The Refreshing of the Refresher (Day 1)

"I have decided to stop doing the things that ultimately lead to  a place of nothing and start doing the things that lead me to GOD... My Daddy!" -Shawndrika (Inspired by a sermon given by Pastor Chris Hodges, Church of the Highland)


For the next 21 days I will be doing something different. I will make it my priority to post 21 blogs one each day as I take a 21 day prayer journey to start my new year. This journey is in collaboration with that of my church, Church of the Highlands. Please check it out, our pastor is doing a sermon series called "I have decided." (www.churchofthehighlands.com) I also encourage you to start your new year with a prayer journey as well...I will give instructions on how to do in tomorrow's blog.

The quote for today was part of the revelation that I received during the series. It was one that lead me to a place where "I Decided...to become refreshed, by the refresher Daddy." In 2013 I face the reality of a few  hard facts. Fact 1. My marriage was over. I realized though I had gotten the revelation of who GOD was, where I went wrong in my actions, thinking, and even loving my husband (at the time) there was nothing I could do to get him to see the same thing. So with that in mind I made the decision to sign the papers for divorce. We had nothing together physically, but spiritual I had to deal with a soul tie that I didn't want to let go or should I say know how to let go due to it being a comfort for me. Fact 2. In march of last year an even took place that ultimately divided my family. It was a reality check for those who had been covering the action up, and a reality check for me of how my family members felt about me. Can I take a side note and say to someone: Not even your family can understand the value of your anointing nor will they congratulate you for the accomplishments you have made in life; no matter how much you do for them. Also know that we have to make decision that sometimes will cause your family members to make heart and hard choice. When they realize they were wrong that the situation is based on their actions too they will not apologize, but place the blame solely on you. But know in the blame you are getting healed and things that have been broken well be amended and healed. "What the devil meant for bad, GOD will turn around for your good, even when you don't see how." Fact 3. My worth is the last thing I had to deal with. Have you felt so beaten down that not even the love of Daddy seems to fill you up or even shake the feeling and action of worthlessness you are feeling inside and out? OO OO OO Can I tell you that was me. It hurt to know that fact 1 and 2 were happening and there was nothing in my power I could do to stop it, correct it, voice my opinion about it to open the eyes of the parties involved, or even prevent it from happening all together. Isn't it like Daddy to show you who is control...Him! So with the facts in my face and constant reminders being around me of the facts... I start losing it.. then I felt that I was losing my mind. I mean I was so depressed that I was on the verge of seeking medication...But can I tell you that there is no timing that Daddy is not perfect in. I had the honor to go to L.I.F.E. Which stands for Living In Freedom Everyday! During life I go the revelation of forgiveness... Forgiveness: The ability to release what someone has done to you or what you have done to someone or yourself without having to reconcile the relationship...  All this time I thought that forgiveness came with the ability to do part A and having to reconcile. That revelation in itself created a refreshing in my spirit. Now let me take a sidebar and say: If  the relationship needs to be reconcile it will happen, but you don't have to force it.  So with forgiveness in play, release from a marriage, and learning that I have family that can move beyond... I realize it was time to be refreshed by the father and it could not come at a more perfect time.
As I pray and intercede for 21 days for this blog, family, brothers, sisters, friends, and other people and things I asked for a refreshing to take place. One that will create not only a newness in my spirit, but in the spirit of those that read this blog and share it with others. I look forward sharing my daily prayer revelations and really speaking into your life as I pray for you and whatever the Holy Spirit tells me.

Prayer: Daddy what and awesome privilege it is to be refreshed by you. To see your presence every morning as we enter into a world filled with chaos, murder, hate, and discord. Daddy there is someone facing more reality facts that I have listed and others who are facing the same facts that I have listed; I pray right now that your presence meet them right now. Daddy we can find ourselves in a depressed state seeking only the things that can numb us to a point of just functioning in the earth. But Daddy you didn't create us to just function you create us to rule, reign, and subdue the earth with your presence, love, and worship. We are the light of this world, and though it seems as though our light has become dim, we change your light bulb and stand tall, look to you for help during the moments of fact facing realities...being reminded that facts and reality don't outweigh  faith, grace, mercy, and love, all the things you have equipped us with. Daddy thank you that for every "moment" we have in our day, creates the atmosphere for your perfect timing. We honor you Daddy and we take heed to your instructions as we move beyond what is comfortable for us to the refreshing presence of your love and grace. In Jesus Name. AMEN!