Demand In The Earth, Dangerous Prayer (Part 1)

So, last week I told you about my transition and this week can I tell you about my dangerous prayer?
Ok, I know you are like a dangerous prayer... Yep, a prayer so dangerous that you are scared to even pray it because the consequences are so great and the process may feel unbearable. A prayer that comes with life-changing results and a stretch, tug, and pulls on your purpose and next. With all that being said and explained, let me tell you my dangerous prayer...

I was with one of my favorite sisters and she was on the phone with someone talking about the service that she offered through her company that she is the founder and CEO of.  (She is an international educator. She teaches all over the world and helps parents in and outside of the US become better educators for their children) As she continued her call I realize how much a demand my sister and her services were in the earth. I told her, "Sis you are truly a demand in the earth"...That's when the dangerous prayer entered my spirit and came out my mouth... "Lord I want to be a demand in the earth". I didn't realize it was a dangerous prayer until three days later when I got an email saying... "Hey girl, I have been looking for you!" 72 hours after praying, GOD the manifestation of my words became my reality. So, I knew what I prayed had to be dangerous due to the quick turn around that took place.  A week after getting the email, I was on a call with another sister who told me, "Sis, I am glad you called me I need you to pray about your participation in a conference that I am having in October." Look, let me tell you all something when I prayed that prayer, I was not really expecting results. OOOOOOO... Pause...Stop, back that up... "I said when I prayed the prayer I was not really expecting results". How many times do we pray prayers without the expectation of seeing them manifest? I'll wait, while you think of the many times you said prayers that you thought would take forever or never to manifest.

Let's be real for a moment, we pray some prayers and expect GOD to do them right away, but there are times that we pray and before we say AMEN, we already thinking GOD ain't about to do that for real.  But, we continue to pray the dangerous prayers not realizing the setup that we are creating for ourselves.

I know you are wondering what am I trying to tell you. Am I encouraging you to pray these dangerous prayers? Am I warning you about these dangerous prayers?  What am I telling you? I'm telling you both. I want to encourage you to pray these prayers, but be aware of what comes with them. Be ready to deal with the consequences or should I say the demand that will come with them. You will be the one that people seek out. You will be the missing piece of the puzzle. You will be the one that creates a demand on someone else. Do me a favor take time right now to pray your dangerous prayer (don't read another line until you do). All it takes is one time, and that one time will cause you to pray more dangerous prayers.

Prayer: Daddy thank you for making us aware of the impact we can have on the earth if we are bold enough to pray dangerous prayers. Thank you for letting us know that we can be a demand in the earth, that you have purposed us to be a blessing to others, and create moments where you can move and breath life in situations. Thank you for allowing us to be what the earth needs for your glory. Thank that today we open our mouths with a heart of anticipation to speak the dangerous prayers that are needed for your victory to be seen. In JESUS name... AMEN!

The Perfect Good Bye

Today Daddy is kinda hard but easy at the same time. Today I say goodbye to 2017 and welcome 2018 with open arms! Today I come to you, asking your help, in helping me create the perfect goodbye. I feel like 2017 was the roller coaster ride that everyone talked about, but did not expect to be so bad. I mean I started the year with a positive attitude, embracing all changes, taking in all the blessings, and then it hit me. The truth of the year hit me and I realize that this roller coaster ride was not for me. But no matter how much I scream to get off it seemed like it started getting longer and longer to the point I just rode it out. I see that 2017 did not meet my expectations. It created moments where I did not see the reality of your love for me. I even got to the point where I just wanted it all to end. I mean what was 2017 really suppose to be about? Was it suppose to cause me to doubt you, limit my love for you, cause me to feel this moment of selflessness???? Was it suppose to make me cry to the point that my tears became dry? Was it suppose to disappointment this much? What was 2017 supposed to do for me? 

Daughter 2017 was the year I gave you to trust me the most. This year was not about success, favor, or even the blessings. This year was about us, our relationship, and who I am to you in the truth of your reality. I understand that you weren't prepared for all of the consequences of 2017. Whoever is? Who is ever prepared for what they do not know about? Who is ever prepared for the imperfections of my perfect moments? Who is ever prepared for my perfected timing when you are expecting a different box or presentation? Daddy, no one. Right so daughter I will help you with your perfect goodbye because my ways are always perfect and my thoughts towards you are always good. I will help you say goodbye, but before we leave can I help you embrace the hellos of 2017. Ok, Daddy. Say hello to your boldness, your strength, your new faith, your hope, and courage to come out of your comfort zone. Say hello to the leadership, the pruning, the gains, the love, and the letting go. Say hello to the things you said yes to and the things that got you the moments you were hoping for. Say hello to the new level of my presence and the growth you got to experience. Daddy, I never saw it like that. Well, daughter, it is hard to see my vision out of flesh eyes, but know that there is nothing in 2017 that I created just to make your life a question mark. I created every to bring you to this moment of goodbye. So let's say goodbye to looking back, lacking wisdom, not trusting me, and your broken vision. Let's say goodbye to the insane decisions, the people that left you empty, and the disappointments of your own decisions. Let's say goodbye to what they say, expect, or even wanted from you. Let's say goodbye to the old you! This is my perfect goodbye for you.   Daddy what a perfect goodbye it is.  Daughter, I leave you with this...  Become new in my son, and watch the old things pass away. (2Cor.5:17)

Prayer: Daddy help us to say goodbye to the things that we should not carry into 2018. Help us to embrace the tools produced in 2017, and let go of those things that we have held on for so long from the past years up until now. Let us not get caught in the resolutions of 2018 or the declarations that come with the new year, but let us get caught in your presence and wisdom. Let us grab hold to your word and make it part of our heart.  Let us not get caught up in the process but stand firm in the promises of you. We live this life to please you and hold fast to the things you have called us to. Let us embrace the stretching,  fall in love with your will, enjoy your love, hold on to your peace, and share your joy. Help us to remember we are made new in you through your son Christ Jesus, and that in him we can move forward. In Jesus Name. AMEN!

#DearFutureHusband

I can't believe that my journey of #DearFutureHusband started a year ago. I never knew that my little post and comment to my future husband would impact not only women but men to desire their own future mate. As I enter into 2017 it is important to me to continue the ministry of my #DearFutureHusband by creating #DearFutureHusband365. I hope as my readers you will take part in this great conversation whether married or single. I think speaking to your future or current spouse is a great way to create moments of appreciation, growth, and create intimate moments that will last a lifetime. The Bible always reminds us of how powerful our words are and the wisdom we should use when it comes to using our tongue. Here are a couple of scriptures that got me all the way together when it come to my tongue. 

Proverbs 12: 18 The words of the reckless pierce like swords, but the tongue of the wise brings healing.

Proverbs 15: 4 The soothing tongue is a tree of life, but a perverse tongue crushes the spirit.

Proverbs 16:1 To humans belong the plans of the heart, but from the Lord comes the proper answer of the tongue.

Proverbs18:21 (The well know scripture about the tongue) The tongue has the power of life and death, and those who love it will eat its fruit.

It amazes me that after Proverbs 18:21 we find the scripture that summarizes the heart of courtship between a man and woman. A man that finds a wife finds (obtains) favor with GOD. This can only happen when we know the power of our tongue. Daddy is so Amazing in his strategy. He gives us the formula for us to get our in positions to be found as a wife and for the husband to gain GODly favor. I LOVE IT!!  

Prayer: Daddy we come seeking you for wisdom on how to use our words and speaking the future of our lives into existence. Daddy as we continue to wait for our future spouses, please us be patient in your timing. Help us to understand that your timing is perfect and it comes with a greater reward, one that our mind couldn't even think of. One that outweighs our heart desires. One that creates a moment that causes us to stretch out on faith and trust you more.  
In Jesus Name 
AMEN!

Victory in Him

Good Morning Readers!!!

It's been a while since I have blogged and I do apologize I hope that my time management will be better since I have now shift into a new position, which by the way is what this blog is about. So let me see if I can tell this story as short as possible so that I can get to the meat. About 6 months ago I start getting indirectly bullied by a co-worker that has been in the field for about 20 plus years. She felt the need to tell me how to do my job to others and criticize how I get my work done. It even got to the point that she was having meetings with my direct and indirect supervisor without me. I finally got feed up and meet with her and my indirect supervisor. After the meeting, I felt like maybe somethings should ease up, but unfortunately, that was not the case and because of this stress started to cause hair loss and health problems. (Sidebar: What do you do when the enemy comes after your glory? Answer will be given later) Well of course like any other person I started to pray for instructions, answers, and directions. I got it! It was time for me go and move towards something new. It was not hard to swallow it was just hard to deal with the process of applying for jobs and not hearing anything for months. But let me tell you that GOD is Jehavoha Jira.. he will provide in his perfect timing and give you the desires of your heart. So today is my last day at a job that I have worked at for 4 years. I have learned so much, gain so many relationships, and had the honor of working with one of best friends, and it still hasn't hit me that I am leaving.   What does that have to do with Trusting the GOD in You?  All through this process, I have learned how to do one thing Proverbs 15:1 A soft answer turns away wrath. Because of my soft answers, speaking to the coworker that was bullying me, and being the example for those watching me, I learned how to trust the GOD in me. I learn that there are times GOD needs you to be the example even when you are going through, and even be a person of integrity even when you have the right to not be. To be in a position where show love when loving that person hurts. But the GOD in you says stand in trust me. Let me encourage someone right now. The enemy will present ways of escape that look like GOD's but know that the illusion of his way will always get you back to where GOD told you to be in the first place. Stand still and watch GOD not only fight your battles but make your enemies your footstool. They will know who GOD is by the time you realize that victory has already been won on your behalf.

Prayer: Daddy trusting the GOD in me has been the most difficult thing to do in this season when it seems that everyone but me is getting the desires of their heart. Help me realize that your timing for me and my life is totally perfect and if I just stand then you show my enemies what victory looks like.  Daddy help me to trust your instructions, stand on your word, listen quickly and speak slowly. Help me to remain confident in this one thing that I will see the goodness of you. In Jesus Name. AMEN!

The Mask

It's been a while since I blogged but promise I have really been in a position where I needed to but didn't have the time to. Today's blog is one of true transparency. I have really been wrestling with the thought of  writing this blog.. I means it's not serious but it is very transparent when it comes to being in a position of growth. So here goes nothing. For past hummmmm... Maybe two months I have been a position where I really wanted a move of GOD in my life. I mean a move that would not only change my life but spill over into the lives of the people that are connected to me. In sum I wanted this kingdom move. Well it happen I mean really happen. I realize it had happen when I thought about how excited I was about graduating for the third time with my third degree (no I am not finish I need my doctoral degree...LOL). I was wondering why was I so happy about graduating again... Like overly excited. I was asking the Holy Spirit to reveal it to me and then it happen. The last time I was graduating I was in the mist of a separation with my husband which would end in divorce. I called him crying telling him it would mean the world to me for him to be at my graduation. I remember the conversation and how I found myself begging this man who I was still married to, to come to the most important day in my life at that moment but his attitude towards me was horrible. I also remember after leaving dinner with my family and him and how he cussed me out from Anniston, AL to Birmingham, AL in front of her (almost a hour and a half straight) ... I just remember that graduation being the worst, but I also remember the prayer I prayed. "Daddy if you just give me a second change that's all I ask. I want to know what joy is again." Those words rung in me ear and heart even after my divorce until I just let it go. Now fast forward three years later and degree number three and that prayer is coming true. Sidebar: Daddy will allow you to pray for a thing and just when you think he has forgotten about it, he shows up and out. Lesson: Prayer works just not in your timing and it will not come in the packaging you expect. Back to the regular scheduled blog.... So needless to say I got my second chance to enjoy the moment that I work so hard for, but not only that I realize how much Daddy loves us. I mean we are always saying he is a GOD of a second chance, we read where he gives second chances, but to experience the second chance is just amazing. But this is not the purpose of this blog just the foundation. The purpose of this blog is the aftermath of the second chance. I really have been seeking and asking Daddy to use me to show himself strong in my life. That He be the father, the provider, and the I AM that is talked about in the Bible. And he has forever one that I have prayed for. Here is my mask. I am happy that everyone I have prayed, poured into, and spoke purpose in. They have  received all that they need and more, but in the back of my head with my mask on I  am asking Daddy when do I get what I have been praying for. When do I get the overflow? When will it hit my house? When will he come? When can I leave and get the promotion? I am sure I am not by myself and if I am well I will just be. I wear this mask where I am super excited about the blessings of GOD on others not thinking DADDY WHEN. I smile when inside I am crying.... Asking DADDY what do I have to do to get it!!! Then I get tired of wearing my mask and I shut down and I have to have my selfish moment... Yeah it's a process for me. Then I have to stop ignoring the Holy Spirit and conforming to the enemy's mindset and take a bite out of the tree of life and say to myself... GIRL it is coming just keep praying for others and watch the blessing flow. But can I be real transparent that's hard when they are getting the thing that you prayed for, for yourself... i.e. the husband, the promotion, the move, the increase, the favor,,,, I can go on and on.... But the situation get's better when you realize how your ability to be selfless will paralyze your ability to selfish. The mask of asking When ME Daddy can overtake you if you do not place yourself in a position to really see what the father is trying to do through you to get you to your WHEN ME DADDY moment.

Prayer: Daddy help us to be so transparent with you that we never need to put on a mask in order to deal with growth, change, and praying for others. Help us to realize that your timing for our life is so perfect that we won't even have time to focus on the "WHEN ME DADDY" moments. Daddy help us to release these moments through faith, joy,and trust that you have not forgotten about us. Daddy secure us in your yes and Amen and let us not forget the personal promises you have spoken to us. In Jesus Name! Amen

A Morning

Dear Future Husband:

If my heart could express what I was feeling today I think you would understand the unexplained emotions that I demonstrated on this morning. First let me apologize for taking my sealed and covered heart out on you. I forget that there is another part of me that I can talk to, be free with, and cry on. I forget that I am no longer this single woman seeking to be found by the one that GOD tailored made me for. I forget that you are my rock, you know things even before I express them, because you and the father have conversations about me daily. I forget that you know how I function. You know what is really wrong with me though I try to keep my mask in tack, you quickly slip it off and see my nakedness. I forget that you love me.. not the me that I reveal to you, but the me that I keep hidden. I forget that you know me! You know the heart of who I am.. You know that at night I cry because I can't meet the world's demands. That I want to save nations but struggle to save me. That there are times that I wish to be free but have created a bubble so big to protect me that I forgot to let you in or better yet pop it.. Future I forgot!!! I truly did!!! But I am so glad that in my outburst you took me tears and all.. and you held me. And as you held me, you spoke to the father about me. You spoke life to me, you spoke love into me, you declared and decreed things that I couldn't see. As I cried in your arms not knowing what to do today. You took on the light of the father, and shined on me. You became my strength and though your day was busy with appointments and meetings, You cancelled them all just to be with me. To comfort me.. Take care of me. You became my superhero though I told you I didn't need to be rescued. You became my all when I felt like I had nothing. You became everything I needed you to be and completed the assignment of the father to me. For this my heart screams thank you.. but my tears say I appreciate you. I never thought you could truly be my all in all in one breath, but you took on the assignment with a heart of GOD courage and said father give me strength, and he did that a more. Thank you for never allowing me to forget that you and I are one, and the purpose of our union is not about a person but a purpose.

With a heart of relief,

Your Grateful Wife

Holiday Grief

Wow what a year right? I never thought that in my years in the mental health profession that I would be experiencing so much holiday grief. I am always educating my clients on how to deal with their grief in a healthy way and ways to get through their grief without being in a place of isolation, depression, and most importantly silence. Today I have come to share some encouragement as I am able to identify with being a griever and  a person that helps with grief. It's amazing how all the things that you learned about the area of grief is hard to apply when you are in the process of grief. Now before I go into my encouragement let me just educate you on grief. Grief happens everyday in your life. If you lose your keys and they are not where you thought you put them when you are ready for them you go through the stages of grief which are: Denial, Barging, Anger,Depression, Acceptance. This is not a step by step process you can go from denial straight into acceptance skipping the others then back to barging.  But how does losing keys even come close to grief. Well let me explain... Say you were looking for your keys and they are not where you put them, because you are convince that they should be there you are in denial that they could be any where else. After you realize they are not where you put them you go searching in different places analyzing where they could be this is your barging stage. After looking and searching for what seems to be hours you start entering into your anger state.  Once you get over your anger you now start to be in a depression moment thinking you will never find your keys again, then it happens either you stumble upon them or someone finds them for you and when this happen you enter your acceptance stage. Get it?!? Good now let's apply that same concept to the lost of a love one or thing (i.e. job, relationship, self-confidence, etc.) Say you had a love one that was sick and you knew their was no bouncing back. Well it seems to you that they are getting better and show signs of improvement,  then they become sick again and this time worst,  because you have been here before and they have gotten better you become in Denial about them being too sick to come back. After this  the medical staff tells you that they only have a certain time to live you then start to bargain. Now this can be within yourself, family, or  Daddy. After this you go into the anger state because you see that Daddy is not healing the way you think he should and death is the result of their illness. After realizing the death of your love one you then become depressed from their absence. After time in depression you realize that there are things that you can do to preserve their legacy and life and you do those things, which pushes you into acceptance. But a year after their death you find yourself depressed on their death date, and you now feel the steps of grief beginning.  So here is my encouragement to you when you feel the steps of grief coming through:

1. Speak up... Silence will manifest itself physically if you do not deal with it. You find yourself sick with something the doctor can't cure or figure out what's wrong.
2. Laugh... This is easier said than done, but is necessary to your healing process, The Bible says that laughter does the heart good like medicine. So take you a dose
3. Connect with people that know your heart. Their are people in your circle that know that the holidays are hard for you and they are willing and ready to be their for you.
4. Be open. It goes with one, but this goes a little deeper, this means that you have to want the help that is being offered to you. You are not a burden, or even getting on their nerves they know what you need, they are just waiting on you to ask for it.
5. Have a memorial... This can be done with or without family. You can light a candle, decorate a tree or wreath, do a particular act that the person was known for, share pictures of great moments, or you can go celebrate that persons. But whatever you do, do not isolate yourself.
6. Ask for help... this can be the only time you don't have it together and that is fine, but know there are people willing to help you through this tough time, but they don't want to push the help, they just waiting on your cue to move.

I hope these things help and I hope you understand that holiday grief is ok, if you handle it in a healthy way.

I will be

I can't believe how long it has been since I have blogged. I have had a message in my heart (the same one) for the last two months. I hope that the release of this message comes at a time when you, my readers need it the most. For it to still resound in my spirit after two months I know that Daddy is wanting me to release it. Sidebar: Even in disobedience the heartbeat of your assignment and purpose will still rest, rule, and reign in your spirit. It may become even uncomfortable in your physical body if you keep holding it in. With that being said let me release what Daddy has called me to speak.

Matthew 5:14 (NIV) “You are the light of the world. A town built on a hill cannot be hidden. When I first read this I was like ok Daddy what are your trying to say. Here is Daddy's response to my question. 

Daughter I am saying that your light is dim, yet your position on the hill still exist. My children have forgotten the power of what I have purpose, called, and assigned them to be especially in this season and hour. I am not looking for great demonstrations that cause movements within the earth, I am look for quite moments with me that causes my glory to shake the earth, that change must not be an option but an action. When I speak of you being a light it doesn't mean that you have to speak for your light to shine., it means you have to be bold enough to shine. Know that no matter how much the world tries to place you in a box, a limited space that comes with boundaries, and disciples your light should not be hidden. You are my child, you have something in you that this world needs and to be the light on the hill you have to take a stand on my word and be bold enough to speak what I speak without the thought of judgment. WHO is MAN? Who is he that his law out rule the ones that I have give you? Who is he that your light for this world shines brighter than the one for my way, my word, and my will? He is only a creation that I formed for my glory. He lost his way in his will and  I as the father stand with open arms waiting on him to come back to his origin. I have positioned you to be beyond what this world is ready for. You can't think like this world, you can't be in this world, you can't move like the world moves. I have called you to be always on top, always ahead, always in a position of authority. How dare you allow what the world continues to show you and place before you dictate how your light should shine. How dare you alter what I created to fit something that is enemy made! How dare you call yourself something that I never called you just to fit in?!? HOW DARE YOU?!? Listen my daughter this is not the season to be setup, but to be set a part. You are not who THEY say you are! You will NEVER fit the agenda of this world. PLEASE stop allowing the light in you be place in a position to be hidden, because it will never cannot be hidden. I YOUR FATHER, YOUR DADDY can only control how bright your light should shine, because it will never be dim. I love you and I need you to be the light that you are called to be with your brothers and sisters. Seek not the light of this world Daughter, but the light of my love. I love you and remember I have called you to be BRIGHT!
~Daddy

The Revelation of A New Year

Hello fellow readers and followers! I know it has been a while since I last blogged and I do apologize. I have had several Daddy Daughter Conversations dealing with me and I have been processing them daily. Today before I share the Revelation of A New Year I want to say thank you! Thank you for reading, supporting, and just being open enough to tell Daddy I want a conversation with you too. I hope that my blogs have spark a greater relationship with Daddy for you, that you not only see these as good word lessons or thought provoking things, but something that causes change in your life and your relationship with Daddy.


Daddy before we start can I thank you for a new year. This year of greatness I declare. A year of us and many more conversations. A year of knowing you better and taking our relationship further. Thank you Daddy for this moment and always taking time out to speak with me, to hear me, and answer me. Thank you Daddy for your Holy Spirit that guidance me daily. But Daddy as we I take part of a new year I have so many resolutions that I wish to accomplish and get done before the year is over. Things that cause growth in my natural and spiritual life. I want to be able to feel like I accomplish something this year. Daughter, that sounds great and excellent, but can I tell you that you are limiting yourself with these resolutions. But Daddy they are just goals to accomplish throughout the year. Daughter, I hear you and again that sounds good, but in your resolutions your limit me. You set goals that may include me, but the goals that you set limit me to do what I need to do in that plan. If you say you want to read my word daily through the year and you do it, where is there room for me to show you the lesson behind what you just read, or helping you to apply that to your life. Daughter, please don't do another year of resolutions, because resolutions only apply to the year that you make them, but if you take hold to having a year of revelations then I can speak things you never thought about. A Year of Revelations Daddy? Yes, Daughter a year of revelations. The difference between my revelation and your resolution is: your resolution only gives you answers for that year, it limits how you can grow, and it carries no real weight. To sum it up Daughter it is simply a task and goal list for the year that includes me in the mix. But a revelation....Daughter that is different. The revelation start in one year and lasts a lifetime. See Daughter in a revelation I can do beyond what you set to do. I have room to grow you in new areas, develop new gifts in you, heal you beyond the simple things you ask for, and love you back to me in various ways. I can renew what you thought was old, bring back to life what you thought was dead, because you didn't accomplish it last year. I can create peace in you beyond your understanding this year if you get the revelation. So Daughter what is your decision.... Are you going to make new years resolutions or revelations. Daddy I choose your revelation of my resolution. Daughter, I think you have made a wise choice. I love you and look forward to the Revelations that this New Year can bring you. Thank you Daddy. Love you Daughter!

The Experience

On this past weekend after a girls roadtrip (which was suppose to be a day thing, that turned into a weekend) I got to experience something new that remind me of the story of the man whose friends place him in the center of healing in a house. So let me retell the story that can be found in Mark 2:4; Luke 5:19. So Jesus was in the town healing people and he was doing it in a house that fully packed with people that were seeking and getting healed. These friends of a paralyzed man decided that they need to bring their friend to this house so that JESUS could heal him. Well they couldn't get through the doors of the house due to the crowd, but they were desperate to get their friend healed. So with teamwork and careful planning they climb to the roof top of the house with their friend who was laying on a cot and beginning to tear the roof off the house. SIDEBAR: You need people in your life who are willing to think outside the box, and who are desperate to see you healed. Ok... Back to the story. So the friends created an opening big enough to lower the friend who was paralyzed and on the cot down to the center of the crowd and in front of JESUS. SIDEBAR: I don't know where they got the rope to attach to the cot to lower him down, but can I tell you, you always need friends that are prepared... So let's continue the story.... JESUS stop and said to the man... Because of the faith of your friends you are healed... Now it doesn't say anything about what happen to the friends, but in my Holy Ghost Imagination (that's what a former pastor of mine use to say) I know that JESUS healed his friends to... Why you say that, you ask? Because it was their selflessness, faith, perseverance, and reluctance love for their friend that they went to the extreme to get their friend healed. JESUS acknowledge that and in his acknowledge I feel he was speaking healing, prosperity, and blessings to them and their household. So with that being said let me go back to the story of my girls roadtrip. We were at a friends house, who told us that we needed to meet this young man who was a prophet. We were open and we had all been a place of needing something great to happen spiritually. So the young man came and begin to prophecy to us individually; afterwards, he begin to pray for two of the friends that came with me on the trip. Well why he prayed, I touch and agree and intercede for them as well. They in return got to experience the power of GOD's glory and healing with the evidence of the Holy Spirit. Now after every thing was over I beginning to experience the healing that I had been seeking Daddy for. Because of their experience I gain a blessing too. Just like the friends of the paralyzed man. Their faith manifested his healing, but they returned got blessed too. That's just like Daddy. He creates an opportunity for one person to get a direct experience of him, but in return others get to experience the effect of his glory too.

Prayer: Daddy thank you for the experience. The experience of your new grace and mercy daily. Your love and eternal peace. Your gift of life and the title to be your child, to be called son or daughter. Daddy we enjoy the experience of you period, never taking it for granted, never losing sight of its value in and over our life. Daddy thank you for the experience of your healing, your provision, and protection through the blood of JESUS. Thank you for the opportunity to always be able to come to you for ourselves and experience the weight of your glory. To dwell in the presence of you. We love you Daddy and we understand that an experience with you is greater than anything that this world could ever offer. In JESUS Name.... AMEN!

I Can't Handle This!!!

Daddy on yesterday I got news that a friend that I love dearly was diagnosed with cancer. Daddy he is only in his 30's and so young and active. I just saw him two months ago and though he wasn't in his great happy moods he was in a good one. Daddy this is the fourth friend I have battling a disease that can cause them to die. I can't handle this. Seeing my friends how are my age struggling with illness they didn't even ask for. I can't handle the hospital visits any more or wondering will I be receiving the phone call that one of my friends has joined you in the heavenly sky. I can't Daddy!!! I Can't!!! Daughter... Daughter calm down. I hear your heart and not just your I can't! I understand that to see someone you love suffer in such a painful way with life schedule around drug dosage is hard for you. To know that they have to be in the hospital for long periods of times, or even in and out of the hospital for long periods of time is hard for you. To visit them and see the tubes, needles, vital signs, and lack of energy they have and weakness they display. I hate when my children have sick love ones. I do and I hate it worse when they pray for total healing and I take the love with me, and they are mad, angry, disappointed, and create a harden heart for me. I am. But here is what I need you to know this season for your friends is to build their faith and in me. To trust me. To let me do me! This season for you is the same. I know it hurts that I don't dismiss. But I told you in my word that you have the power to do greater works that my son did while he was there on earth. Now healing will not always take form the way you picture it. Sometimes my healing is to give them total rest in me. That means taking them from the earth and placing them in my presence permanently. Other times it means healing them right then and there to show someone that is by them that I am real. This is not about you or them. This is about me and in the end I will get the glory. I know that sounds selfish, but it's not daughter trust me. I do things that your mind will never understand. My plans always work out perfect even if you don't see the perfection of them. So start planning for the victory, shout for the healing, for I am about to manifest greatness in the mist of pain. I will create peace, in the mist of grief, and I will love you  and them through it. You are my Daughter what concerns your heart concerns me. I know that this is not easy for you and you feel you can't handle this, but daughter you can. I will NEVER put to much on you that I have not already prepared you to bear. I know you don't believe right now but I have equipped you for this moment. So daughter know this do you still think you can't handle this? Daddy, I am still a little shakey and I hear what you are saying. I know you have ever failed me and there is nothing to hard for you. I know that you delight in my heart desires. That you are a GOD of love, and you only want the best for your children and that your plan is perfect... But to see them go through hurts. Well Daughter don't hurt their going through is building them for my perfect plan. .... Daddy can you change my eyesight then? Because all I see is the pain for their illness. ... Yes daughter, for you I will do any thing. When I change your eyesight you will see the healing that will manifest. Don't look the outside. Look at what I am doing in the inside. See your flesh want's flesh manifested healing, well that's not true healing.Total healing comes when I am able to heal you from the inside out. If I heal your flesh and never your heart, you will end up back where you start. So daughter know that as you pray for your friends, like I know you will... for their healing... and total restoration....Know that I am healing them from the inside out...Know that total restoration is not allowing them to remain here on earth, but allowing them to rest in my arms. So when that day comes... and it will... Know that I will and would have prepared you for it. I love you daughter I will await your.... I can handle this!!! Because you can handle this, this is not big, this is just a season of trusting me more and focusing on who I am not what I can do. I love you daughter! I love you too Daddy.... I will be waiting... Ok

A Convicted Heart

Daddy at Bible Study the other night I got convicted about my heart. I found myself dealing with issues of things that I had prayed for, but the reaction to the manifestation of those things seem to yield a heart of ungratefulness. Daddy how did I get here. How did I get to a place where my heart has been tainted so that I become so ungrateful for the things I cried out to you about. Daddy Help me! Daughter you need help with your heart. How did you get here? You got here because you forgot how to use your prayers for my glory. I don't give you what you ask for, that you may use it for your glory and your purpose, I give you what you prayed for that I may be glorified. Well Daddy how do I get out of this. How do I get back to a place where my heart is ungrateful? Daddy before you answer that can I talk about another part of my heart. The part that responds to the provoking. The part that speak before thing that makes you become distant in your presence. Daughter, Daughter everything dealing with your heart can be solved by one example the example of the one that won it... My son David. Despite his response from provoking situations he was truly a man of my heart. Take heed to the words and prayer of his heart in Psalms 51:1-17:

 1 Have mercy on me, O God, according to your unfailing love according to your great compassion blot out my transgressions. 2 Wash away all my iniquity and cleanse me from my sin. 3 For I know my transgressions, and my sin is always before me. 4 Against you, you only, have I sinned and done what is evil in your sight; so you are right in your verdict and justified when you judge. 5  Surely I was sinful at birth,  sinful from the time my mother conceived me.6 Yet you desired faithfulness even in the womb; you taught me wisdom in that secret place. 7 Cleanse me with hyssop, and I will be clean; wash me, and I will be whiter than snow.8 Let me hear joy and gladness; let the bones you have crushed rejoice.9 Hide your face from my sins and blot out all my iniquity. 10 Create in me a pure heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me.11 Do not cast me from your presence or take your Holy Spirit from me.12 Restore to me the joy of your salvation and grant me a willing spirit, to sustain me.13 Then I will teach transgressors your ways so that sinners will turn back to you. 14 Deliver me from the guilt of bloodshed, O God you who are God my Savior, and my tongue will sing of your righteousness.15 Open my lips, Lord,and my mouth will declare your praise.16 You do not delight in sacrifice, or I would bring it; you do not take pleasure in burnt offerings.17 My sacrifice, O God, is[b] a broken spirit; a broken and contrite heart you, God, will not despise.

Daughter David got what I need from you and what your heart should look like. He realized the conviction that his heart had brought and how it displease me. Once you realize that your heart is the one thing that I want to win then you will not be easily be provoked by what this world has to over, spoke, or even presents to you. The words and actions of people will not offend your heart to reaction. You will understand that my love the unconditional love that I show to you will be able to give you the strength to respond in love and not in negative action. Daughter give me your heart, I will allow the conviction that you feel to be that of healing and not of disappointment. All I ever want is your broken spirit and a contrite heart that I can draw nigh to you. Daddy I get it! I understand that my heart is more value to you than even my life. Because life flows out my heart... The manifestation of my words, the willingness to be obedient to you, my purpose, my ability to be accessible to you is all in the ability to give you all of me... All of me is found in the heart of me. Daughter you got it... You realize that your heart is the foundation of how I operate in your. Your heart is the foundation of our relationship and once I capture that, I captured all of you.... Once you yield your heart to me, you only pursue the things of me. Daddy today I give you my heart. I know that this is something that I will have to do daily in order for you to use me. I lay on the alter of sacrifice to be the offering that you ask for and to yield only to your voice and instruction. Daughter I know this will not be an easy task, but one that will win my heart, usher you into my presence, hear my clearly, and open your eyes to the true purpose of your life. I love you daughter and I am so excited to accept your heart. Know that you are always on the forefront of my mind and my heart is always in love with you. Daddy thank you. No daughter, thank you!

All I need

Today as I vacation with a friend we had the honor to experience some new things.  We went to a  restaurant and meet of family of women.  A sister and her sister-in-law and their daughters.  As we waited the sister-in-law share with us how her husband was in the military and she was not from Tennessee but New Jersey, and her husband was serving in overseas.  But what caught my attention is when she shared how she adjusted to coming from the north to the south.  She said that she submerge herself in the cultural of the south. I thought to myself that's a great way to adjust. On top of that she shared her necklace.... it said "sweet tea and Jesus..." I was like that is so southern,  but so true. There are times in our lives where we must submerge ourselves in God that the fear in being in a new place,  position,  or even walking in our calling being at peace that allows you do everything at ease.

Prayer: Daddy help us to know that you all we need. We submerge ourselves in your presence and yield to the peace of your  grace. Daddy all of you and none of us.  In Jesus name.  Amen

He Will Fix It

Happy HE will fix it Friday. I realize I need a real handyman n my life. Not the kind that fix pipes, cars, or lights. I need a handyman that can fix the cracks in my heart, the inconsistency of my praise, and mend my broken relationships. While I was getting ready to place my ad in the classifies I ran across the scripture that states u r my workmanship(Eph 2:10). Then I read another scripture that said Daddy you will perfect every thing that concerns me and will not forsake the work of your hand (Ps 138:8). Then I thought to myself there is no need to place an ad when Daddy is the greatest handyman with an awesome track record and great referrals. Always remember if u ever need a fix Daddy has the right tools. Love and have a great fix it Friday!


Prayer: Daddy I sing my heart even now... You will fix it, yes you will, yes you will. Daddy you possess tools that man has no access to. The tools to heal, mend a broken heart, put marriages back together, make a dysfunctional family better. Daddy you go tools that can perform miracles, cause overflow to be stored up for times of need. Daddy you got things that allow the blind to see, and the deaf to hear. Daddy I realize there is nothing in this world or in me that you can't fix , and for that I simply say thank you. Daddy thank you for take the time out to fix me, to fix us! Thank you allowing us to be a tool in your toolbox, assigned to do a great job for you. We love you Daddy and thank you that in our hearts we know your timing will always fix it! Not after while but right no time! In Jesus Name! AMEN

Yes Power

So let God work his will in you. Yell a loud no to the Devil and watch him scamper. Say a quiet yes to God and he’ll be there in no time. Quit dabbling in sin. Purify your inner life. Quit playing the field. Hit bottom, and cry your eyes out. The fun and games are over. Get serious, really serious. Get down on your knees before the Master; it’s the only way you’ll get on your feet.-James 4:7-10 Msg 

It's amazing how easy a yes can be when it comes to achieving the things that we desire for ourselves. Think about it. We say Yes to those extra hours at work to get the money we need to get things done. We say yes to the sinful things that bring us, what we think is peace or joy. We are so quick to say yes to our flesh and so slow to say no..... Let's not talk about when Daddy ask us to do something that is uncomfortable our out of the norm. We are quick to analyze, rationalize, and look for scriptures to back up what the Holy Spirit instructed us to do. Especial when another person is involved. In James 4 we see what the power of YES can do. In the mist of trying to get ourselves in shape through repentance and having our intimate conversations with Daddy, Daddy is preparing greater for us. Our yes to him says we surrender all and we cancel our will to take his. Though James seems to be harsh in his presentation, the reality is in order for us to get back to our place in GOD we must get to a place of desperately saying YES!

Prayer: Daddy we know that the only way to you is through the son and the only way to the son is in our surrendering. We surrender all to you. We lay down our will to take up the cross. We submit ourselves under your authority, trusting you in all that we do. Holy Spirit we ask that you guide and direct us under the light of the father. We ask that you open our ears you to Daddy and keep our sight in focus of you. We know that without you Daddy we are the bottom, and we can't get to the top until we get serious in our surrendering. We love you Daddy and today we sing.. I surrender all... I surrender all.. All to thee my blessth savior... I surrender all. In JESUS Name! Amen

The Love Beyond

Luke 6:28 Bless those who curse you  pray for those who mistreat You.

Its hard to be nice to people who openly mistreat you. Especially when you  don't know what was done to cause them to go from friend to foe. But even if or when the transition happen, be assure that your responds to them is love and prayer. Your response to them is what counts and sets the tone for the love beyond. Your ability to turn the other cheek allows them to see that your trust and faith is not in their relationship with you, but the assignment to be what called you to be. The day you learn how to love beyond your emotional response to other is the day you see with the manifestation of GOD's favor and presence overtake you. Speak life over those that speak death over you.

Prayer: Daddy it's so hard to to respond to negative people with a positive respond, especially those who we have inmate relationships with. It's hard to turn the other cheek, to move beyond our emotions, to not get caught up in being angry or holding grudges. Daddy we need your help. Help us to love beyond. Love beyond the moment of anger, the moment of frustration, the argument, the disappointment, and the heartache. Help us to be in a place where you can use us to love beyond. To love beyond our expectations for that person or people, to go beyond our own sight and to look at them through your eyes. Daddy cover us with your love that we can love them beyond us. In Jesus Name! AMEN

New Series

So as a founding act of this new season in my life I have to bring back so message that I use to send via text message. In these message we will explore a scripture and encouraging message along with a prayer to meditate on through the day. So let's get started with today's message:

Hebrew 11:8 By faith Abraham, when called to go to a place he would later receive as his inheritance, obeyed and went, even though he did not know where he was going.

When GOD says go, go. Stop worrying about direction and get focus on instructions. When you realize who is guiding you will never have to meditate on where you going.


Prayer: Daddy, forgive us for wanting to analyze your  instructions and not obey your directions. For allowing our mind to be the leader of what our heart is assured in. Help us to hear and do what you say. Not hear and talk about it looking for a greater clarity, or even waiting for the manifest of it to make sense to us. Daddy give us that "Just Do IT" spirit. Daddy, remind us that faith is verb and not a noun. That it requires action not conversation. In Jesus Name, AMEN

The Potential of A Promise

While attending a preschool graduation the children begin to sing a song. I am a promise, a promise with a capital P. I am a great big ball of potentiality. As they continue to sing I was amazed that I never realize how great this song was. As many times I have heard and sang this song I never realized the power behind the words.

First, it states that I am a promise. When was the last time you value the promise that GOD created and destine you for? When was the last time you thank GOD for the promise? I realize that the value of a Promise is only as great as the person that desires the promise.

Second, they state that I am a great big ball of potentiality. WOW! GOD has designed us to a place of never failing in His will, that our potential in Him is unlimited. When was the last time you realized that you can’t fail with GOD? When was the last time you dust yourself off and realize that the potential you have is unique and the only one that can carry your potential is you.

You have to realize that you were boring into a promise it was take away out of disobedience and give back to you through the blood of JESUS. Realize what was done on your behalf that your promise cost and that you have to take it at its true value.

Never lose the promise that GOD has given you. Realize the great power of your potential.

Prayer: Daddy your promises are yea and Amen, but while the manifestation of your yea is taking place remind of the potential you see in us. That we are beyond our situations, stronger than our issues, and saved through your son's blood. That by your grace and mercy your allow us to start afresh and anew. That it's in your that we possess the ability to be beyond the thoughts of this world or conform to it's schedule. That your timing is perfect, and in your perfection you will guide us to greater levels of faith. Thank you  Daddy for healing us from negative thoughts, that we are unworthy of your love, valueless, and unuseable. Thank you Daddy for remind us that we are priceless, and have been brought with a price that no man can ever afford to pay. We thank you Daddy that today we are and will continue to be your great big ball of potentiality. In Jesus Name. Amen

The Passion of Past

Hi! I know that I have not blogged in a minute and  I have no excuse. I have really been dealing with my past lately and I don't know why. Have you ever been a place where you feel like you are truly over it. I mean truly... like nothing about a past issues can cause you to react? Have you been in a place were you saw the people that hurt you or heard their voice and you feel like that situation is right there in your face again? But in your mind you thinking I should be over this, this shouldn't effect me like this... Or maybe you think you are beyond this and and that you need to check yourself... Well.. That's me... About three weeks ago I did something that I thought would be the hardest decision in my life. I mean it was a real heart decision. To some people reading this it may be so minuet. But here goes.. I change my phone number.. Yep I did it.. I know some people are like girl that's it.. that was a heart decision for you? Girl I do that at least three to four times a year, just to clean myself of stupid, unproductive, and negative people I have allowed in my life.... But maybe there are others that feel me.. that know that changing your number is beyond a number change. That it is a life changing decision, cause in the end you are saying good-bye to people that meant you no good, but you invest your life in. That you have to realize that you had some uneducated moments when it came to certain relationships and having with certain people. That you realized that you were driven by the passion of your past. A past that held you tight due to one device.. your phone. Your phone gave people access to your heart, your life, and your energy. You allowing others to have your phone number  told them, call me, let me be your trash can, let me take your negativity, even though I got my own issues. Your phone number may not seem so valuable at first, but once you give people access to it, you will start to see how that one number create a character change in your. Hum.. Powerful huh?!? A Number that give people access to parts of you that you never thought of. Well once I change my number I saw the effects of allowing people have it. I am now wise on who I give it to, because I am aware of the consequences of letting them have it. I realize that if the wrong person posses it, it can cause a passion of your past to rise up.


Prayer: Lord teach me how to love the ones that hurt me, to forgive the ones that offend me to pursue peace when I’m pissed; to move beyond the moment into the lifetime. Help me father to remember it’s not about me, but your kingdom. Help me to stop making temporary permanent, and please help me find words of wisdom, compassion, and understanding to give to the ones that refuse to hear my heart. Father create the atmosphere to rebuild the relationships I destroyed and rebuild me from relationships that destroyed me. Open my eyes to what you are showing me and let me not take this assignment in vain. Give me your presence that I may move at your pace; and father when I become impatient with the present task, can you remind me of the future promises you have for me. Cover me father from my own ignorance and allow me to not be blinded by my own thoughts. Let me focus on your voice, walk in your faith, trust you at your word, and hold fast to your presence with the power of your love. Father I’m an available vessel waiting on your instructions and though I have a couple of cracks and there are places that I still don’t want to explore about me, hold my hand and remind me that you can use anything and any one all we have to do is surrender to your will.

It Gets Better (Day 7 and Day 8)

Have you ever had something to happen to you and you talk about with other people they and they simply say  "It Gets Better," and that statement alone seems to add more frustration and stress to the situation. Well can I tell you the revelation that I got out of that statement that they don't way. It Gets Better, because Daddy will never allow you to get worst. I don't know about you, but that just brought some people to my spirit. Even when it seems worst, Daddy will never allow it to get to another state of worst even if you think it can. As I reflected on these couple of days of this prayer journey I realized that two things. I have seen the worst of my life, but I have never seen the righteousness of GOD leave me during those worst times. I mean I was about to lose my car, no job, no income, my family in need of money and things in the house going down; but can I tell you that Daddy NEVER Forsake me! Even when I felt like Daddy had abandoned me and wasn't feeling real to me he was truly working things out. There is someone feeling like I once felt. Hearing the same thing I was hearing "It Gets Better, but let me add the B part of that it get's better because Daddy promise you greater; and unlike man Daddy always comes though and they are always yes and amen!

Prayer: Daddy we may never see the better in the worst, but we talk you that you are not like man who will forsake us during our most vulnerable moments. You take care of us even when we don't see it. Daddy we thank you that today we know and acknowledge that "It Gets Better!" In Jesus Name! AMEN