A Stubborn Daughter

Daddy today I read a quote that truly describe how I feel. It simply said.... “Father I feel like you have became foe, rather than a friend, because my heart seems more heavy than light... but no matter how I feel I will stubbornly rest myself in your arms until.... So what are you going to do Daddy now that I have submitted myself to you? Daddy today I’m stubbornly coming into your presence, be...cause I realize how I feel is not the reality of what you called me to be or where I should be. Daddy I realize that you choose me first. And being chosen causes me to stick out and no matter what I decide your will, will always override it. Daddy it hurts.... And I am sure Jesus can understand that this world is not receptive to those that are different, those that don’t fit into their mode. Daddy how can I be for you and live in this world with the abundant life Jesus says I can find in him, because I am in him? How do I adjust to the loneliness of not being able to do xyz and still have joy while other enjoy the xyz I long for. How do I smile while being judge by the crowds. When other think I have a mask... how do I explain to them I am not wearing a mask just learning how to trust you with my hurt? That I act ok because you said you would handle it...that I act as though it’s not a big deal cause you are healing it... that I want to speak my hurt with joy, because I know it’s my testimony not my earthly story. It makes me better, build charter, and adds to my track list with you... How daddy do I say Daddy has me ... I am trying to trust the process??? How daddy do I say I am facing the facts and building my faith by laying it down at your feet??? It hurts, you know. Daughter why overwhelm yourself with things you can’t control? Why become frustrated with a plan that is meant to grow you. I have called you out. Yes I choose you... I have called you to be apart of a generation of priesthood, a nation that’s Holy. My son suffered ever cost I knew you would have to pay by being in this world. If you will be the salt of the earth and allow your light to shine on the hill...this world will conform to my will and you can see the abundant life that my son promise you with his life. The day you establish yourself in me and my word no longer will it be promises it will become establish facts. Don’t worry bout this world and it’s thoughts towards you nor the thoughts of those connected or around you. I am calling you to a new thing, helping you to become anew... where you going your old mindset can’t take you, so what others think is a mask is actually a veil that I have covered you with. Your loneliness is not what it seems, it’s actually me trying to develop a consistent relationship with you. I want all of you... my heart desire is that you sing to me every morning this simply song...” Daddy give you, everything else can wait.” I will wait for you... I will I will...My Daughter, my heart.