Life Changing

Daddy I really don't know how to start this conversation. My life and world has been turned upside down. My mind has change and my heart seems empty. I never thought that I would be here. In this place wondering where are you Daddy. Wondering why me and why now. Daddy I thought I was prepared for the moment of lost, but never did I phantom the aftermath of grief. Never did I think that the absence of the one I lost would conclude in me feeling lost, unloved, feeling faithless, losing sight of purpose and goals. Daughter stop before you go one let tell you my heart hurts  for you. I know that the absence of your love one is a grief that is also familiar to me. Seeing my son on that cross calling out to me as he called for me in hurt. It hurt worst knowing that if he didn't finish his assignment on the cross we couldn't have this conversation. Baby girl this life changing event was not to place you in a bad place, it was to trust me more.  This was not meant to break you but grow you and place you in the healing position... Don't think that your Daddy wanted it to go this way, but other's freewill has cause my plan to take longer. You are my Daughter and there is nothing in the world I want most than you taking joy in me. So daughter today let my love overflow in you, let my word sing over you. Know you can cry and lose your mind anytime knowing that I have your back and I love you more than this world. Know that peace I leave with you; not as the world give do I give to you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid (John 14:27). Daughter know that the mountains may move and the hills disappear, my love is faithful for you and will be broken.  Daddy thank you, my heart still feels some kind of way, but I know that you are healing me. Daughter it's my pleasure be bring comfort to your heart.