The heart of a daughter

Daddy..flood me with your love...because I am over flooded with thoughts of doubt...disappointment...despair...depression...destruction...disagreement with your timing... Daddy over power me with your grace...because the words of this world and those I call family...friend...foe...are over taking my heart to the point that I am believing them...I am conforming to them....acting in them...making them part of my character... instead of agreeing to your world.... Daddy cover me in the blood of your son JESUS...because the enemy thinks I am not protected by you... he keeps throwing his dark arrows of destruction in my life...seem like just when I grow in my faith with you..I got my head above the waters...when I trust my anchor that is in and ready to walk on water in the mist of the storm...with my eyes on you...my mind focused on your word....here comes the enemy...telling me it's not worth it....he tells me to look back...not forward...every shoulda, coulda, woulda comes to the fore front of my mind....I start to focus on what I could have...should have...would have done to make the situation better...how I could have avoided the judgement...the heartache...the whispers of how I am...this...that... and other...How I am not of valued...how I brought this on myself... how it's my fault...I how I ruin this....that...and the other with my decisions....how I can't...would...will not...be loved again by them or anyone else....Daddy the guilt of my past continues to haunt me every now and then and when it comes.. it comes like a stormy night with lightening and thunder...like a tornado...like a hurricane...destroying the beauty of my love for you....and I find myself looking in the mirror...not wanting to be here...not feeling your love...your presence...your grace or mercy...yearning for your joy...searching for your peace....awaiting to hear your voice...Daddy do you understand my heart and the hurt that comes with it...Daddy can you see what's effecting me and how to get me out???? Daddy... (on my knees, with tears in my eyes) Daddy...love me back to you...over flood me...I need you...Daughter...Look up at me...my presence will never fail you....even when you don't feel me...hear me...or lose sight of me... I AM HERE....This world presents temporary things in a permanent vision...but know that the only think permanent is what I promise you...as for your past...I have no recollection of it...The only thing I can call back to is your need for me...I give you new grace and mercy so that your past can be erased...I know you need the love, care, and relationship with those you give the title family, friend, and even foe...because I built you for relationship...but don't get caught up in them...just like your life they have a purpose that is ever changing and though they hold value to you and have the power to destroy you if want....that power can only manifest if you allow it...The enemy can use people to get to you..get you off focus..and keep you away from your destiny...but know this...I have giving you victory over them.... and him...Every assignment, attach, and ambush he meant for your good is the turn around path and opportunity for my grace, love, joy, miracle, and peace. Don't get caught up in what he is doing get caught up in my love...presence...grace...mercy...peace...and joy...I LOVE YOU and that's all that matters...nothing in this world has value....but our relationship...Stay focus... my plan has purpose, your life has value to me, your heart can be restored, renewed, and you can love again and do it through me...Daddy not only loves you...he hears you and understand...I AM WORKING!

Daddy...You...

Daddy..You are so awesome.. you love despite how I love..you cover even when I do what I feel is right...you speak even when I don't listen...You continue to be my daddy even when I deny you in the mist of my anger... Daddy there are no words to describe the security your give me.. When I think over...you remind me it's not over...When I see the word finish, your see beginning... Where I see failure.. you see success... Where I see hopelessness...you see the opportunity to show up and out... Your timing always seem off to me...because when we speak in the mist of my crisis I expect you to move right then, but you have taught me that your silence is my opportunity to enjoy your presence and trust you as my daddy... So daddy.. thank you..even when I feel like you are not coming to my rescue.... you have already made a way out of no way.. you have become my Jehovah shalom, Jehovah Jiere, Jehovah Rophe...in summary you takeover, while I bask in the knowing of your fathership to me....Your wisdom manifests, while my faith grows.... and I take the position of child and not grownup......Daddy...Why do you do so much greatness for me after I have done so much wrongness towards you??? Daughter...unlike the world you live in my love for you is not contingent on the actions you show towards me, or even the investment your make in me...My love is unconditional and is always waiting to cover you...protect you... provide for you..live in you...My love for you is just that..MY LOVE FOR YOU... I realize none of my children are alike...therefore, my love for you is personalized...I know there are times that you need to know that I am there with signs and wonders...there are times when you need to hear my voice and know that I am near...there are other times that you need me to listen to your heart and be silent in my movement...but whatever and whenever your need me I am and will be that just for you....I never want to lose you...I paid to much to get you back to let you go with ease....So I will be who you need me to be, when you need me to be it.....but my plan will always lead you to a place of growth, grace, mercy, love, joy, peace, and a better relationship with each other...So thanks for the praise...and making YOUR DADDY feel valuable... I always like it when you remind me what I am to you...You are always and will forever be my most valued treasure...The world may want to give you a price value...But to me your are my priceless jewel...the apple of my eye....the person I desire to hear from daily....you are....Who I am.....GREAT! ---Love Daddy!

I am not....

Daddy.. I am not ready... I am not equipped to handle this... Why did you even call me to this... This is not for me... I'm not comfortable... I feel like you are distant... Daddy...Daddy... Daddy!!! Daddy...are you truly sure you want me to do this? I know I said yes and all... I know I told you I was available to you... But this... This is to much for me...I...I...(in tears)....Daddy HELP me!!!! Daughter the world has made you blind to my vision...Let me adjust your sight...There.. Daughter...have you forgotten...I live inside you....I created you... I never called you to the purposes you are comfortable with... I called you to the assignments that cause you to grow.. the ones that make you feel helpless... so you can know that it's not by your strength, but mines that you complete the task...I never told you that our relationship would be easy...that living for me will always be a reward of my glory and presence....I told you that I would never leave you or forsake you... that my love is ever ending... it has no limits....I never told you that you would be equipped..I told you to be obedient...I never told you that you wouldn't have to lose in order to win...I told you to show up to the battle that I may get the glory....What you consider a lost is a win for me... what you consider a win is a blockage to my next step in your life...Don't focus on the process, rejoice in the fact that you are progressing...Love me...seek me... obey me...ask the Holy Spirit for guidance...open your heart for the assignment...desire my glory....lay in my presence....I know it seems like a hopeless task...that everyone has left you high and dry...that you have invest in everything and everyone, but no one seems to be around when you need the investment back....I know this is not the place of joy for you...but take heart in my peace...stand in your faith...be confident in my boldness...hold fast to my promises...Since my word will not return to me voided...like man's....Let go of your familiar...and get comfortable with my unfamiliar...I have a customized path created with your name on it....all you have to do is step on the road and I will help you with the rest...You are ready...because you Simply said "YES!" Your yes...simply activated my will for your life...my ways for your action...and my word for you instructions...Just go with the flow and watch Daddy work... I will never let you down, because you represent me and nothing about me says failure...---Take a breath, Daddy has you...

I AM

IF you never do another thing in my life.... you have done more than enough... words can't describe your works.....But daddy this moment I am having....makes me wonder can you do another thing else in my life...I mean can you truly turn it around....bring about the changes I need???? Daughter: I AM!!! I am the way to the light in the mist of your dark situation. I AM the peace in the mist of the chaos. I AM the joy that the world deserves, but can't describe. I AM the favor that opens and closes the doors that are need for my plan for your life.... I AM Alpha and Omega. I know how the situation begin and I know the benefits of it ending. I even know the middle and what it is taking so long. So never wonder if I can or when... Praise me that you know.... You know that I can deliver you into the place of your desire... that there is not a want or need of yours that I have not considered or handled.... Know that my track record with you is consistent... Add to that my personal promises to you... The situation you in right now is just that a situation.... It's not your whole life story, neither is it permanent... It is a season of pure growth and promotion and the longer you see it to be everlasting... the longer you will be in it... This is not a 40 day journey...It is only meant to be a seasonal beginning, but I am a gentleman and I will wait on you to seek me to give you the wisdom to see it my way. Hold tight it's not over, it's not finish..........it's truly a beginning. ...PROMISE... IT all has a purpose.. --Father daughter conversation.

Deeper

Draw me deeper...closer....near to your heart... For it's the only place where I know love has no limit and no conditions need to be meet. There are no hidden agendas with you... I am not waiting for a destructive aftermath....a slap in the face... a disappointing moment. I want to know your heart....as a matter of fact...exchange my heart for yours...because the one I posses has to many cracks in it... It's broken...beaten...bruise...battered, but I know you can make it new...Show me how to love like you...remove my past love experiences, that I will not hold anyone accountable to what my past tried to create my heart to be. Destroy the enemy's plans, assignments, and ambushes to make my hard harden... his plan to destroy my ideology of love and a healthy relationship. Remind me what you called me to be and not what I am comfortable being or equipped to do. You are my DADDY I am your DAUGHTER.. Help me look like you again...-Conversation with Daddy

The Edge

It's there.. Right there.. you are the very edge... keep walking....look straight ahead... no don't listen to that...they don't know, they will never understand...I know they keep talking about you... they talking about the situation... they waiting on you to fold...but someone is waiting on you to see your victory... you are the standard... you are the example....it's not the worth the worry, stress, the defense, the forfeit of MY PLAN for your life... you are bigger than this....you can... you will, heal from this trust me...Let your heart not be troubled, my joy is waiting to meet your exceptions, my grace is ready to forgive you, my love is ready to comfort you, my peace is ready to bring your rest, and my glory is ready to overtake you. You can ...because I AM!!! ---Your DADDY

No Defense...No Dialogue...No Distractions

Daddy I have to defend myself... I am tired of them talking about me.. They don't know.. they weren't there....why they just can't accept my decision...why do I feel the need to please them...Daddy... I gotta keep talking about it,....It still bothers me... I know I forgave, he/she, them, they....I know you told me to let go... but how??? I have to have dialogue with someone about it... UGH!!! Do I have to talk about it always... YES...I need to talk about it Daddy....it makes me analyze what I need to not do the next time... what I need look for the next time...I am distracted Daddy... by what the world has to offer.. what goals I have to accomplish... the need to fit in...to show that I can...I did it DADDY!!!... I am distracted, by what I haven't accomplished...it should have been done about 5 years ago...see here is the date in my journal... age 25.. married...26...practice in place....27....pregnant with 1st baby... see daddy (pointing at journal notes)...it's right here...DADDY!!!! Daughter calm down... there is no need for a defense when I am your standard...They have no power on how my plan for your life will turn out... they don't know the value of your testimony.. they don't understand what I am doing through you... No need to defend what YOU Don't even know... You don't know my plan... you can't even think like I do.. We on to total different pages... Stop defending yourself and find yourself in me and take refuge in what I have said in my word and watch me protect you....So you feel the need to talk about it? Analyze what you did and did not do? Daughter why continue to talk about your past when I am presenting you with a new presence every morning I breath life into you???...what is there to talk about, but my promises and word? Nothing!!! What's done is done.. what's said is said... but the conversation you need to have is not with yourself, but me... I am listening.. I have the answers... no need to analyze when I have the answered...You need someone to talk to.... you need to have meaningful dialogue and I have the right person to have it with.. ME!!! My Holy Spirit is speaking too... This world has nothing to offer you... what I possess for you is priceless and to get distracted with this world over my word is not what I called you to. I know you have heart desires that seem like that are simple and easy to accomplish... I know that you have things plan and written down. And yes I told you in my word to write the vision and make it plain... But never once did i give you a timeline. Time is something that I am never worried about.. I control it.. I know what "Perfect Time" looks like. Yes your list has value to me, because it's your heart desires, but the time you have set to accomplish them has no value. As a matter of fact it sets limits, valueless standards, and leaves no room for me to take you beyond what you have set... So stop being distracted with what this world has to offer and become distracted with my word...my presence...my peace..my joy...my personal promises to you...my plan for your life...my victory...my voice...my guidance and leadership in your life...be distracted with growing my kingdom..telling someone about me...you have so much more to be distracted with besides "this list" you have created which has place you in a comfortable box...which creates a blockage to my glory and voice... so let it go I got you...So today no need have defense, dialogue, or distractions when I am your DADDY!!! With Great expectation for us---Daddy

Seasons

This is not the season for you to... walk away from your dream... give up on your faith...drag your feet when following my instructions.....This is not the season to stop laughing...hold back tears....look back...not express your feelings, hurt, heart, or become content....This is the season for you to know victory... feel my presence...move in obedience...Love where you going and not where you are....This is the season to say hello... to the uncomfortable things... and good-bye to your comfort. This is the season to call me... Daddy and not just your GOD! This is the season to look at what I am doing not what I have done...I created a track record with you... to earn your trust.... I do things continuously to show you that I am not a man and I will not lie to you.... My personal promises to you don't work on your timing, but mines. What you call an hour is a day to me and what you call a minute is an hour to me....What you classify as a year is years to me....So know that we are not on the same time schedule, but my schedule is always on time...Stop meditating on my time and meditate on my presence and what I called you to do. I am developing gifts in your that are not for your personal use, but my use and kingdom... so they will never work every time you need them... This is my heart for you... that you know eternal life, that you love me unconditionally like I love you, and that you share that love with those around you (even the ones you don't like or labeled enemy)....that you always yearn to draw close to me....and ALWAYS operate in my instructions (MY WILL). Stay focus in me and watch me move things you didn't want to say good-bye to be a benefit for you and not a disappointment. ---Love you today and always DADDY

Morning Breakfast

Hello... GM... take a seat...How are you? Thank you for joining me today...I wanted to meet with you today...Just me and you... to let you know it's ok.... I know you are looking for my confirmation and it seems the more you seek me the more warfare comes upon you... That you think showing up to the battle is not even worth the energy... That I have forgotten about you...But here I seat with you... I am not too busy for you... I am always available to you... I just want you to be assure that I got you... I want you to always stay in my presence... Never forget that I am your father first and your GOD second. I want a relationship with you.. That's why I sent your brother....your groom... savior...and my son... down to earth to save you... but not to just save you.. but dwell in your lifestyle... I needed the inside scoop to what your life is with the enemy roaming to and fro on earth while you desperately seek me and look for me in the mist of his temptations and the darkness of his creation in this world. I want you to be encourage and know that my angel await your commands...that they are here to war for you.... All you have to do is suit up I have the victory handled. Nothing you have done or doing is in vain. The test is your testimony.. the diagnose is your victory...the tribulations are your stepping stones to the promotions I have plan for your life... the pain is your purpose....So take heart and know that I have your back .... take a deep breathe in the mist of the frustration...fear...failing finances...falling out with others...and frantic moments that I got you... The enemy can only use the power you give him....You have control over him... don't allow him to intimidate you any more...Take your proper place.... Take back your dominion... I breath life into your nostrils daily that you my glow with my glory...Ain't no stopping you now.... Now that you know your proper place with me...Thank you for coming to seat with me...Daddy loves you... GO do your purpose with pleasure and be assured that you are protected and cover in my grace and mercy.

You Can

You can... why do you continue to say "I Can't" when I have equipped you with an "I can." I Can do all things through Christ that strengthens me." There is no can't in my name.. promises... plans... or thoughts towards you.... You represent me.... and if I don't do it... It's not because I can't ... it's because it's not my plan for you... or you are not ready for that promotion yet... Know this child that I am your Daddy... I want relationship before you give me worship... Because if you worship me without relationship... it sounds like a valueless sound in the earth. To worship me in spirit and in truth simply means... to sit down and say Daddy can we talk. I want to know you... Though I formed you in your mother's womb... and know your thoughts before you think about them... I still love to hear the sound of your voice when you talk to me.... Get to know me and I will manifest my presence in a way that you will not just know me, but desire me. This world has so much to offer your materialistically, but I have something that will never perish...I have something that money and connections... can't buy or get you...I have your hearts desires ready and awaiting to be release, but you have get to know me so I can give you instructions and guidance not only how to obtain them, but keep them and create a harvest to share with others. So my child stop with your "can'ts" and watch my "can" manifest with your yes and draw me close to your heart right now. ---Daddy will wait on you....Love you more today than you thought I loved you yesterday....

Surgery

Yes....Yes... I will agree to the surgery! LORD I have messed up... made some mistakes in my day....But I am grateful you didn't throw me away.... You told me to come and schedule my surgery... Father I lay on your operation table... Waiting to fall asleep in your presence... that you can remove the things that has cause this blockage....Daughter...this surgery is for your good I have looked at your lab work and the results and realize that you suffer from a broken heart....a spirit not at ease... You have lost the peace I gave to your... your vision has you blind... your joy has disappeared...your dreams seem to be blur... your ears have become deaf to my voice...and your goal seem unrealistic to you... and your mind has been tainted with the views of the world... Don't just got to sleep in my presence... rest in my presence as I cut way the things that have cause you blockage to my love...as I remove the scales from your eyes that prevent you from seeing you like I do... I need you to seeing things through my eyes....as I take away the fear that stalls my boldness for you to speak against the principalities that war within your spirit... I am the surgeon that can cut and heal you all at the same time. Your recovery time will not have you down... As soon as you get off my operation table you will be able to go do the assignments I have called you to... As a matter of fact no recovery time needed. You will be complete... The wholeness you desire... The peace... the joy... the renewal of your identity in me.... the ability to hear my voice clear...Will manifest in such a way that you will be able to move forward without looking back. So Lay down... I have to take away these issues.... that attach to you because you cared for those that didn't care for you... your enemies have thrown darts and knifes that are sticking out your back... but because your pressed to your surgery appointment... I am about to make what you thought was painful a pleasure of peace....Oh the investments you made with your heart to those you called friend... family... husband...wife.... boyfriend.... girlfriend...yeah that emotional investment you talk to me about...That will be part of the procedure... I call testimony... I am doing a heart transplant.... That you can understand that the investment was a seed not a plant. You are not to see the harvest... only prepare the soil and plant the seed...So breathe in my presence... exhale your thoughts....fears...anxieties...and let me do this surgery... it will not take long....---Making you anew...THE SURGEON

The Art of Waiting

Daddy... I have been waiting...waiting... and waiting on you. How long is a wait to you. I am tired of praying about it... I need you to see about it... Me... Daddy.. Here I am waiting as you told me to. I am trying be patient... I am seeking your kingdom... doing the assignments you call me to...But Daddy I feel like my wait is in vain....As though you aren't there... Please Daddy tell me something... Daughter... your wait is not in vain... Have you forgotten that my promise equal a yes and amen (Amen: means I am finish and it has a come to an end) What you have failed to realize is that you are not waiting on the same thing. I have answered one prayer while preparing you for the promotion to another level in the mist of you waiting for another answer. You have gotten so tied up with time that you missed my blessing... You missed my YES! Have I not supplied all your needs? Have I not given you the desires of your heart? Have I not moved on your behalf, and granted you my favor? "Yes daddy, you have." So why be mad at the wait? Be glad that I have allowed you to wait... To wait in my presence, to wait in my grace and mercy....To wait in my love....To wait in MY Timing! To wait on me... your first husband... There is NOTHING that you desire with your heart that I don't desire for you. You want the house, the family, the success, the love, the support, the healing, the turn around, the forgiveness, the peace, the grace and mercy, the joy, the overflow, and the wisdom, knowledge, and understanding to handle it all, and the manifestation of your dreams and goals. I got you and they are coming.. But you have to wait for my instructions. This is a process and it's my glory that needs to manifest. This is never about you. Not about how you feel, what you need, or how you want it to be presented to you.. This is about ME and my relationship to you... Someone needs me to be real to them and I am using you as my vessel for that manifestation to happen. I have you waiting because my timing is perfect. If you move out the wait then you miss the lesson.. You miss the lesson... you miss the part of your testimony that will save someone else. My kingdom's growth is in your hands all I need from you is your obedience to wait on my instructions. There are rewards in waiting... I will renew your strength... I will give you unspeakable joy... I will give you rest in the mist of chaos... I will make your enemies your footstool... I will open up windows... that your storage will always be full... So wait my child and watch me work... What you think is a long time is a short second for me... Daddy GOT you.. Just keep waiting it has benefits remember that!---With Daddy's Loving Heart

Excuse Me

Excuse me... Can I have your attention...Yes you.... I have been trying to get your attention for a while...I have tried get you to understand that I am here... I got your back...I love you more that this world words could ever explain...You keep thinking that this thing your have labeled "a struggle, an issue, a disappointment, a frustration, or a situation" is for your bad or I brought you to this point to leave you.... I was really trying to get your attention, to let you know that it's not about you.... I need your testimony... Your gifts need be developed so you can get to this next level of promotion I have awaiting you...So you got sick and the disease feels like it's getting worst than better sometimes...But know I am a healer and I am healing....Someone is watch you and waiting to see if I am real.... That dream... you know the one that speak at night and you think about in your sleep... is a reality to my plan for your life, but I must remove things and people you have labeled permanent, back to the place of temporary. Their season if over, and you are going to feel the hurt of their absence, but know that the lesson of their presence will manifest and you will move forward in victory. No need to seek comfort in this season, for I have sent the comforter to be available to you when and where you need him. Trust me he does a supernatural job... but he is a gentleman, and he waits for your "YES." This season is for me to make my promises alive and realistic to you... I will supply all your needs, so no need to feel like your are lacking... your supply is not what you need...It's what I need for you to have.... I need you to love harder, so I brought more enemies into your life... I need you to trust me more, so I allow things to become out of your control... I need you to you increase your faith.... so I have allow strength to be depended upon your willingness to seek my presence. I will NEVER leave you or forsake you...NEVER!!!!!!!! So stop asking me where I am and ask me how can get more of me and less of you. I am here for you and I AM ... I AM.... Just tell me what I am to you... I will be it... ---With Great Love Daddy!