break you but grow you and place you in the healing position... Don't think that your Daddy wanted it to go this way, but other's freewill has cause my plan to take longer. You are my Daughter and there is nothing in the world I want most than you taking joy in me. So daughter today let my love overflow in you, let my word sing over you. Know you can cry and lose your mind anytime knowing that I have your back and I love you more than this world. Know that peace I leave with you; not as the world give do I give to you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid (John 14:27). Daughter know that the mountains may move and the hills disappear, my love is faithful for you and will be broken.  Daddy thank you, my heart still feels some kind of way, but I know that you are healing me. Daughter it's my pleasure be bring comfort to your heart.

The Experience

On this past weekend after a girls roadtrip (which was suppose to be a day thing, that turned into a weekend) I got to experience something new that remind me of the story of the man whose friends place him in the center of healing in a house. So let me retell the story that can be found in Mark 2:4; Luke 5:19. So Jesus was in the town healing people and he was doing it in a house that fully packed with people that were seeking and getting healed. These friends of a paralyzed man decided that they need to bring their friend to this house so that JESUS could heal him. Well they couldn't get through the doors of the house due to the crowd, but they were desperate to get their friend healed. So with teamwork and careful planning they climb to the roof top of the house with their friend who was laying on a cot and beginning to tear the roof off the house. SIDEBAR: You need people in your life who are willing to think outside the box, and who are desperate to see you healed. Ok... Back to the story. So the friends created an opening big enough to lower the friend who was paralyzed and on the cot down to the center of the crowd and in front of JESUS. SIDEBAR: I don't know where they got the rope to attach to the cot to lower him down, but can I tell you, you always need friends that are prepared... So let's continue the story.... JESUS stop and said to the man... Because of the faith of your friends you are healed... Now it doesn't say anything about what happen to the friends, but in my Holy Ghost Imagination (that's what a former pastor of mine use to say) I know that JESUS healed his friends to... Why you say that, you ask? Because it was their selflessness, faith, perseverance, and reluctance love for their friend that they went to the extreme to get their friend healed. JESUS acknowledge that and in his acknowledge I feel he was speaking healing, prosperity, and blessings to them and their household. So with that being said let me go back to the story of my girls roadtrip. We were at a friends house, who told us that we needed to meet this young man who was a prophet. We were open and we had all been a place of needing something great to happen spiritually. So the young man came and begin to prophecy to us individually; afterwards, he begin to pray for two of the friends that came with me on the trip. Well why he prayed, I touch and agree and intercede for them as well. They in return got to experience the power of GOD's glory and healing with the evidence of the Holy Spirit. Now after every thing was over I beginning to experience the healing that I had been seeking Daddy for. Because of their experience I gain a blessing too. Just like the friends of the paralyzed man. Their faith manifested his healing, but they returned got blessed too. That's just like Daddy. He creates an opportunity for one person to get a direct experience of him, but in return others get to experience the effect of his glory too.

Prayer: Daddy thank you for the experience. The experience of your new grace and mercy daily. Your love and eternal peace. Your gift of life and the title to be your child, to be called son or daughter. Daddy we enjoy the experience of you period, never taking it for granted, never losing sight of its value in and over our life. Daddy thank you for the experience of your healing, your provision, and protection through the blood of JESUS. Thank you for the opportunity to always be able to come to you for ourselves and experience the weight of your glory. To dwell in the presence of you. We love you Daddy and we understand that an experience with you is greater than anything that this world could ever offer. In JESUS Name.... AMEN!

The Attitude of A Daughter

Ok.. I am coming to you Daddy because I realize that my attitude stinks. I mean truly stinks. For the past couple of months I have allowed myself to be sounded by my issues, situations, and circumstances, while trying to be there for others. I have cause myself to be moved, wavered, and persuaded by the things that others discussed with me. I have a bad attitude Daddy. I mean I am at a point where people just truly get on my nervous and I wonder why they are in my life..UGH Daddy I am totally disappointed with how I feel right now. Don't even know how this feeling came to be, but I do know that I don't like it and it's not me. I do know that this is not Christ like of me. Daddy this is not the attitude of your daughter. This is not how your children are suppose to look. I am filled with envy, which is bubbles over into jealousy, which manifest into anger, and result in disappointment. This is not the attitude of your daughter Daddy. What do I do? What can I pray? To get back to the attitude of your daughter? Daughter seek my word, change your behavior towards me. I have and still am a routine to you. You have to understand that you can't place me inside your box or a box period. I know you stress and strained about the prayers you feel I have not heard or answered. I know you think that things are coming against you and you doubtful about what this life has to offer. I know you had things under control and now they are out of your control. I know that you feel like things are happening for everyone but you. But daughter that should not change your attitude about the goodness of who I am as you father, provider, protector, love, friend, husband, counselor, listening year, and most of all your GOD. Did you forget that I am the "I AM?" Have you forgotten that I will and my will is greater than yours. Daughter change your attitude by changing your sight. Stop looking at the big picture or even the picture through your eyes. Stop looking at things as failure and start looking at the promise victory that I have always told you about. I know you feel like things are not working out in your favor and that you feel incomplete in certain areas. But you are whole in me. Stop looking at things in the perspective of time and opportunity and start looking at things in praise my glory. Here is what I need you to pray when your attitude doesn't look like mine:

*Prayer: Daddy this is the day that you have made I will rejoice and be glad in it. I believe that I will look up at the goodness of you and live in the land of the living. I will rejoice in hope, be patient in tribulation be constant in prayer. For Daddy I know that this light momentary affliction is preparing me for an eternal weight of glory beyond comparison. I know that whatever I ask in prayer I will receive only if I have faith. I will destroy arguments and every lofty opinion raised against the knowledge of  you Daddy, and take every thought captive to obey Christ. I will put off my old self and be made new in the attitude of my mind. Whatever I do I will do it all for the glory of you Daddy. Understanding that I must believe in your exists and seek you to see your rewards. I know that without faith it's impossible to please you Daddy; therefore, I look not to the things that are seen, but to the things that are unseen. For the things that are seen are transient, but the things that are unseen are eternal. Daddy today I place these things into effect in my life by sealing them in Jesus name  and agreeing to this decree with AMEN.

Now daughter pray these things when your attitude seem to to be out of place and it start to stink. Because while you are praying my Holy Spirit is convicting and the blood of my son Jesus is correcting. Remember my grace is sufficient it never runs out and it renews itself daily. Stay focus on me and stop trying to control what is out of your hands or not even meant for you to handle. I have you , but you have to truly trust me with your every thing. I will Daddy! I will work on trusting you moving in your yes instead of  going against your no and my it is so. Well Daughter that's all I ask. Love you! Love you too Daddy.

* The following are scriptures used to write the prayer. They are listed as they appeared in the prayer:
Ps118:24, Ps27:13, Rom12:12, 2Cor4:17, Matt21:22, 2Cor10:5, Eph 4:22-23, 1Cor10:31, Heb11:6, and 2Cor4:18 EVS and NIV

The Reveal

Today I take off the ashes of....my past, the sorrows of people's judgment about me, the pain of not meeting the goal, standard, and the expectations of others. The disappointments, the heartache, the shoulda coulda, woulda thoughts of what I could be, where I should go, and who would be there to support me. I take off the blame, the finger pointing, the failure of my plans, the destruction of my God image. The insecurity of not fitting in, the rejection of self due to the words and actions of people I gave titles. I take off everything that enemy told me I was and am. Today I became nake that Daddy you can clothe me with beauty. The beauty of your grace, love, mercy, peace, security, joy, favor, success and plan. Daddy I take on the clothing of forgiveness, redemption, freedom, righteousness, found in the blood of Jesus. I take the power back from the enemy and I say no more. I now take my rightful place back as the daughter of the high king. I am your daughter Daddy and today I confess my relationship with you, laying down my ashe cloth at your feet that you can heal that which it represents. Daddy sing over me. Sing that your glorious presence can shine through me. Make me, mode me, use me, and purpose me for your plan no matter how uncomfortable the task can or will be. Daddy simply stated make me beautiful in your image again. Take away the thoughts of what calls beauty out my heart and replace it with yours. Today Daddy let me see you. No Daddy I see you. I realize there is nothing impossible for you. Today I reveal the healed me... Because Daddy you are my healer, you are the provider of all me needs, your protect from danger seen and unseen. You wave your banner of victory over me. You hold me safely in your arms. You are the anchor that holds my life in your presence when storms come with the mission to destroy me. Daddy I reveal you in me. I reveal the rest I find in you as my flesh dies and my spirit lives boldly before your thrown dwelling in presence. I reveal my worship, singing my song unashamed. I reveal that you are the great I Am. I reveal I'm an adopted daughter of a king that has unending treasures. I reveal that I'm an overcomer, standing battle ready. I reveal I'm free, never to be overcome with grief again, my ransom has been paid, thank you Jesus. I understand that lost will come and those that value will leave, but I reveal a spirit of celebration during theses moments. I reveal I'm not my divorce. Man may have rejected, but God you took me in, married me to your son and allow him to prepare a place for me. Daddy take my feet deeper than they would ever wander that my faith would be made stronger in the presence of my groom, my savior, the connector of our relationship, and my redeemer. I reveal a faith without boarders. I reveal an awakening in my spirit. I activated the holy spirit that lives inside me, that it may interact with the spirit of God. Flood me with your glory and presence. I reveal....I reveal.....I reveal that I'm free and part the freedom generation. I rise up with fire in my heart for you Daddy,I will go all end for you. I reveal that I'm a daughter of the king, a bride of the bridegroom, the heir to the thrown, and a princess to Abba.

Encourage Heart

I was seating here reflecting on things that Daddy has placed on my heart in this season and during this season.... so here it tones:
Always cheat on your sins with GOD's presence.
You are never ready for an assignment, but you are always equipped to do it.
The heart of a man is the foundation of his love for GOD
If you want true intimacy seek the heart of GOD and experience the pureness of his love
Healing is not in your Amen, it's in the action of your faith.
Last... Worship is not an act of surrendering it's an offering of yourself and in the process of you worshipping surrendering takes place.