Day 21 of This Is Personal (TIP) 21 Day Fast: The Finale

 Dear Reader: 

I am excited that you got to join me on this awesome fast. I hope it blessed you like it blessed me.

This Is Personal (TIP)  is a 21-day fast and journey. During this journey, we will move from seeing the Word of GOD as a guidebook to seeing it as a space for personal encounters with GOD! We will explore three focus scriptures and create space for us to reflect and journal about: How to create our own record book with GOD,  How to move from who we are to who GOD has called us to be, and How to stand firm in the process during the difficult times.  Though the journey is individualized and personal, it allows for collective accountability and discussion. 

You can send your prayer request and answers to the homework assignments to: thisispersonaldevotional@gmail.com

She Reached The Hem of His Garment

Great Day Readers!!! 

Can you believe that January has almost ended and we are about to be in February and that I have done two entries this month?!? Let's pray I keep it up! I am going to truly try as my life continues to create opportunities of demands and advancements. My declaration this year is to be consistent in all the assignments GOD has called me to. 

This morning I  sent out a text to the people that are in my inner circle about something so personal and vulnerable to me. It came after me preaching a message and honestly me realizing I had never said some things out loud about parts of my life as a wife. I had never openly and out loud admit that my bleeding was caused by a miscarriage because by the time we got to the doctor to see what was going on I was no longer pregnant. After taking pregnant tests prior. What do you do when you know something; however, your denial and others' influence will tell you that you are lying to yourself? (That's another topic for another day) Below is the message that I sent to my circle that I feel that you could benefit from. I hope that it blesses and frees you as it did me.

Good morning! Listen on yesterday I got to preach on the story of the woman with the issue of blood, it's one of my favorite stories due to the fact I used to be her. No, I didn't bleed for 12 years; however, the almost year of bleeding felt like forever. It created so many emotional trauma moments and increased my areas of fear. It causes me to question my existence and my womanhood. I was married at the time to an insensitive husband, who didn't understand the fears that haunt me in my sleep. Not meeting his needs, realizing I had a miscarriage, and not knowing if or could I get pregnant again. I felt alone and isolated, ashamed, embarrassed, and scared. However, during my morning meditation, these scriptures spoke to me. 

God, I invite your searching gaze into my heart. Examine me through and through; find out everything that may be hidden within me. Put me to the test and sift through all my anxious cares. See if there is any path of pain I’m walking on, and lead me back to your glorious, everlasting way— the path that brings me back to you. Psalms 139:23‭-‬24 TPT

 He heals the wounds of every shattered heart. Psalms 147:3 TPT 

I know you are wondering how did those two scriptures speak to you. When I reflect back on that moment I remember the anxiety and depression I felt, "anxious thoughts and path of pain". It wasn't until I ask Daddy to search me that the second scripture started to manifest. I don't know where you are in this journey called life. I don't know if you are still in the first scripture or you experiencing the second. I just want to encourage you to stand still and allow Daddy (GOD) to heal you. Know I'm praying for you and I love you! Thank you for the honor to do both.

Even though that text was for my circle, that text was meant for you as well. You may not be in either place. You may be in a place where life is all good and you are progressing along in this journey; however, use this as a reminder when times get hard.

Prayer: Daddy thank you that even in the midst of adversity, disappointment, frustration, and confusion, you are there to search us, guide us, and heal us. You are there to remind us that you heal, you create wholeness, and you are at peace we just have to stand still long enough for you to search us. We love you and honor you. Thank you for being the one that creates ways out of no way. In Jesus Name! Amen

Hebrew Boys Faith

Listen I don't know about you, but the weight of waiting has been heavy on me lately. The wait of waiting on the unanswered prayers and deepest cries of my heart desires. I was talking to my mentor about how I was feeling and how the weight of waiting was turning into depression. I found myself paralyzed and lame in the thoughts of my wait. After telling me the feelings I felt were ok my mentor hit me with a question that hurt me and arrested me at the same time. She said "Shawndrika,  what if what you have been waiting on never manifest in the earth? Will you respond with the faith of the 3 Hebrew boys...Even if He doesn't do it we still know He can?" (Daniel 3:17-18) I looked at her crazy as tears fell from my eyes to know this statement of faith could be my reality. Though I felt broken at the thought of this reality, the Holy Spirit arrested me at the same time. He reminded me that when the 3 Hebrew boys made that statement it wasn't  from a place of doubt or hopelessness but, from a place of true surrendering. They were saying to Daddy even if we don't see you manifest the situation in our favor like we want you to, you will still come through and get the glory out of  our lives. That's the key...Daddy getting the glory!! What you are praying and waiting for may not manifest or come in the package you want, however, if you surrender it to Daddy...it will manifest His glory in your life and draw you closer to Him. I hope this word and revelation reminds you that the wait is worth it! Remember the weight is there for you to surrender not to hold.

Prayer: Daddy we thank you that even in our heaviest moments you wait for us to surrender that you may get the glory out of our lives. We yield to your will today as we wait for you to manifest your glory. We take heart that what we are waiting on may not come in the package we want or the time we think we want it, however, it will come on time and work in our favor. In Jesus Name. AMEN!

Merry New Year

It's 2019 and I don't know about you, but I am so excited about everything Daddy has planned for me to accomplish this year. I was really feeling lost, unprepared, and unplanned about this year.  But, during vision casting today I realize I just need to have a board meeting with Daddy A meeting to ask  Him what is it that He is requiring of me, and what I need to do in order to get those things accomplished. The answer He gave was so profound. I will share it with you.

Know this is the year of activation and cultivation. This means that you can't hide behind the scenes anymore. I am going to pull on your gifts... Yes, gifts... You have become comfortable with one gift, and I have many more in store for you. Don't allow constructive criticism to be seen as a personal failure. Know that it is pruning and refining you for your next. It may not feel good and yes it's uncomfortable, but it's necessary for this season. Here is what I need from you:

- Eradicate, the root of generational curses that have caused you to fall. Seek me for the strategy to do this.

- Place, yourself in a position where you can be used for my will, not yours. Be comfortable with being uncomfortable.

- Openness. Be open to hearing me, feel me, and know me at another level and realize that I am about to do something new, and you are worthy of what I have for you.

-Opportunity. Position yourself in a place to be poured into and cultivated. Be ok when people pull on your gift. Don't be a shame of the opportunity I present to you.

-Obedience is better than sacrifice. You can't sacrifice who I called you to be in order to fit in. This is the season that you need to learn how to be ok with sticking out. Be obedient to the crazy instructions I give. The ones that don't even make sense.

-Press, beyond your emotions, feelings, disappointments, discouragements, and discomfort. I am a prize worth fighting for.

-Pursue, me like you never have before. Know that I seek for you to be lost in me until there is no more you, only me.

If you do these things daughter I will show you my favor, you will experience a new level of joy, peace, grace, love, and your self-control will go to another level.

These instructions aren't easy nor are they hard. They are a challenge to trust Daddy in His word, actions, and your relationship with Him. Question: How much do you trust Him?

If you aren't new to this blog,  then you know that I have an issue with trusting Daddy with my all, but in 2019 my prayer has been... Daddy, I trust you with me and all of me !!!  I won't worry. I won't doubt. I won't look back.

Prayer: Daddy this year we seek to be what you called us to be, and not what we are comfortable being. We seek to walk in your will, word, and way, trusting you all the way. We seek to fall in love with you and we know that it's you we pursue. Thank you, Daddy, for this new year, and please forgive us for not being comfortable with being uncomfortable, as you take us to a new level. In Jesus Name! AMEN!!

Pick Me Up In The Spirit

So, the other day I was strolling through Instagram and I came upon this post that stated: "Check on your strong friends".  I don't know about you, but that statement hit a string in my spirit. Why? Because I am "The" strong friend. I am the friend that wakes up and prays in the middle of the night with you. The friend that you can lean on. The friend that is pushing, motivating and encouraging you to get to your next. I am "The Strong Friend".  After seeing that post I had some thoughts come to my head. Well, technically the thoughts came after an emotion I had about two people I consider to be my best friends made me feel some kind of way. I have embarked on a new journey in my life that requires more than what I expected to give, honestly. This journey has caused me to be busier, but not busy at the same time.  (I know that sounds confusing...let me see if I can explain it better) It has caused me to be in a position of being on call with some flexibility. But, this doesn't mean that I did not or don't have time for my friends. After looking at pictures of them having fun on the weekend, it made me realize that these people that I have labeled best friends to the point to call them sister and brother, don't pick me up in the spirit like I do them. They aren't in tune with me like I am with them, and that made me really upset. Because, when they need me I am there, whether they verbally express it or I pick it up in my spirit.

Me having these feelings lead to a conversation I had with my little sister when I told her that my desire in this season is for someone, anyone in my circle to just pick me up in the spirit. I just want one person to say" I am praying for you. I am proud of you. Thank you for being a friend". Something!! Then I was reminded of a scripture found in Philippians 4:14 " Yet it was kind of you to share my trouble".  (ESV) That scripture really spoke my heart. It caused me to be in a place where I had to evaluate my friends and even myself. Am I the friend that picks her friends up in the spirit? When I do, do I act in a way to cover them? Protect them? Heck, call and check on them? The answer to the last two questions is no. Why? I really can't tell you the why behind it. But, what I can tell you is that I am striving to do better and have apologized to those that I have dropped after picking them up in the spirit.

Today, I want to challenge us to not only desire friends that pick us up in the spirit. But, to actually be the friend that executes the actions after we pick friends up in the spirit.

Prayer:  Daddy, thank you for building us to carry the weight of your Spirit in us. Thank you for allowing us to be in a position that we can pick up our friends. And that You have surrounded us with people that can pick us in the spirit as well. Daddy, help us be bold enough to act on the picking up. Help us be able to not only pick them up but actually call and check on them. Help us to be consistent in our check-ins and helps us maintain a connection that we can pick them up as often as needed. In Jesus name!!! AMEN!!!

P.S. Day 2 of #bloglikecrazy completed!!! Thank you for reading and coming on this journey with me.

Birthday Behavior

Hello Readers!!!

I know, I know!!! I haven't posted in two weeks!! But, can I be honest I haven't had the energy and know how to post, what you need in order to be in encouraged. So, I had to get my life and pray about what I needed to share with you.

So, today is a special day. I didn't want to release this blog on Tuesday as usual because I wanted you to be a part of my birthday celebration. Yes, today is my birthday and I am super excited about it. Every year for the last 6 years I have always been in a funk when it is time for my birthday countdown. I would find myself comparing where I should be to where I am. I would think about all that I lost. My areas of lack. My areas of fear and frustration. Anything negative, I thought about it as my birthday approached. But, this year was different I don't know what happened or when it happened. (That's usually how Daddy works. He will shift you and transition into your next without you  being fully aware of the shift or the transition).

Today is not your usual blog.  It is a blog filled with revelation and insight. One to encourage you to enjoy life in spite of! This blog is to bring you more aware of what is going on with you. What Daddy wants to do through you. How you can live the abundant life that Jesus talks about in John 10:10

Let's get started!!!

As I prepared for today I decided to do three things. 1. Reflect. Not on what I wanted and needed. Not on what I did not have. But, reflect on the fact that I did not look like what I had been through. I start to look at pictures from the last 6 years. I saw how I lost and gain weight. I saw how my mask sometimes showed, but no one confronted me about it. I saw how I pushed through despite feeling like life was not even worth living. 2. Realize. I came to the realization that who I am will never be who everyone needed me to be. I will not be able to please everyone, fit there mode, or even be accepted by everyone. Last 3. Revelation. I got the revelation that I have not lived up to my full potential. That I have allowed myself to become complacent, fearful, and doubtful. I found myself comparing myself to people I thought I wanted to be, instead of asking Daddy what He needed me to be.

Through these decisions, five things were birth out of me. 1. Concentration. I realize that I need to focus on what is in front of me. Learn from what is behind me. Prepare for what is ahead of me.  By doing these things I will be able to be productive. 2. Consistent. When you create a routine that works keep working it. Keep building on it. Having foundation is the key to success and consistency is the cornerstone. Daddy is consistent, and because we are made in His image we must be the same. 3. Courage. You must be bold enough to think outside your box. To be in a position where you are willing to say "Yes," in spite of the test. Your "Yes", can't be compromised due to your discomfort. Which brings me to the fourth thing...4. Comfort. You must become comfortable being uncomfortable. See the more you get used to being uncomfortable the more you get shifted and transited into your next. Last but not least 5. Completion. This one is hard because I am so goal oriented that I felt like this referred to my assignment and not me as a person. But, this completion is about being whole. It's about realizing that what you thought you needed was not what you really needed. It's about being ok with you despite your flaws. It's the summary of everything I have discussed with you so far.

So, I am sure you are wondering how can all this information help you out. What can you do with this information? Simple. Use it. Look and see what you need to work on in the three decisions. What decisions do you need to make that you haven't made? What decisions do you need to re-evaluate? The five things birth out of me... Well, those or my tools, revelations, elements of life. They are the things that I need for this next chapter. They can be some or all that you need in your current journey.

Today, I challenge you to use my birthday to create a new year for you. No, not a new you, a new year. We are always waiting for January 1 for us to start all over. But, the reality is, our new year starts every time we open our eyes and breathe the breath of life.

Prayer: Daddy, we thank you for this moment. The moment to breathe, your breath of life. The moment to really get somethings straight in our lives. We thank you for the ability to point out the things we need to deal with. The thing that we need to evaluate and make decisions about in our lives. We realize we do not have time to waste, and we must stay in tune with you. Thank you for your guidance through your Holy Spirit. This moment could not be productive without your Holy Spirit. In JESUS name! AMEN!

Demand In The Earth, Dangerous Prayer (Part 1)

So, last week I told you about my transition and this week can I tell you about my dangerous prayer?
Ok, I know you are like a dangerous prayer... Yep, a prayer so dangerous that you are scared to even pray it because the consequences are so great and the process may feel unbearable. A prayer that comes with life-changing results and a stretch, tug, and pulls on your purpose and next. With all that being said and explained, let me tell you my dangerous prayer...

I was with one of my favorite sisters and she was on the phone with someone talking about the service that she offered through her company that she is the founder and CEO of.  (She is an international educator. She teaches all over the world and helps parents in and outside of the US become better educators for their children) As she continued her call I realize how much a demand my sister and her services were in the earth. I told her, "Sis you are truly a demand in the earth"...That's when the dangerous prayer entered my spirit and came out my mouth... "Lord I want to be a demand in the earth". I didn't realize it was a dangerous prayer until three days later when I got an email saying... "Hey girl, I have been looking for you!" 72 hours after praying, GOD the manifestation of my words became my reality. So, I knew what I prayed had to be dangerous due to the quick turn around that took place.  A week after getting the email, I was on a call with another sister who told me, "Sis, I am glad you called me I need you to pray about your participation in a conference that I am having in October." Look, let me tell you all something when I prayed that prayer, I was not really expecting results. OOOOOOO... Pause...Stop, back that up... "I said when I prayed the prayer I was not really expecting results". How many times do we pray prayers without the expectation of seeing them manifest? I'll wait, while you think of the many times you said prayers that you thought would take forever or never to manifest.

Let's be real for a moment, we pray some prayers and expect GOD to do them right away, but there are times that we pray and before we say AMEN, we already thinking GOD ain't about to do that for real.  But, we continue to pray the dangerous prayers not realizing the setup that we are creating for ourselves.

I know you are wondering what am I trying to tell you. Am I encouraging you to pray these dangerous prayers? Am I warning you about these dangerous prayers?  What am I telling you? I'm telling you both. I want to encourage you to pray these prayers, but be aware of what comes with them. Be ready to deal with the consequences or should I say the demand that will come with them. You will be the one that people seek out. You will be the missing piece of the puzzle. You will be the one that creates a demand on someone else. Do me a favor take time right now to pray your dangerous prayer (don't read another line until you do). All it takes is one time, and that one time will cause you to pray more dangerous prayers.

Prayer: Daddy thank you for making us aware of the impact we can have on the earth if we are bold enough to pray dangerous prayers. Thank you for letting us know that we can be a demand in the earth, that you have purposed us to be a blessing to others, and create moments where you can move and breath life in situations. Thank you for allowing us to be what the earth needs for your glory. Thank that today we open our mouths with a heart of anticipation to speak the dangerous prayers that are needed for your victory to be seen. In JESUS name... AMEN!

The Blow of Faith

This week is my first week in my new position in full time ministry. Though my plan has not gone  quite how I wanted I can say this move has granted me peace despite the pay cut. But what really got me was a conversation that the Holy Spirit brought to me that the enemy was trying to use to blow my faith. Yes readers this blog entry has a two part meaning because that's just how Daddy works. He works in parts and process and this little lesson is both.

There is something about growth that causes you to get to a place were you want  and need to express the doubts of your heart while exposing the the weaknesses of your faith and this is one of those moments. After saying YES to GOD one always wonders what that YES truly means. Does it mean the Matthew 6:33 Yes which states "I will seek first the kingdom of GOD and all his righteousness."? Or maybe it's the Proverbs 3:5-6 "Leaning not to your own understand, acknowledge him and he will direct your path." Or last maybe Phil 4:6 "Be anxious for nothing but through prayer and thanksgiving make your request know." Can I tell you it's all of that. A Yes to Daddy is the blowing of your faith. It will have you seeking the kingdom while your bill collectors are calling you talking about law suites. It will give you peace when you do not know when and were you will get the money to pay your rent, but you know that your Daddy is covering you so you give thanks any how. It is leaning not on your own understand and asking the Holy Spirit to guide you because clearly you are not aware of where you are going. That's what a  Blow of a Faithful YES looks like .It will cause your faith to blow in  directions beyond your strength and ask yourself "Why didn't I do this sooner.?"

But in that same moment of revelation, we can find ourselves  having our faith blowing by thoughts of negativity. Thoughts that make us question is this really GOD lead or self want. GOD was I suppose to go into ministry full time? Was I suppose to be doing this, that, or the other? Yep, that great yes can make the enemy place thoughts in your head that could blow your faith. But aren't you glad that our Daddy is stronger? Because just when the enemy feels like he has us in a place where our faith will be blown into pieces, GOD reminds us  that we have purpose, that we are destine to GREATER works, that we are fearfully and wonderfully made, and He has not forgotten about us. WHAT A GREAT DADDY!!!

So today no matter what part of the process you are in.... The part where you just gave your best YES or the part where you wondering why you said YES in the first place, know that DADDY is about to blow your faith. The winds of the enemy has nothing on DADDY. It may feel that enemy's winds are stronger, faster, heavy, and destructive, but let me give you the heads ups, it's just smoke and mirrors, in other words do not get caught in the illusion.

Prayer: Daddy today I blow my faith towards you no matter the cost. I realize that the enemy has tactics that can make my YES to you feel like a doubtful move of waiving faith, but it really just a trick to get me off the promises of the YES and AMEN that you spoke into my life before I was formed in my mother's womb. So today Daddy I repent. I repent  for allowing the illusions of Satan's tactics to get me in a place where I doubted your guidance, provision, process, love, and grace. I repent for not seeking Your kingdom first while you take care of my needs. Thank you Daddy for another chance to get my faith blown in the direction of Your will for my life. I thank you on this day I realize that this is a process and I am willing to go all the way because you will guide my every step with your light. In Jesus Name AMEN!

Gut Punched

So today during my prayer time GOD checked me about my words and how I see myself. Now remind you that I was not praying for me at all. I had completed my intercession for those that I need to pray for and had read my devotion for the morning. I have purposely been making a conscience effort to be silent after prayer, because I told Daddy I wanted to hear from him. I wanted to start really making my prayer time the two way conversation it should be.

So as I laid there in silence, tempted to speak. I heard God say this "Humility is not denying your gift, ability, or beauty by dumbing them down. Humility is being in a place of acknowledging that I gave you those things and thanking me for them and sharing them with others. " So let me give you some background. I always deny my greatness.... Always. Let me give you an example... People will say "You are so smart. " I will say I don't feel that way I just think of good ideas that work out some time. See there, I was thinking I was being humble but in actually I'm downing the greatness of God in me.  

I know you wondering where did the gut punch come in... Well, Daddy check me.  He said and I quote "Every time you down grade you,  you down grade me. " Ouch!  " Being thankful and boastful can have a thin line sometimes and I understand why you try to dummy down who you are, but people aren't recognizing you they are recognizing me through you.  So when you get a compliment that's the opportunity to give me glory.  Because to deny anything great in you is like saying Daddy you messed up, you not perfect, you didn't know what you were doing when you created me. " Ouch again.... And there my readers is the gut punch. 

Today I  urge you to check your thoughts of humility.  Are you trying to dummy down who you are so you won't sound boastful? If you answered yes can I tell you that's not good. To be humble and not cross the line of boastfulness, you simply must give Daddy the glory and he will take it from there.

Prayer: Daddy thank you for the gut punches that you give. Thank even in our trying to be right we don't have to deny you to be humble. That Daddy when given a compliment or bring bragged on it's an opportunity for us to give you glory. Thank you Daddy, for those moments and reminding us everything about us is good and perfect because we are a reflection of your image.  In  Jesus Name!  Amen

Unbothered Daddy

So I am in my office with all these thoughts going on in my head and I pick up my daily devotion calendar that is displayed on my desk just to change the date. Let me remind you I have had this calendar for years! Maybe 13 plus years. But I pick it up to read what March 21 says and this scripture has wreaked my day like literally wreak my day. Tore up my brokenness, rip my doubt, and breathe life into me. Isaiah 54:10 NIV: "Though the mountains be shaken and the hills be removed, yet my unfailing love for you will not be shaken nor my covenant of peace be removed,” says the LORD, who has compassion on you."

I know you saying how could that one scripture wreak you like that? Well when you are in a place where you don't know if Daddy  is doing something for you and feel like things are going silent.

You wonder Daddy do you still love me? I mean to feel like Daddy are you really bothered by the things that I am bothered by or am I just praying empty prayers? Well this scripture  just ripped  those thoughts and more out my head. In one reading my heart was change and I had an awaking moment of who Daddy is. Daddy is Unbothered. That means that there is nothing I can do, this world can give, bill collectors can say, my finances can show that moves Daddy away from his covenant of peace. Ok, let me preach to myself. There is no amount of debt, issues, reports, stress, fear, anxiety, disappointment, feeling, or emotion that can shake Daddy’s love, compassion, or peace for me and towards me. Do you understand that? Daddy is so unbothered about what we are bothered about. He does not care how much the world says we have failed. Whether it be with goals we have set, debt we tried to cancel, or the lack of funds in our bank account. Daddy is unbothered with our strategies, but he is bothered that we have not sought out his peace and love, and that we have become so overwhelm with the world that we have allowed mountains and hills to block us from his presence. 

Prayer: Daddy help us to become unbothered by the things of this world, our life issues, and every strategy that we have created to get us out of whatever we have created for ourselves. Daddy help us become bothered by your love, peace, presence, word, and will for our lives. Help us become bothered by your supplication, provision, and strategy. Help us become bothered with being bothered in you. Bothered by your voice….Bothered by your assignments for our lives…Bothered by your love, healing, and just you Daddy. In Jesus Name! AMEN

Goodbye and Hello

EEwww!!! I don't know about you, but I am glad that 2016 is coming to an end. I am glad that I did not experience any really lost this year, but seeing my friends say goodbye to family members and helping them through the grieving process has been something else. Seeing people have what I have been praying for... I mean rolling on the floor, crying out to GOD about, and fasting for come to pass in their life with ease and me feeling like GOD had forgotten about me has been a test of true faith. But with all the bad came some good. Not only did I get one new job, I got two! I was able to see my sister work in her purpose, graduate with my third degree, and see numerous of friends get engage. What a great way to say goodbye to 2016 and hello to 2017. 

As I continue to share my Daddy Daughter Conversations for the fourth year I pray that three things take place in the heart of you the readers:

1. You become inspired to stretch your faith to a level that makes you lose control.

2. You remember that Daddy loves you and that he is seeking to have many conversations with you. He wants to give you the plans, purpose, and favor you need to accomplish all the assignments that he has prepared for you.

3. You remember the power of your words and that you use them wisely. Remember that all it took was a word for GOD to create the earth. And that same power rest inside you. 

Love you all and thank you for being open to reading the imperfections of my perfect love and conversations with our Daddy.

Prayer: Daddy as we say goodbye to one year and hello to a new one, we ask that you give us guidance to accomplish all that you have called us to. That we never miss a moment to communion with you. That we never take for granted the opportunity to be in your presences and express our love to you. Daddy, we ask that you correct us in anger, helps us control our flesh, and reassure us when our faith gets weary. We speak life to the dead things in our life, and we speak death to those things that hinder us from our purpose in you. We seek you more, not for your hand, but to see your face. We open our hearts to your love and our ears to your voice. That 2017 will not look like a reflection of 2016. We celebrate you on today Daddy, and we thank you for the opportunity to see a new year for so many will not be able to have the chance to start all over again. We thank you for the newness in our life, and before this year ends we celebrate everything you have purposed and favor us for no matter the time frame, Daddy we trust you more and more. 

In Jesus Name

AMEN

#Goodbye2016Hello2017

Victory in Him

Good Morning Readers!!!

It's been a while since I have blogged and I do apologize I hope that my time management will be better since I have now shift into a new position, which by the way is what this blog is about. So let me see if I can tell this story as short as possible so that I can get to the meat. About 6 months ago I start getting indirectly bullied by a co-worker that has been in the field for about 20 plus years. She felt the need to tell me how to do my job to others and criticize how I get my work done. It even got to the point that she was having meetings with my direct and indirect supervisor without me. I finally got feed up and meet with her and my indirect supervisor. After the meeting, I felt like maybe somethings should ease up, but unfortunately, that was not the case and because of this stress started to cause hair loss and health problems. (Sidebar: What do you do when the enemy comes after your glory? Answer will be given later) Well of course like any other person I started to pray for instructions, answers, and directions. I got it! It was time for me go and move towards something new. It was not hard to swallow it was just hard to deal with the process of applying for jobs and not hearing anything for months. But let me tell you that GOD is Jehavoha Jira.. he will provide in his perfect timing and give you the desires of your heart. So today is my last day at a job that I have worked at for 4 years. I have learned so much, gain so many relationships, and had the honor of working with one of best friends, and it still hasn't hit me that I am leaving.   What does that have to do with Trusting the GOD in You?  All through this process, I have learned how to do one thing Proverbs 15:1 A soft answer turns away wrath. Because of my soft answers, speaking to the coworker that was bullying me, and being the example for those watching me, I learned how to trust the GOD in me. I learn that there are times GOD needs you to be the example even when you are going through, and even be a person of integrity even when you have the right to not be. To be in a position where show love when loving that person hurts. But the GOD in you says stand in trust me. Let me encourage someone right now. The enemy will present ways of escape that look like GOD's but know that the illusion of his way will always get you back to where GOD told you to be in the first place. Stand still and watch GOD not only fight your battles but make your enemies your footstool. They will know who GOD is by the time you realize that victory has already been won on your behalf.

Prayer: Daddy trusting the GOD in me has been the most difficult thing to do in this season when it seems that everyone but me is getting the desires of their heart. Help me realize that your timing for me and my life is totally perfect and if I just stand then you show my enemies what victory looks like.  Daddy help me to trust your instructions, stand on your word, listen quickly and speak slowly. Help me to remain confident in this one thing that I will see the goodness of you. In Jesus Name. AMEN!

The Statement

Hey blog readers it's been a while since I post something but while on facebook I ran across a memory note that bless me all over again.

The note is titled: THE STATEMENT

So in a conversation that I had with a sister on tonight she brought out something that I never thought about. So may time in our time of repentance we make the statement "GOD forgive me for the decisions that I MADE." As she was praying for me, she stated "GOD allow my sister to move past the statement I MADE, because YOU are the author and finisher of our life story." NOW maybe you didn't get the revelation of the statement, so let me break it down. SHE said that I MADE, BUT YOU ARE THE AUTHOR AND FINISHER of OUR LIFE STORY. Which means that there is no such thing as a "MADE" Decision. Ok. GOD is the creator of all, and in the word He gives us free-will, but that doesn't cancel the fact that He created the situation to the decisions that we make. These same decisions that either set us up or out. Ok. I'm sorry I'm about to lose it over here. GOD knows what decisions that we are going to make as well as the outcome of how it will play out. Let me just say this, in order to be a victor you must receive the victory of YOUR LIFE STORY!

This bless me all over again!!! I was deep before marriage..lol But the point of this is that we have to realize the statements we make will never change the course to our GOD destination. There are two examples that come to mind from the Bible that really confirm how the statement of our decisions will not change our GOD destination. Come here Jonah. He decided that he was not going to do what GOD called him to do and despite his attempt to escape the assignment by verbally speaking his plan, he still ended on the shore of his GOD destination. Come here Peter... You told JESUS you would not deny him but you did it several time and you curse... But look at you being the disciple you were called to be leading nations to Christ!!! WE can make decision but despite our decisions we will get to the GOD destination. The question remains will you take the 40 year or 40 day journey???

Prayer: Daddy today we come to you to say thank you for being the author and finisher of our life story. We realize that no matter what decisions we make you will get us to Your destination. We thank you for forgiving us in our bad decision making that manifest disobedience, and giving us the opportunity to reach our GOD destination in your grace and mercy. Daddy we shift towards a mindset of obedience and we thank you that no matter what statement we make the result is we win in you. Daddy help stay the course of  your will. Help us warn off distractions that cause your voice to be drowned by the weight of this world and the worries of this life. Remind us Daddy that you are the provider and everything we need can and will be found in you. Daddy help us make the right statements over our life and speak only what you have spoke to us. Help us trust you and help us with our faith in you when things don't look like what we think they should look like. Remind us that your timing is perfect and what you have in store for us is greater than any thing that we could even image or think.  In JESUS Name! AMEN

The Art of Fighting

This has been a week. It has been a week of constant fighting and constant trust in the word of GOD. For the last two years FEAR has been my biggest fight. The FEAR of failure, FEAR of rejection, FEAR of sacrifice, FEAR of not being loved or being able to love again, FEAR of not completing goals, FEAR of losing more than I can handle, FEAR of grieving, FEAR of the enemy, FEAR of me and ability to be successful, FEAR of the unknown, FEAR of losing, and most importantly FEAR of not being good enough. That's a lot of FEAR I know and as I type this I feel the weight of FEAR being revealed and release off my life so let me keep typing. F.E.A.R. False Evidence Appearing Real. The word of GOD clearly states that GOD has not given us the spirit of FEAR (False Evidence Appearing Real) but has given the power, love, and sound mind (2Tim1:7 ) So why is the fight so great when it comes to FEAR? Why is it so great to the point it that it can manifest as  a spirit that can over take your mind even in your dream. That even in the places you see as your safety the spirit of FEAR continues to be ever present. For me it has manifested in my dreams. I can have pleasant dream and then the natural manifestation of FEAR comes in and I wake up to the enemy standing over me trying to over take me. But today I take on the art of fighting. The first thing we must due when facing fear is we must learn how to trust Daddy. So many times we cause our own fear by losing focus on what Daddy has told us to do. Disobedience will cause the door of FEAR to creep open. We must meditate on the word  that gives us simple instructions on how to focus: Fear not for I am with you. (Isa. 41:10) How can we take this instruction and apply it to our life? Well if Daddy told us that he is with us then we have nothing to lose. He also states that nothing can separate us from his love, (Romans 8:38) NOTHING. So when FEAR makes you feel like you have been separated from GOD know that this is just the trick of the enemy, because the only thing that separates you from Daddy is you. Now that you know that GOD is always with you, you have to trust the presence of his love. Zephaniah 3:17 The LORD your God is in your midst, a mighty one who will save; he will rejoice over you with gladness; he will quiet you by his love; he will exult over you with loud singing. You have to trust the song that GOD sings over you know that it is one with great plans and it will restore your joy, give you peace, and allow you to know that he will always save you no matter what.  After you have trust him, dwell in his love, you next must operate an take your position of authority. First power you possess is your faith. Hebrew 11:1 For Faith is the confidence... We are going to stop right there. Faith is your confidence with it your can conquer everything! It causes you to speak with boldness and assurance that whatever you tell Daddy he will do, but also it allows you to cast down, destroy, and cancel the assignments, ambushes, and attacks of the enemy. Second remember your place, title, and position. Psalms 8:4-6 discusses our position and power:  "what are mere mortals that you should think about them, human beings that you should care for them? Yet you made them only a little lower than God  and crowned them with glory and honor. You gave them charge of everything you made, putting all things under their authority." Let me encourage you some more about your power. Romans 8:11 states that the same power that raised Christ from the dead is the same power that lives inside of us. Wait so you mean to tell me that the same power that rolled the stone away, took off Jesus's dead clothes, and clothed him with clothing of life lives in me?!?! Yep that's what I am saying. So what power does FEAR really have but what you give it. So today let's conquer this False Evidence Appearing Real that we  have given power to. Let's stand in our true authority and rest in FAITH know that GOD will always make a way out of no way and he will do beyond what he said he would do. 

Prayer: Daddy thank you for always giving us the answers to our issues, situations, circumstances, and reminding us of our power, authority, and position in you. Daddy we thank you with that all we need is in you and that FEAR has no power over your love, joy, peace, and presence. We thank you that in our thanksgiving you take hold to our FEAR and create a yearning to have faith in your word, promises, will, and perfect timing. Daddy we thank you that on today that every thing that we labled or connected to FEAR is being destroyed and we relinquished the power of the enemy out and off our life. We will no longer feed the spirit of FEAR by submitting to it's authority. We take the spirit of FEAR under our authority that we have due to our position of being the sons and daughters of the Most High, and we cast it to the pit of hell in which it was formed and we release the power of your love and trust in you GOD In JESUS NAME. We thank you Daddy that we shut down the gates of the enemy and we cancel every plan that has been formed to destroy us through the use of FEAR. We thank you DADDY that we declare victory and freedom from FEAR and we no longer yield to the authority of FEAR or the plans to FEAR. We sit, we taken in, and we continue to speak FAITH in our life. When things are unknown we speak FAITH that you will give us the wisdom and guidance that we need through your Holy Spirit to get to the destination that you called us to. When things seem uneased we speak your love, knowing that in your love you soothe all our issues and calm us with your peace.  Daddy we laugh at FEAR knowing that the reality of it's manifestation is not real and that it can only have the power we allow it to have in our life. We thank you that all is well and FEAR is not some we submit to but something we have defeated in the art of fighting it with FAITH. In JESUS NAME. AMEN 

The Art of Thankfulness

Good Tuesday Morning!!! I. I was reading my prophetic devotional  and it was talking about about dealing with the anti-Christ but today was really one that convicted me. It was talk about how to use Thanksfulness/Thanksgiving in order to fight and deal with the anti-Christ. Can I be honest I have found it difficult to be thankful when: I am so tired when it comes to my job, my singlehood, and just overall life status. I know the word says in all things give thanks and please know that's my goal and that's why this edition of the devotional convicted me with a passion to ask daddy for a vision of thankfulness. I realize that life will never go the way WE plan but thank GOD his plan is perfect. Thanksgiving and the heart of thanks opens doors for the more enough. When JESUS gave thanks for the five loaves of bread and two fish it went from feeding a little boy and his family to feeding 5,000 and they had leftover to take home. LEFTOVERS!!! Let me just settle right there. When we get to a place of thanksgiving with a thankful heart Daddy will allow us to have leftovers.. In other words the overflow is in your thankfulness. Let's examine one more benefit of thankfulness. It causes Daddy to take on the issues of our heart. Phil.4:6-7" Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus” Not only does thankfulness meet my heart need, but it grants me the peace of GOD, a mindset to trust him in the things of my heart, protect me, and for GOD to make my issue his priority. In the words of my sister oh that preach right there!

Prayer: Daddy so many times we miss the moments to give you thanks dealing with us and our issues. We sit complaining, contemplating, comparing, and coercing things in our life to reflect what we think our life should be when we should be giving you thanks. Daddy forgive us for being in our will when all we had to do is take time and be in yours. Daddy forgive us for not always not having a heart and the speech of thankfulness. Daddy today want to take the time out and say thank. Thank you for being so great to us. Thank you for being our provider, provision, and promise keeper. Thank you for life, healthy, and strength. Thank you for your word that says I am more than a conqueror in you through Christ JESUS. Thank you Daddy that no matter what situation, circumstance, issue, or problem we will thank you first and tell you our heart next. But we will always thank you!! In JESUS NAME. AMEN!!!

A day

Today Daddy is a day I truly wish that I had a mate. Today the sun you created is shinning bright, the temperature is not too hot and the pollen is not at full blast that I can't go outside and enjoy the day. But here I sit daydream of a person that doesn't exist. To be in a position where when he gets off from work we meet up at one of the parks and walk around enjoy great conversation with each other, discussing our future together or even as individuals, and just taking in your great creation. Yet on this day I am inside talking to you about my thoughts. Daughter that sounds great and I hope you know that a day like today with your expectations is not that far away, but why can't we have a day like that? Why can't you take the time out and have a day with your Daddy. I want to tell you about the future plans I have for you. I want to enjoy a conversation of your heart, listening to what you desire, and I give you the instructions on how to get there. Daughter I know on a day like today you seek to have the companionship that I created you to have, but until that day comes, come have a day with me. I may not be there in a natural flesh body but my presence will always place you in a position where you will never feel alone. I can hold your hand and enjoy my creations with you. I really just want a day where we can enjoy our relationship. I know that your heart desires something more and daughter please hold fast to that desire. It is the desire of my plan, but until I get through preparing the moment come walk with me in the park. Come enjoy this day with me. Daddy that sounds great, but I can't see your facial expressions as I discuss the craziness of my life, or hear you laugh at the jokes I try to tell, or even see how you look at me as I look at you. Daughter trust me I understand what you are saying and I have to say is give me the moment to give you the moment you so desire. Know that a day with me can just impacting as one with your mate. I can give you revelation about who I am through my Holy Spirit. I can heal you in just one conversation. I can change your life, create your world, and give you favor, and love on you all at the same time. Daddy I think I like that. I never thought that you could come and be a mate to me in that way. Thank you Daddy for clarity on taking our relationship tp a new level. Daughter you are welcome!!!

With great love and affection,

Your Daddy and true soulmate

All I need

 I feel some kind of way and I don't know why but in the way that I feel it seems like defeat is the only thing I can feel. I am so in a place where I need the supernatural move of GOD to be so real that I know that GOD is about to do something mind blowing.. Have you ever been there? In a place where you need Daddy to do something like RIGHT now?!? Like Daddy if you don't move right now I know that I am going to lose it no matter how much I try to hold it together?!? Am I by myself? Well even if I am just in case one day you feel like this I want to share my wisdom.. HOLD ON!! YEP!! HOLD ON. Even when it doesn't look like GOD is moving or even hearing you because all you do is sit in silence waiting on a response, he is doing something. But I am always reminded of the formula of GOD. IF you then he will. If you hold fast to the promise then he will manifest just what he said. IF you speak his word then he has no choice but to manifest it. IF you ask he has no choice but to give it to you. He can't lie he is not a man, so you have to get to a place where you stop seeing him as such. I know you don't, but I find myself doing it...I know that he is our GREAT GOD, but because of my relationship with him and how we operate I forget how great he is. I want him to come to my level so he can feel my pain, emotions, and feelings, when he is trying to get me to his level. The level of peace, joy, love, provision, wisdom, understand, and pure trust. But can I tell you that it can be difficult when you are in crisis. When you are in a place where you are like GOD if you don't move I don't know how to make something happen for me, but I am about to make something happen!!! If I am by myself again.. that's fine but I know I am not! I just came to encourage you my readers and say.. HOLD FAST!!! What seems like a lifetime of waiting is only seconds to Daddy. What seems like stillness, is actually rapid movement to GOD. We will never be able to catch up with the timing of GOD, but we can always be in the right place to experience the benefits of his perfect timing.

Prayer: Daddy help us to hold on and hold fast to your word and promises. Help us to be in the position that we can experience the benefits of your perfect timing. Let us never become weary in our well doing that we lose focus of your presence and glory. Even in silence assure us that you are still listening and in stillness that you are still working for our good. We thank you that everything we lay at your feet, especially when we are in crisis. We thank you that what we lay at your feet is being worked on, worked through, completed, removed, destroyed, restored, and manifesting for our good. For your words says that your plans for us are great and they will manifest hope and a productive future for your glory. Daddy help us and let us remain in the vain of your glory. In JESUS NAME! AMEN

I will be

I can't believe how long it has been since I have blogged. I have had a message in my heart (the same one) for the last two months. I hope that the release of this message comes at a time when you, my readers need it the most. For it to still resound in my spirit after two months I know that Daddy is wanting me to release it. Sidebar: Even in disobedience the heartbeat of your assignment and purpose will still rest, rule, and reign in your spirit. It may become even uncomfortable in your physical body if you keep holding it in. With that being said let me release what Daddy has called me to speak.

Matthew 5:14 (NIV) “You are the light of the world. A town built on a hill cannot be hidden. When I first read this I was like ok Daddy what are your trying to say. Here is Daddy's response to my question. 

Daughter I am saying that your light is dim, yet your position on the hill still exist. My children have forgotten the power of what I have purpose, called, and assigned them to be especially in this season and hour. I am not looking for great demonstrations that cause movements within the earth, I am look for quite moments with me that causes my glory to shake the earth, that change must not be an option but an action. When I speak of you being a light it doesn't mean that you have to speak for your light to shine., it means you have to be bold enough to shine. Know that no matter how much the world tries to place you in a box, a limited space that comes with boundaries, and disciples your light should not be hidden. You are my child, you have something in you that this world needs and to be the light on the hill you have to take a stand on my word and be bold enough to speak what I speak without the thought of judgment. WHO is MAN? Who is he that his law out rule the ones that I have give you? Who is he that your light for this world shines brighter than the one for my way, my word, and my will? He is only a creation that I formed for my glory. He lost his way in his will and  I as the father stand with open arms waiting on him to come back to his origin. I have positioned you to be beyond what this world is ready for. You can't think like this world, you can't be in this world, you can't move like the world moves. I have called you to be always on top, always ahead, always in a position of authority. How dare you allow what the world continues to show you and place before you dictate how your light should shine. How dare you alter what I created to fit something that is enemy made! How dare you call yourself something that I never called you just to fit in?!? HOW DARE YOU?!? Listen my daughter this is not the season to be setup, but to be set a part. You are not who THEY say you are! You will NEVER fit the agenda of this world. PLEASE stop allowing the light in you be place in a position to be hidden, because it will never cannot be hidden. I YOUR FATHER, YOUR DADDY can only control how bright your light should shine, because it will never be dim. I love you and I need you to be the light that you are called to be with your brothers and sisters. Seek not the light of this world Daughter, but the light of my love. I love you and remember I have called you to be BRIGHT!
~Daddy

A Daughter's Heart for Her Sister

Daddy my heart continues to be heavy as I see the news stories, the tweets, the facebook messages, the engine searches, and the constant coverage of the death of my soRHOr my sister... Sandra Bland. Daddy I look at the video and the hate for the officer continues to rise, the disappointment of being a woman rings in my mind, the frustration of being black and educated continues to overcome my heart; I think to myself  how can I forgive someone that took the life my sister, who took a simple moment of frustration as a moment for him to flex his authority. How can I allow this moment of history making, epic news be a moment for your glory without feeling some type of way that's not negative. Daddy my sister is dead. A woman full of purpose, life, and voice. Your Daughter is gone at the hands of a man or even  men who saw her as a problem, when you saw her as a solution. But what hurts the most Daddy I would have done the same thing. I would have cooperated but I would have told the officer that I know my rights and authority as well. I know the routine, I know what authority he carries, but I have some authority as well. Daddy my heart screams for you, for this is not a burden this is a cry of pain, hurt, frustrating, angry, and lost not just for myself, but my sisters nationwide. How dare they devalue us Daddy! Did you not call us precious rubies? Did you not call us priceless? Did you not call us your heart? Do we not have your last name? Daddy I can't wrap my mind around the thought of this act, the evidence of my sister's death, the disappointment of a system that speak of equal justice, but shows only favor towards certain people. Daddy this event has turn my world and others upside down. How do we get pass this moment? How we progress towards better? What do we do? Where do we go? Who do we run to?
Daughter please calm down I have heard your heart and the heart of your sisters and my people when it comes to this situation. Know this.... your sister didn't die in vain... My purpose will always remain and my glory will out shine the evilness of this world. Daughter my heart hurts for you and your sisters. I know what she meant to many of you. I know her impact in the earth. I knew that this would not be an easy thing to handle or even accept for any of you. I know that her family seeks justice, I know the heart of the officer and his co-workers. Daughter I know what happen to your sister and all I need you to do is trust me. Trust my justice it's greater than the thoughts of what you think your justice could bring. Trust my heart, that I will be the one that heals you, your sisters, and her family. Trust my revenge, because it's big and greater than any plan of revenge you could come up with. Trust my love, because even in chaos and unanswered questions, my love will bring clarity. Trust my peace, because it will surpass all your understanding. Trust my war plan, all I ask is that you put your war clothes on and show up for the battle, I will take care of the rest. Trust my ways, for  my ways are not like you ways. How I handle things will bring forth a better outcome and create a movement that man can't silence.Trust my timing, in my timing I produce perfection, though it may seem that my timing is off, remember this... I am an on time GOD! This is what I need you to do Daughter... as my daughter worship. For what you fighting is not a man but the assignments, ambushes, and attacks of the enemy. He is seeking to kill and destroy what I have created and unfortunately daughter it's starting in your family. Daughter don't allow what they report to dictate how you should respond. I am giving you clear instructions on how to respond and that's by standing still, worship, love, prayer, remain in my faith and faithful, and trust. When you do this and hold fast to what I promise you will see the manifestation  of me and the shifting from defeat to victory. Daughter stay encourage know that Daddy has this under control. I know that this may be painful, but all my processes come with pain and sacrifice, but know that it's all worth it. I love you Daughter and know that I am always here waiting for you. I AM... I AM and that's all you need to remember.

~Love you Daughter of Mine

Daddy

The If Formula

Romans 8:13: What then shall we say about these things? If God is for us, who can be against us? I read this same scripture in at least 10 different bible translations and they all read the same thing. From the KJV to the Message. So what should this say to us. Simple "Ain't No Need to Worry." Life decisions with the enemy's plans will cause consequences that we are not ready for, but IF GOD is for us, who can be against us.. Let's talk about that IF GOD. So many times in the Bible, we see IF GOD. IF we trust GOD, IF we hold on, IF we pray, IF we praise, IF we turn... then... Then Daddy will show himself strong and make us victorious. So many times we miss the formula of GOD and it is simply found in this verse and many more. IF... There are no BUT's in GOD only IF's which really reflect the free will that Daddy has given us to make our own decision with the consequences of his actions already in play. Let's reexamine Romans 8:13 using the IF Formula What then shall we say about these things?  (If you look back on Romans 8: 20-30 we know that these things are the promises of  GOD and the position and promises that come with being a Son/Daughter of Daddy.) IF GOD (if Daddy has allowed you the option to choose the decision on what action you will take or make in order to get to what he has already placed before you) is for us, who can be against us (Who can destroy, take away, talk about, mistreat  Your Daddy given victory?) so many times we miss Daddy's ifs thinking that we need to do more, but Daddy is simple he just wants your decision to be obedient to his word, will, and way and he will produce the things you didn't even know that you needed.

 Prayer: Daddy right now we stand on your IF. If you are for us, if we trust in you, if we hold on, you will do exceedingly, and abundantly over what we ask or think and because of that we will follow the if formula of you. Daddy today we make the decisions to be obedient and to yield to your will. We know that being in a position where you take control is not easy, that's why give us freewill, but today we surrender the free will you have given us for yours. We thank you that in we have promised that outlast the earth and in you we will reap the harvest of the seeds we did not sow, just because of your IF formula.  In Jesus Name. AMEN!