The Art of Fighting

This has been a week. It has been a week of constant fighting and constant trust in the word of GOD. For the last two years FEAR has been my biggest fight. The FEAR of failure, FEAR of rejection, FEAR of sacrifice, FEAR of not being loved or being able to love again, FEAR of not completing goals, FEAR of losing more than I can handle, FEAR of grieving, FEAR of the enemy, FEAR of me and ability to be successful, FEAR of the unknown, FEAR of losing, and most importantly FEAR of not being good enough. That's a lot of FEAR I know and as I type this I feel the weight of FEAR being revealed and release off my life so let me keep typing. F.E.A.R. False Evidence Appearing Real. The word of GOD clearly states that GOD has not given us the spirit of FEAR (False Evidence Appearing Real) but has given the power, love, and sound mind (2Tim1:7 ) So why is the fight so great when it comes to FEAR? Why is it so great to the point it that it can manifest as  a spirit that can over take your mind even in your dream. That even in the places you see as your safety the spirit of FEAR continues to be ever present. For me it has manifested in my dreams. I can have pleasant dream and then the natural manifestation of FEAR comes in and I wake up to the enemy standing over me trying to over take me. But today I take on the art of fighting. The first thing we must due when facing fear is we must learn how to trust Daddy. So many times we cause our own fear by losing focus on what Daddy has told us to do. Disobedience will cause the door of FEAR to creep open. We must meditate on the word  that gives us simple instructions on how to focus: Fear not for I am with you. (Isa. 41:10) How can we take this instruction and apply it to our life? Well if Daddy told us that he is with us then we have nothing to lose. He also states that nothing can separate us from his love, (Romans 8:38) NOTHING. So when FEAR makes you feel like you have been separated from GOD know that this is just the trick of the enemy, because the only thing that separates you from Daddy is you. Now that you know that GOD is always with you, you have to trust the presence of his love. Zephaniah 3:17 The LORD your God is in your midst, a mighty one who will save; he will rejoice over you with gladness; he will quiet you by his love; he will exult over you with loud singing. You have to trust the song that GOD sings over you know that it is one with great plans and it will restore your joy, give you peace, and allow you to know that he will always save you no matter what.  After you have trust him, dwell in his love, you next must operate an take your position of authority. First power you possess is your faith. Hebrew 11:1 For Faith is the confidence... We are going to stop right there. Faith is your confidence with it your can conquer everything! It causes you to speak with boldness and assurance that whatever you tell Daddy he will do, but also it allows you to cast down, destroy, and cancel the assignments, ambushes, and attacks of the enemy. Second remember your place, title, and position. Psalms 8:4-6 discusses our position and power:  "what are mere mortals that you should think about them, human beings that you should care for them? Yet you made them only a little lower than God  and crowned them with glory and honor. You gave them charge of everything you made, putting all things under their authority." Let me encourage you some more about your power. Romans 8:11 states that the same power that raised Christ from the dead is the same power that lives inside of us. Wait so you mean to tell me that the same power that rolled the stone away, took off Jesus's dead clothes, and clothed him with clothing of life lives in me?!?! Yep that's what I am saying. So what power does FEAR really have but what you give it. So today let's conquer this False Evidence Appearing Real that we  have given power to. Let's stand in our true authority and rest in FAITH know that GOD will always make a way out of no way and he will do beyond what he said he would do. 

Prayer: Daddy thank you for always giving us the answers to our issues, situations, circumstances, and reminding us of our power, authority, and position in you. Daddy we thank you with that all we need is in you and that FEAR has no power over your love, joy, peace, and presence. We thank you that in our thanksgiving you take hold to our FEAR and create a yearning to have faith in your word, promises, will, and perfect timing. Daddy we thank you that on today that every thing that we labled or connected to FEAR is being destroyed and we relinquished the power of the enemy out and off our life. We will no longer feed the spirit of FEAR by submitting to it's authority. We take the spirit of FEAR under our authority that we have due to our position of being the sons and daughters of the Most High, and we cast it to the pit of hell in which it was formed and we release the power of your love and trust in you GOD In JESUS NAME. We thank you Daddy that we shut down the gates of the enemy and we cancel every plan that has been formed to destroy us through the use of FEAR. We thank you DADDY that we declare victory and freedom from FEAR and we no longer yield to the authority of FEAR or the plans to FEAR. We sit, we taken in, and we continue to speak FAITH in our life. When things are unknown we speak FAITH that you will give us the wisdom and guidance that we need through your Holy Spirit to get to the destination that you called us to. When things seem uneased we speak your love, knowing that in your love you soothe all our issues and calm us with your peace.  Daddy we laugh at FEAR knowing that the reality of it's manifestation is not real and that it can only have the power we allow it to have in our life. We thank you that all is well and FEAR is not some we submit to but something we have defeated in the art of fighting it with FAITH. In JESUS NAME. AMEN 

The Art of Thankfulness

Good Tuesday Morning!!! I. I was reading my prophetic devotional  and it was talking about about dealing with the anti-Christ but today was really one that convicted me. It was talk about how to use Thanksfulness/Thanksgiving in order to fight and deal with the anti-Christ. Can I be honest I have found it difficult to be thankful when: I am so tired when it comes to my job, my singlehood, and just overall life status. I know the word says in all things give thanks and please know that's my goal and that's why this edition of the devotional convicted me with a passion to ask daddy for a vision of thankfulness. I realize that life will never go the way WE plan but thank GOD his plan is perfect. Thanksgiving and the heart of thanks opens doors for the more enough. When JESUS gave thanks for the five loaves of bread and two fish it went from feeding a little boy and his family to feeding 5,000 and they had leftover to take home. LEFTOVERS!!! Let me just settle right there. When we get to a place of thanksgiving with a thankful heart Daddy will allow us to have leftovers.. In other words the overflow is in your thankfulness. Let's examine one more benefit of thankfulness. It causes Daddy to take on the issues of our heart. Phil.4:6-7" Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus” Not only does thankfulness meet my heart need, but it grants me the peace of GOD, a mindset to trust him in the things of my heart, protect me, and for GOD to make my issue his priority. In the words of my sister oh that preach right there!

Prayer: Daddy so many times we miss the moments to give you thanks dealing with us and our issues. We sit complaining, contemplating, comparing, and coercing things in our life to reflect what we think our life should be when we should be giving you thanks. Daddy forgive us for being in our will when all we had to do is take time and be in yours. Daddy forgive us for not always not having a heart and the speech of thankfulness. Daddy today want to take the time out and say thank. Thank you for being so great to us. Thank you for being our provider, provision, and promise keeper. Thank you for life, healthy, and strength. Thank you for your word that says I am more than a conqueror in you through Christ JESUS. Thank you Daddy that no matter what situation, circumstance, issue, or problem we will thank you first and tell you our heart next. But we will always thank you!! In JESUS NAME. AMEN!!!

A day

Today Daddy is a day I truly wish that I had a mate. Today the sun you created is shinning bright, the temperature is not too hot and the pollen is not at full blast that I can't go outside and enjoy the day. But here I sit daydream of a person that doesn't exist. To be in a position where when he gets off from work we meet up at one of the parks and walk around enjoy great conversation with each other, discussing our future together or even as individuals, and just taking in your great creation. Yet on this day I am inside talking to you about my thoughts. Daughter that sounds great and I hope you know that a day like today with your expectations is not that far away, but why can't we have a day like that? Why can't you take the time out and have a day with your Daddy. I want to tell you about the future plans I have for you. I want to enjoy a conversation of your heart, listening to what you desire, and I give you the instructions on how to get there. Daughter I know on a day like today you seek to have the companionship that I created you to have, but until that day comes, come have a day with me. I may not be there in a natural flesh body but my presence will always place you in a position where you will never feel alone. I can hold your hand and enjoy my creations with you. I really just want a day where we can enjoy our relationship. I know that your heart desires something more and daughter please hold fast to that desire. It is the desire of my plan, but until I get through preparing the moment come walk with me in the park. Come enjoy this day with me. Daddy that sounds great, but I can't see your facial expressions as I discuss the craziness of my life, or hear you laugh at the jokes I try to tell, or even see how you look at me as I look at you. Daughter trust me I understand what you are saying and I have to say is give me the moment to give you the moment you so desire. Know that a day with me can just impacting as one with your mate. I can give you revelation about who I am through my Holy Spirit. I can heal you in just one conversation. I can change your life, create your world, and give you favor, and love on you all at the same time. Daddy I think I like that. I never thought that you could come and be a mate to me in that way. Thank you Daddy for clarity on taking our relationship tp a new level. Daughter you are welcome!!!

With great love and affection,

Your Daddy and true soulmate

All I need

 I feel some kind of way and I don't know why but in the way that I feel it seems like defeat is the only thing I can feel. I am so in a place where I need the supernatural move of GOD to be so real that I know that GOD is about to do something mind blowing.. Have you ever been there? In a place where you need Daddy to do something like RIGHT now?!? Like Daddy if you don't move right now I know that I am going to lose it no matter how much I try to hold it together?!? Am I by myself? Well even if I am just in case one day you feel like this I want to share my wisdom.. HOLD ON!! YEP!! HOLD ON. Even when it doesn't look like GOD is moving or even hearing you because all you do is sit in silence waiting on a response, he is doing something. But I am always reminded of the formula of GOD. IF you then he will. If you hold fast to the promise then he will manifest just what he said. IF you speak his word then he has no choice but to manifest it. IF you ask he has no choice but to give it to you. He can't lie he is not a man, so you have to get to a place where you stop seeing him as such. I know you don't, but I find myself doing it...I know that he is our GREAT GOD, but because of my relationship with him and how we operate I forget how great he is. I want him to come to my level so he can feel my pain, emotions, and feelings, when he is trying to get me to his level. The level of peace, joy, love, provision, wisdom, understand, and pure trust. But can I tell you that it can be difficult when you are in crisis. When you are in a place where you are like GOD if you don't move I don't know how to make something happen for me, but I am about to make something happen!!! If I am by myself again.. that's fine but I know I am not! I just came to encourage you my readers and say.. HOLD FAST!!! What seems like a lifetime of waiting is only seconds to Daddy. What seems like stillness, is actually rapid movement to GOD. We will never be able to catch up with the timing of GOD, but we can always be in the right place to experience the benefits of his perfect timing.

Prayer: Daddy help us to hold on and hold fast to your word and promises. Help us to be in the position that we can experience the benefits of your perfect timing. Let us never become weary in our well doing that we lose focus of your presence and glory. Even in silence assure us that you are still listening and in stillness that you are still working for our good. We thank you that everything we lay at your feet, especially when we are in crisis. We thank you that what we lay at your feet is being worked on, worked through, completed, removed, destroyed, restored, and manifesting for our good. For your words says that your plans for us are great and they will manifest hope and a productive future for your glory. Daddy help us and let us remain in the vain of your glory. In JESUS NAME! AMEN

The Mask

It's been a while since I blogged but promise I have really been in a position where I needed to but didn't have the time to. Today's blog is one of true transparency. I have really been wrestling with the thought of  writing this blog.. I means it's not serious but it is very transparent when it comes to being in a position of growth. So here goes nothing. For past hummmmm... Maybe two months I have been a position where I really wanted a move of GOD in my life. I mean a move that would not only change my life but spill over into the lives of the people that are connected to me. In sum I wanted this kingdom move. Well it happen I mean really happen. I realize it had happen when I thought about how excited I was about graduating for the third time with my third degree (no I am not finish I need my doctoral degree...LOL). I was wondering why was I so happy about graduating again... Like overly excited. I was asking the Holy Spirit to reveal it to me and then it happen. The last time I was graduating I was in the mist of a separation with my husband which would end in divorce. I called him crying telling him it would mean the world to me for him to be at my graduation. I remember the conversation and how I found myself begging this man who I was still married to, to come to the most important day in my life at that moment but his attitude towards me was horrible. I also remember after leaving dinner with my family and him and how he cussed me out from Anniston, AL to Birmingham, AL in front of her (almost a hour and a half straight) ... I just remember that graduation being the worst, but I also remember the prayer I prayed. "Daddy if you just give me a second change that's all I ask. I want to know what joy is again." Those words rung in me ear and heart even after my divorce until I just let it go. Now fast forward three years later and degree number three and that prayer is coming true. Sidebar: Daddy will allow you to pray for a thing and just when you think he has forgotten about it, he shows up and out. Lesson: Prayer works just not in your timing and it will not come in the packaging you expect. Back to the regular scheduled blog.... So needless to say I got my second chance to enjoy the moment that I work so hard for, but not only that I realize how much Daddy loves us. I mean we are always saying he is a GOD of a second chance, we read where he gives second chances, but to experience the second chance is just amazing. But this is not the purpose of this blog just the foundation. The purpose of this blog is the aftermath of the second chance. I really have been seeking and asking Daddy to use me to show himself strong in my life. That He be the father, the provider, and the I AM that is talked about in the Bible. And he has forever one that I have prayed for. Here is my mask. I am happy that everyone I have prayed, poured into, and spoke purpose in. They have  received all that they need and more, but in the back of my head with my mask on I  am asking Daddy when do I get what I have been praying for. When do I get the overflow? When will it hit my house? When will he come? When can I leave and get the promotion? I am sure I am not by myself and if I am well I will just be. I wear this mask where I am super excited about the blessings of GOD on others not thinking DADDY WHEN. I smile when inside I am crying.... Asking DADDY what do I have to do to get it!!! Then I get tired of wearing my mask and I shut down and I have to have my selfish moment... Yeah it's a process for me. Then I have to stop ignoring the Holy Spirit and conforming to the enemy's mindset and take a bite out of the tree of life and say to myself... GIRL it is coming just keep praying for others and watch the blessing flow. But can I be real transparent that's hard when they are getting the thing that you prayed for, for yourself... i.e. the husband, the promotion, the move, the increase, the favor,,,, I can go on and on.... But the situation get's better when you realize how your ability to be selfless will paralyze your ability to selfish. The mask of asking When ME Daddy can overtake you if you do not place yourself in a position to really see what the father is trying to do through you to get you to your WHEN ME DADDY moment.

Prayer: Daddy help us to be so transparent with you that we never need to put on a mask in order to deal with growth, change, and praying for others. Help us to realize that your timing for our life is so perfect that we won't even have time to focus on the "WHEN ME DADDY" moments. Daddy help us to release these moments through faith, joy,and trust that you have not forgotten about us. Daddy secure us in your yes and Amen and let us not forget the personal promises you have spoken to us. In Jesus Name! Amen

The Reality is....

This post is going to be really different because it will be comprise of several things (Dear Future Husband, Transparency, and Daddy Daughter Conversation) For the last three months I have really been in the position of student and learning. About six months ago I ask GOD to start preparing me and surrounding me with the things that a wife would have to face, because I was the position where I really desire the Man of GOD I was designed for. In that prayer I had the opportunity to experience "Wife Lessons." Let me tell you Wife lessons are hard. I mean patience and the ability to hear has been the biggest lesson and teacher during each lesson. I am overwhelm with the revelations that Daddy has given me through every teaching moment. But the biggest lesson came when I found myself in battle in my sleep in my room at night. (Here is me being Transparent) I would find myself fight demotic spirits and one looked like someone I knew. I contact someone I trust that had the spiritual wisdom that I needed to help me understand what was going on. In our conversation she told me that I needed to record every encounter, ask Daddy about it, and realize the pattern of when the attacks happen. Before she could tell me more.. I got the revelation of the why, when, and how they happen. She then told me to explore the root of those areas and when I tell you it didn't take me long to reveal the root. The root came from suppressed insecurity, abandonment, rejection, and giving  my body away. Because every demotic attack was a man. I was overwhelm when I realize that what I thought I was over was really a suppressed moment exposed through these attacks. I did any and everything to make sure that I look like I had it all together, even it meant acting like certain things didn't happen, but the reality is.... What I don't deal with in the natural got exposed in the spiritual and it gave the enemy the permission to come in and do whatever he wanted to do with me. So with all that being said I had to ask Daddy to help me recall every moment that I felt abandon, rejected, given myself away, and let me not forget unforgiveness too which lead to my insecurity. Last night I had to go into my walk in closet and make it my altar calling out everything that the Holy Spirit brought to my mind. From being divorced to being in the position of feel like the only thing that I had to offer a man was my body. I was put on the surgical table to be cut on. I asked for a clean heart and blood transfusion along with freedom. I had to remember that I have freedom in Daddy and there is no chain too strong that can't be broke by him. It's amazing how suppressed things will find themselves exposed no matter how much you try to keep them in. Because I was able to be place on the altar of sacrifices I now have begun to feel the freedom that Daddy promises us. It's awesome but it's just a piece of what I can have and I plan on having in all areas of my life. (Dear  Future Husband)

Dear Future Husband:

I realize that every time I fuss at you for your short comings I am actually frustrated with my own suppressed emotions. The ones that I feel if I present them to you, you will see me in a light that is unpleasing to you. That you will no longer see your priceless jewel, but see broken pieces of colored glass. But after laying on Daddy's altar and presenting my body on his surgical table, he cut me open and replace my heart with his and gave me a blood transfusion that cause me to regain joy and my place in him. No longer am I upset at my short comes and no longer am I striving towards perfection but excellence. I apologize for all the times I made you feel less than a man. I apologize for making you feel like you failed me. Know that there is nothing in this world that you can do to fail me unless you stop listening to Daddy. You are my rock, you are the natural representation of GOD's love towards me. You are his heart in the flesh. Thank you for always being so patient and forgiving. I realize that this nothing new for you, that you were prepared for this very moment because Daddy told you it was coming. But that doesn't meant that I can't correct my actions. I thank you for being so great and open with me every step up the way. Today as Daddy has open my heart I expose my all to you. I realize that this should have been done before now, but you knew that I would come to you sooner than later with all of my brokenness healed. Thank you for being my heart beat when I didn't see how to love you beyond my flaws. Thank you for being the covering that you were destine to be for me. The tears that I cry right now are not of hurt and frustration any more, but gratitude and joy. I am totally grateful that you know the value of us and me. That my price in your heart never devalues but continues to gain value. I love you so much.

With a healed heart,

Your Priceless Jewel

Prayer: Daddy this was the most difficult revelation about me that I have ever had to face in a while. To know that I was in a place of bondage thinking I was free. Daddy thank you for a husband who can pray for my brokenness and not walk away as though there is not hope. Thank you for a man who sees beyond my flaws and see my freedom. Father right now I expose my flaws, heart, and mind to you. Find all the areas of insecurities in my life and cover them in the blood and destroying them with your love. For you said in your word that I fearfully and wonderfully made in you. Daddy expose every areas of doubt that I have suppressed just to fake joy. You said that I should be anxious for nothing. That you have taken on every burden that I may experience your everlasting joy. Jesus you said that you came that I can have life and life more abundantly and I accept the abundance of  life today. Daddy take away the areas of rejection that I have kept a secrete for you said in your word that your plans for my life are good and perfect. That you knew me before I was even a thought in my mother's womb. Daddy make me whole again. You said that you are my healer, that in you I can find rest and refuge. Daddy right now I ask that every broken area and piece of me be whole in you. Thank you that the blood of your son Jesus make me new in you and your grace covers me daily. Daddy thank you for being my father. For loving me in spite of. I thank you that you will never allow anything to harm me. I bind up every attack, assignment, and ambush of the enemy that is in the works, working, and thinking about manifesting in the name of Jesus and with his blood I send them all to the pit of hell. I thank you father that ever witch, war lock, demotic spirit, or imp is bound in the the name of Jesus and sent to the pit of hell and every opening, window, door, gateway, foot hold, crack, and cranny that the enemy is trying to come through has been sealed with the blood of JESUS and that the freedom of you has been released. Thank you Daddy for freedom and the healing of self inflicted wounds. Daddy I rest in your freedom, I speak your joy, I represent your glory and I thank you for your peace. In JESUS NAME AMEN  

Covering Off

Dear Future Husband:

There are times in my life where even when I need to be vulnerable I still end up being guarded. Not because I don't trust you with me, but because I don't want to be a burden to you when you already have the world, all your responsibilities, and our family on your shoulders. But today I realize something it's not my place to judge what you can and can't handle, nor is it my place to tell you what you need and don't need on your plate. So I apologize for taking GOD's authority and being out of line when it comes to your strength. You can handle any and ever thing when it comes to me, if you didn't GOD would have not place us together. He knew that there would be days that your wife would be so overwhelm with emotions. That though she is about to break on the inside she smiles on the outside and you would have the power and gift to not only identify that she was in a place that she needed to talk but you will have the ability to love her to a place of healing. You would truly take off the duties of all other responsibilities just to cater to the needs of being a covering for your wife.  Thank you. I forget that I have a partner that can handle all of me and all my emotional moments, that he will know what to say and how to say it before I could voice anything about it. Thank you for being patient with me. I forget that I am your rib and a piece of you. That you take time to talk to Daddy about me...how to deal with me... how to reveal the secrets of my heart even when I feel like my heart desires are to great and  big for me to even handle.  But today as I sat and talk with about how I was feeling a peace came over me. It was no ordinary peace. It was a peace of GOD's love and assurance and as you talk I heard the Holy Spirit say it's ok he can handle your heart that's who your Daddy put you with. I also heard him say that you are his missing piece he will never devalue who you are because it would be like him devaluing himself, so let go... cry if you need to, scream if you want to, but most importantly get it out so that when you leave his presence you will know the victory of your father and you will understand that your battle is already won. So today I say thank you!!! Thank for never changing your approach with me, for being patient with me, for allowing me to glow in the end, for allowing your love to cover me, for being selfless, for being you. Thank you for always encouraging me, and realizing that my attitude has nothing to do with you or your action, but the constant healing from past hurt. Thank you for being my covering, for allowing me to be totally naked in front of you, never seeing my vulnerability as weakness but as strength. 

With A grateful heart,

A covered wife

New Beginning

Happy New Year Fellow Followers!!! I can't believe it will be 4 years this year since I started this blog. It started out as a process to enhance my counseling skills and ended up being the healing process to my heart. Daddy is so awesome!!! He will take your will and plan and some how in the process convert it to bring him glory!!

Well it's that time of the year again. The time we talk about the new beginnings of a new year. The time were we sit and think about what we want to accomplish, speak into the atmosphere, and just really press towards. I am super excited about 2016! I mean it's the year of the expectation of Daddy. I am really ready to see the promises of what Daddy's YES and AMEN looks like aren't you? Well with all this expectation and excitement can I talk to you about new beginnings and how to really look at 2016?

 As children of Daddy we forget three things when it comes to our new beginnings in a new year. These things are: Last year's lessons, Daddy will for us, and faith. Yep, these three things are things we forget to continue to incorporate in our new beginnings. Let's talk about he first one "Last year's lessons." I don't know about you but last year was the greatest lesson plan that I think Daddy could prepare for me. I lost my mother's side of the family with disconnect due to the death of my grandmother, had to move out of the house I lived in for 15 years into an apartment with my mother, lost my daddy's mother whom I was close with but never got the full closure I needed from her death, because my cousin got into an major accident on the way to funeral and I saw it all; and last I was in a major car accident in another state that left me with a totaled car. What lessons!?! Well let me tell you what I got from all of that which were great lessons for me to apply to 2016. Lesson 1. Never ever allow what you feel to predict your assignment. You are not your own, you are just a steward of the body you were given. This life you live is not about you and your glory, but about you completing the assignments that Daddy has give you the honor to carry out. Never allow how you feel to dictate how you respond to life and its situations no matter how much you feel it will bring productivity to the situation. Lesson 2. Have faith and stay faithful. Hum, I think I am about to cry about this lesson. Because it's hard to have faith when your integrity is being drugged through the mud by family, you have so many life changes going on that you don't know if you are coming or going, and you feel like you about to lose it, but you never do. But can I tell you if Daddy is faithful you can be faithful too. Because his track record in your life is greater than the moment of foolish and temporariness that is cause by others or yourself. Lesson 3. Always rest. I know this can be hard when you are looking for answers, solutions, and resolutions to life, but if you rest in the peace, love, and joy of GOD he will become your strength and the rest you thought you would never experience will be one that you desire more and more every day. Lesson 4. Change your vision. How you see things are not how things are actually seen. (that's deep I know). What you see in your face doesn't hold value to what Daddy is doing behind the scene. I am always reminded of the story where the prophet Elisha prayed that his servant's eyes be open during a time of war. And Elisha prayed, “Open his eyes, Lord, so that he may see.” Then the Lord opened the servant’s eyes, and he looked and saw the hills full of horses and chariots of fire all around Elisha. (2Kings 6:17) It wasn't until he prayed for the spiritual vision of his servant that he could see the true vision of victory. Always know that fight is rigged you win every time all you have to do is show up. Here is the final lesson. Lesson 5. Stand on the word of GOD. His words will not return to him without purpose. "so shall my word be that goes out from my mouth; it shall not return to me empty, but it shall accomplish that which I purpose, and shall succeed in the thing for which I sent it." (Isaiah 55:11)
So now you have the lessons you need to enjoy your new beginning apply them to your 2016 and watch Daddy do what he does best...manifest greatness!

Prayer: Daddy as we go into our new beginning help us to never forsake the lessons of our last year or the years before, let us always have the mentality of a student that seeks to learn more  and the characteristics of a child humble, but assured that there is nothing to big or hard for our daddy to do. Let us always remain in the place of faith, hope, and love, realizing that nothing is ever in our control only yours. Let us always speak life where death tries to rest, remaining assured that your word will not return to you void. But Daddy most importantly let us never take your grace and mercy for granted. Let us always be in the position were we realize tomorrow is never promise to us ; therefore, we will rest in today and allow you to take care of tomorrow as we complete what you have called us to and become great stewards of the the life you allow us to live, no matter what our expectations for it is.  In Jesus Name AMEN!

A Morning

Dear Future Husband:

If my heart could express what I was feeling today I think you would understand the unexplained emotions that I demonstrated on this morning. First let me apologize for taking my sealed and covered heart out on you. I forget that there is another part of me that I can talk to, be free with, and cry on. I forget that I am no longer this single woman seeking to be found by the one that GOD tailored made me for. I forget that you are my rock, you know things even before I express them, because you and the father have conversations about me daily. I forget that you know how I function. You know what is really wrong with me though I try to keep my mask in tack, you quickly slip it off and see my nakedness. I forget that you love me.. not the me that I reveal to you, but the me that I keep hidden. I forget that you know me! You know the heart of who I am.. You know that at night I cry because I can't meet the world's demands. That I want to save nations but struggle to save me. That there are times that I wish to be free but have created a bubble so big to protect me that I forgot to let you in or better yet pop it.. Future I forgot!!! I truly did!!! But I am so glad that in my outburst you took me tears and all.. and you held me. And as you held me, you spoke to the father about me. You spoke life to me, you spoke love into me, you declared and decreed things that I couldn't see. As I cried in your arms not knowing what to do today. You took on the light of the father, and shined on me. You became my strength and though your day was busy with appointments and meetings, You cancelled them all just to be with me. To comfort me.. Take care of me. You became my superhero though I told you I didn't need to be rescued. You became my all when I felt like I had nothing. You became everything I needed you to be and completed the assignment of the father to me. For this my heart screams thank you.. but my tears say I appreciate you. I never thought you could truly be my all in all in one breath, but you took on the assignment with a heart of GOD courage and said father give me strength, and he did that a more. Thank you for never allowing me to forget that you and I are one, and the purpose of our union is not about a person but a purpose.

With a heart of relief,

Your Grateful Wife

The Thought of Love

Dear Future Husband:

As I sit here thinking about you. I hear the Jill Scott song in my head.."Just Running Across My Mind." The lyrics that stick out to me that describes you are.... " I love seeing you walk into a room... across the room, out of the room... I just love what you do... Then I added my own lyrics...I love seeing you smile... I love that I motivate you... I love your passion... I love that you want to save the nations, but you are taking care of our family first. I love that you can be my personal superhero yet vulnerable enough to accept help.I am just in love with all of you.Totally grateful that you are willing to spend the rest of your life being in ministry with me.

Committed to You,

Your Pearl

The Perfect Covering

Dear Future Husband:
There are no words in the world that can express my thank you. Thank you for the many times you filled up my car because I forgot to put gas in it on the was home. Thank you for making sure that dinner was ready after a long night at the office, even though you had a long day. Thank you for holding me when my friend came to visit me those cramps can be a pain....LOL! Thank you  for holding my hand when I gave birth to our children and the midnight runs you made when I was craving crazy things. Thank you for making me laugh when all I wanted to do is cry, because my efforts to save the world today failed. Thank you for speaking life when things seem dead and making sure I remember the promises of GOD. Thank you for being a great father to our children, providing stability, love, laughter, and memories to our home. But most importantly thank you for praying over me and watching over me when I am sleep. There are times that I wake up and it seems that your eyes are close, but then in a quite still voice I hear you praying for me. Asking the father to guide and cover me. I hear you thanking him for our marriage, family, and legacy. I hear you asking him to guide you in new way to love me and fall in love with me over and over again. It's during these moments that my heart becomes full and I realize how great of a covering you are to me. I try not to cry... But tears start to form in my eyes and I too begin to speak to Daddy about us. I start crying out for your heart, asking Daddy to guide you to the next level in him in peace, while restoring your joy. I ask Daddy to heal all the broken pieces that you never speak of. That he pours out vision and goals beyond your hearts desire and that he guide you to love me and how I should love you in all areas of our marriage. Future  your covering means more to me next to GOD himself. Without you I feel so incomplete, but with you I am covered. You are the heart of GOD for me and to me in flesh. For than I am grateful.
With A Heart of Yes,
Your Heartbeat

The Gift

Dear Future Husband:

There are times that I look at you and I  can't believe you are mines and I'm yours.  Your ability to make me feel valuable in the most valueless times gives me life.  There is nothing that I  can dream that you don't support.  Nothing I do that you don't prepare to be at.  Thank you for making your schedule flexible for me. The honor to wake in your presence daily reminds me of the Yes and Amen of God for my life.

In Awe of You,

Your Wife

Proud

Dear Future Husband:

You know the saying behind every great man is a great woman? I don't believe that. I believe that beside every great man is a woman willing to help him with life's challenges, protect him when he is frustrated, speak life to him when he is feeling useless, and be what he needs when he feels the world is against him. I believe together they become great and their marriage blooms into a beautiful example of love. Now society thinks that this a myth, especially in the black community, but I think we can prove them wrong and make it a fact.

Fist up, fro high,

Your Queen

Holiday Grief

Wow what a year right? I never thought that in my years in the mental health profession that I would be experiencing so much holiday grief. I am always educating my clients on how to deal with their grief in a healthy way and ways to get through their grief without being in a place of isolation, depression, and most importantly silence. Today I have come to share some encouragement as I am able to identify with being a griever and  a person that helps with grief. It's amazing how all the things that you learned about the area of grief is hard to apply when you are in the process of grief. Now before I go into my encouragement let me just educate you on grief. Grief happens everyday in your life. If you lose your keys and they are not where you thought you put them when you are ready for them you go through the stages of grief which are: Denial, Barging, Anger,Depression, Acceptance. This is not a step by step process you can go from denial straight into acceptance skipping the others then back to barging.  But how does losing keys even come close to grief. Well let me explain... Say you were looking for your keys and they are not where you put them, because you are convince that they should be there you are in denial that they could be any where else. After you realize they are not where you put them you go searching in different places analyzing where they could be this is your barging stage. After looking and searching for what seems to be hours you start entering into your anger state.  Once you get over your anger you now start to be in a depression moment thinking you will never find your keys again, then it happens either you stumble upon them or someone finds them for you and when this happen you enter your acceptance stage. Get it?!? Good now let's apply that same concept to the lost of a love one or thing (i.e. job, relationship, self-confidence, etc.) Say you had a love one that was sick and you knew their was no bouncing back. Well it seems to you that they are getting better and show signs of improvement,  then they become sick again and this time worst,  because you have been here before and they have gotten better you become in Denial about them being too sick to come back. After this  the medical staff tells you that they only have a certain time to live you then start to bargain. Now this can be within yourself, family, or  Daddy. After this you go into the anger state because you see that Daddy is not healing the way you think he should and death is the result of their illness. After realizing the death of your love one you then become depressed from their absence. After time in depression you realize that there are things that you can do to preserve their legacy and life and you do those things, which pushes you into acceptance. But a year after their death you find yourself depressed on their death date, and you now feel the steps of grief beginning.  So here is my encouragement to you when you feel the steps of grief coming through:

1. Speak up... Silence will manifest itself physically if you do not deal with it. You find yourself sick with something the doctor can't cure or figure out what's wrong.
2. Laugh... This is easier said than done, but is necessary to your healing process, The Bible says that laughter does the heart good like medicine. So take you a dose
3. Connect with people that know your heart. Their are people in your circle that know that the holidays are hard for you and they are willing and ready to be their for you.
4. Be open. It goes with one, but this goes a little deeper, this means that you have to want the help that is being offered to you. You are not a burden, or even getting on their nerves they know what you need, they are just waiting on you to ask for it.
5. Have a memorial... This can be done with or without family. You can light a candle, decorate a tree or wreath, do a particular act that the person was known for, share pictures of great moments, or you can go celebrate that persons. But whatever you do, do not isolate yourself.
6. Ask for help... this can be the only time you don't have it together and that is fine, but know there are people willing to help you through this tough time, but they don't want to push the help, they just waiting on your cue to move.

I hope these things help and I hope you understand that holiday grief is ok, if you handle it in a healthy way.

Personal Chef

Dear Future Husband:

I will always remember our inside jokes even when I am mad at you! I realize one thing being your wife, we will never always agree on everything, but we can always agree to disagree. I never want to devalue your opinion just because it's different from mine. I want to learn from you and in that I want to grow with you, but most importantly I want to make sure we have fun doing it. So thank you for the laugh this morning even though I am still a little salty that you were right, please know that dinner will be on point when you get home.

Preparing a great meal for you,

Your Personal Chef

Ministry

Dear Future Husband:
Today I say Amen to agree with the yes and promises of God for our lives individually and collectively. For this life is not about us, but the assignments he has for us to do. Now the journey will not easy, but together we will learn Patience, Love, Peace, and most importantly the Joy of waiting on God. Today let's just rest in Daddy's yes and enjoy this journey together.

In love with you and my future with you,

Your Ministry

Superhero

Dear Future Husband :
I'm not just your wife... I'm your partner, teammate, cheerleader, prayer warrior, support system, encourager, lover, friend, and most Importantly Your Number One Fan!
Always remember I got your back and I multi task.

In love with all of you,

Your Personal Superhero

King

Dear Future Husband:
Loving me can be a task especially when my mind is completely made up about something. But your position as my king over throws my queen decision. Submitting to you is easy because you are selfishless in loving me. Thank you for loving me into great martial lessons.
Excited you are my King,

Your Queen

Sick

Dear Future Husband:
Even when I am sick I want to try my best to serve you, not prove a point, or show my strength, but to let you know that not even sickness can devalue the love I have for you... And if I am too sick to serve you know that there are no words in the this lifetime that can express my gratitude of thank you.

In Love With You,

Your Wife

In Love

Dear Future Husband:
Thank you for being a mind reader sometimes. Thank you for knowing when I say baby I got this one yet I am still looking like how is this going to work, you know that really means Baby HELP me, calm me, I need faith to get through this. Thank you that you understand Baby I got this simply means Baby I need you more than ever. That Baby I am about to cry cause this is too much for me to handle. Thank you that in this moments you don't let me fall on my face but you embrace me in your arms and whisper in my ear bae I got this, let me help you and with a deep breath every anxiety that I had is now gone. Thank you for hearing my heart over my words.

In love with you all over,

Your Wife

Gratitude

Dear Future Husband:
I am having a day but when I think about our future together, a day of frustration can't equal up to the lifetime of growth and special moments I will have with you. Thank you for allowing me to have my moment but most importantly thank you for being my lifetime.

With a heart of gratitude,
Your Wife

Rib

Dear Future Husband:
I'm made of many pieces, but the most important piece is the one that God created me from.... From you....I'm just your rib waiting to be place properly back into connection with you that our hearts may be on one accord.

Signed,
Your Rib

End of The Year "The Challenge"

So I was facebook and my little sister posted a note to her future husband. It has been three years since I had a husband let a long even thought about the idea of write him a note. As I was reading the note I heard the Holy Spirit say write you one to. Speak to him so that he knows that you are valuable to him and that you can communicate. Don't wait to you have him, prepare for him now and share the notes with others that they may be inspired. Well I shared my notes on facebook but I figure why not blog them. So today I will catch you up on my Dear Future Husband Series that I started and continue to blog through out the rest of the year. After I have caught you up I will then expand my notes with more details. I hope you enjoy and be inspired to start writing your note of appreciation for your spouse if you are married and if you are single I hope that you start writing to your future spouse.

The Title of Faith

Now faith is confidence in what we hope for and assurance about what we do not see.

Hebrews 11:1 | NIV

 

What a verse right!!! I mean it seems so easy to understand and comprehend that it should cause us to act in faith daily right?!? Well let's look at the father of faith, the one who had so many descendants that he could not count them. The same man that had to wait 25 years just to see the promise of GOD to come true.  Let me back that up...25 years to wait on GOD, to manifest what he spoke !!! Let me give you the BCV (book, chapter, verse) on that In Genesis 12:1-4  The promise was given to Abraham in these verses were instructions on how to obtain this promise and what to do in his wait. Genesis 17:17, five chapters later, the promise is manifested and by this time Abraham is 100 years old.  So what do you do when you wait 25 years for a promise but by the time GOD manifest it you seem like you are unqualified for the promise you have been praying for? That's deep.. Let me simplify that for you so you can get the revelation that I got. Abraham prayed to Daddy for a son, he believe and Daddy said to him I heard you and you will get that and more. You got that part? Ok So He waits 25 years for the YES to manifest from Daddy and after the Yes is manifested Abraham says to Daddy  I am no longer qualified for the prayer I prayed or even ready for the promise...

WOW!!! I am sorry if I lose it for a minute, but how many times have you told Daddy you are not ready for the one thing you have been praying for. You have spoke it in faith for the first five years of your prayer life but after years of speaking you give up and when it comes to pass you find yourself feeling unequipped for the blessing or the manifestation. WOW!!! That blows my mind because  we seek to want the blessings and the promises of GOD but we never want to be in the place of waiting.

So what is faith for real? Let's take the scripture that I started the post with and break it down with the revelation that we get from the story of Abraham's wait. So Hebrews 11:1 says: Now faith is. Let's stop there. From these three words we can learn that faith is a very present thing that happen constantly. That means that faith has no expiration date. It means that faith is use today, yesterday, and forever more. Now, to the next part of that scripture... confidence in what we hope for Whew!! I think I am about to blow my own mind. In order to have faith you must have confidence not in the act of faith, but in  pursuit of faith as well as the Yes of GOD.  Let me make that clear for you... It simply means... I must have confidence that when I speak it in the present then my today, yesterday, and tomorrow will always be prepared for  manifestation of it even if I have to wait for it.... Now that's deep. Let's look at the last part of the scripture.... and assurance about what we do not see. Ok so if you are like me you like to see the things of GOD, and not just the words of GOD. .. It's the error of our human nature right?!? Well in order to have true faith you must be assured about what we do not see.. this simply means that we must be in the position where we know what we have faith in is in line with what GOD has already said. So in summary faith is speaking back to Daddy what he has spoke to us with confidence and assurance that His word shall never return to him void no matter how long we have to wait for it.

Prayer: Daddy thank you for the ability to have faith, exercise it, and pursue it with the heart of confidence not in us but in you. We love you Daddy and there is nothing like you. We seek to be your daughters and sons of faith yielding to the promises you have for us and learning the benefits of waiting. In Jesus Name Amen!

I will be

I can't believe how long it has been since I have blogged. I have had a message in my heart (the same one) for the last two months. I hope that the release of this message comes at a time when you, my readers need it the most. For it to still resound in my spirit after two months I know that Daddy is wanting me to release it. Sidebar: Even in disobedience the heartbeat of your assignment and purpose will still rest, rule, and reign in your spirit. It may become even uncomfortable in your physical body if you keep holding it in. With that being said let me release what Daddy has called me to speak.

Matthew 5:14 (NIV) “You are the light of the world. A town built on a hill cannot be hidden. When I first read this I was like ok Daddy what are your trying to say. Here is Daddy's response to my question. 

Daughter I am saying that your light is dim, yet your position on the hill still exist. My children have forgotten the power of what I have purpose, called, and assigned them to be especially in this season and hour. I am not looking for great demonstrations that cause movements within the earth, I am look for quite moments with me that causes my glory to shake the earth, that change must not be an option but an action. When I speak of you being a light it doesn't mean that you have to speak for your light to shine., it means you have to be bold enough to shine. Know that no matter how much the world tries to place you in a box, a limited space that comes with boundaries, and disciples your light should not be hidden. You are my child, you have something in you that this world needs and to be the light on the hill you have to take a stand on my word and be bold enough to speak what I speak without the thought of judgment. WHO is MAN? Who is he that his law out rule the ones that I have give you? Who is he that your light for this world shines brighter than the one for my way, my word, and my will? He is only a creation that I formed for my glory. He lost his way in his will and  I as the father stand with open arms waiting on him to come back to his origin. I have positioned you to be beyond what this world is ready for. You can't think like this world, you can't be in this world, you can't move like the world moves. I have called you to be always on top, always ahead, always in a position of authority. How dare you allow what the world continues to show you and place before you dictate how your light should shine. How dare you alter what I created to fit something that is enemy made! How dare you call yourself something that I never called you just to fit in?!? HOW DARE YOU?!? Listen my daughter this is not the season to be setup, but to be set a part. You are not who THEY say you are! You will NEVER fit the agenda of this world. PLEASE stop allowing the light in you be place in a position to be hidden, because it will never cannot be hidden. I YOUR FATHER, YOUR DADDY can only control how bright your light should shine, because it will never be dim. I love you and I need you to be the light that you are called to be with your brothers and sisters. Seek not the light of this world Daughter, but the light of my love. I love you and remember I have called you to be BRIGHT!
~Daddy

A Daughter's Heart for Her Sister

Daddy my heart continues to be heavy as I see the news stories, the tweets, the facebook messages, the engine searches, and the constant coverage of the death of my soRHOr my sister... Sandra Bland. Daddy I look at the video and the hate for the officer continues to rise, the disappointment of being a woman rings in my mind, the frustration of being black and educated continues to overcome my heart; I think to myself  how can I forgive someone that took the life my sister, who took a simple moment of frustration as a moment for him to flex his authority. How can I allow this moment of history making, epic news be a moment for your glory without feeling some type of way that's not negative. Daddy my sister is dead. A woman full of purpose, life, and voice. Your Daughter is gone at the hands of a man or even  men who saw her as a problem, when you saw her as a solution. But what hurts the most Daddy I would have done the same thing. I would have cooperated but I would have told the officer that I know my rights and authority as well. I know the routine, I know what authority he carries, but I have some authority as well. Daddy my heart screams for you, for this is not a burden this is a cry of pain, hurt, frustrating, angry, and lost not just for myself, but my sisters nationwide. How dare they devalue us Daddy! Did you not call us precious rubies? Did you not call us priceless? Did you not call us your heart? Do we not have your last name? Daddy I can't wrap my mind around the thought of this act, the evidence of my sister's death, the disappointment of a system that speak of equal justice, but shows only favor towards certain people. Daddy this event has turn my world and others upside down. How do we get pass this moment? How we progress towards better? What do we do? Where do we go? Who do we run to?
Daughter please calm down I have heard your heart and the heart of your sisters and my people when it comes to this situation. Know this.... your sister didn't die in vain... My purpose will always remain and my glory will out shine the evilness of this world. Daughter my heart hurts for you and your sisters. I know what she meant to many of you. I know her impact in the earth. I knew that this would not be an easy thing to handle or even accept for any of you. I know that her family seeks justice, I know the heart of the officer and his co-workers. Daughter I know what happen to your sister and all I need you to do is trust me. Trust my justice it's greater than the thoughts of what you think your justice could bring. Trust my heart, that I will be the one that heals you, your sisters, and her family. Trust my revenge, because it's big and greater than any plan of revenge you could come up with. Trust my love, because even in chaos and unanswered questions, my love will bring clarity. Trust my peace, because it will surpass all your understanding. Trust my war plan, all I ask is that you put your war clothes on and show up for the battle, I will take care of the rest. Trust my ways, for  my ways are not like you ways. How I handle things will bring forth a better outcome and create a movement that man can't silence.Trust my timing, in my timing I produce perfection, though it may seem that my timing is off, remember this... I am an on time GOD! This is what I need you to do Daughter... as my daughter worship. For what you fighting is not a man but the assignments, ambushes, and attacks of the enemy. He is seeking to kill and destroy what I have created and unfortunately daughter it's starting in your family. Daughter don't allow what they report to dictate how you should respond. I am giving you clear instructions on how to respond and that's by standing still, worship, love, prayer, remain in my faith and faithful, and trust. When you do this and hold fast to what I promise you will see the manifestation  of me and the shifting from defeat to victory. Daughter stay encourage know that Daddy has this under control. I know that this may be painful, but all my processes come with pain and sacrifice, but know that it's all worth it. I love you Daughter and know that I am always here waiting for you. I AM... I AM and that's all you need to remember.

~Love you Daughter of Mine

Daddy

Daddy's Song

He will take great delight in you in his love he will no longer rebuke you but will rejoice over you with singing.” (Zephaniah3:17b)

For the last couple of days I really have been hearing this verse echo in my spirit and heart as I deal with the thoughts, ideas, and frustrations of life and the changes that comes with it. If you know anything about this verse you know that before Daddy got to a point to create a song for his chosen people he was in a place of anger. He was at a point where he was about to remove himself from their presence until they got it together by following the instructions of the prophet. Isn't it like Daddy to give you another change even when he has probably made up in his thoughts towards you; that he will allow you to have the free will that you desire? Daddy's song is one that will not only give you the peace you need in the mist of hardship and difficulty, it's the same song that will heal you and the land that you live in. It's the same song that will rebuke the enemy and call forth the blood of Jesus. Daddy's Song will restore you back to your right purpose, it will cause you to desire to draw near to him. Daddy's song will help you make dreams into visions  and visions into reality. It will cause you to do what you feel you can't do. So sit still and get in your quiet place, Daddy is about to sing his song and when he is finish you will be asking for an encore. Don't take his song for granted because it produces the things you need as well as what you want. It can speed up time or slow it down. It can cause what man said was impossible into a possible turn around. Don't turn a deaf hear to the song of Daddy for in it are the instructions to your next step towards the manifestation of our destiny.

Prayer: Daddy thank you that you take the time out to sing your song over us. You speak life in your song, you breath your spirit in your song, instructions come with your song, the lifting of burdens come with the lyrics that you sing. Daddy help us to hear your song, accepting every note that you sing as a confirmation to the promises that you have spoke in you word. Daddy open our hearts that your song shall rest in us and not just in our ears. Daddy let us hum the melody of your song during the days of despair, disappointment, and distress.Daddy allow the melody of your song manifest what we couldn't see with our eyes but trust in faith for you to manifest. Daddy sing over us daily the song of your heart towards us personally that we may be reminded that we are your children individually and corporately. In Jesus Name AMEN!

I Got The Help

I lift up my eyes to the mountains—where does my help come from? My help comes from the Lord,

the Maker of heaven and earth (Ps121: 1-2NIV)

It amazes me that there are so many times in my life where I am like I need help. Whether it's getting my life together, making life changing decisions, or just dealing with other people I always scream HELP!! And if you are like me, Daddy is the last person you go to when you need help. You may call a friend, sibling, parent, mentor, co-worker... Anybody but Daddy and why is this? The Psalmist ask the question where does my help come from then he answers:"It comes  from the LORD the maker of the heaven and earth." Well that makes sense... Why are we asking for help from people who didn't even create the situation or solution to what we need help with. Why are we on goggle or bing look for the answer or solution to the situation, when we can easily access the Father? Here is my answer to that question, because Daddy will give us an answer we don't want to hear. When we ask for help many times we are in desperate need to get an answer or a resolution to the situation. We don't want to deal with a process or a waiting period, waiting may be the thing we need help with so why give me the lesson on waiting? But that's Daddy, he want's us to learn the process of his help and this may mean waiting, or going through various steps. It may mean do something out of our comfort zone or even something we know nothing about. It may simple mean trusting him knowing that wherever he leads or tells us to do will get us to a place of being rescued. We must realize that when we seek help from anything or any one other than Daddy we are setting ourselves up for failure, because we are depending on something or someone that can't create help. The are giving us help based on experience or due to the experience of other sources that have dealt with similar or same situations, but is is not accurate help.  Daddy supplies help that he may have to create or help that may not be visible to the the nature eye.

Prayer:  Daddy right now we need your help! We know that many times when we ask for help we seek the help of others or things, but today Daddy we seek your help. We lift our heads and eyes to heaven looking up to you, seeking your presence and ready to receive your wisdom. We surrender our cry for help to you. Daddy help us to wait, help us through the steps, help us through the process, give us the confidence to hold our heads up when we are feeling down. Help us to trust you more, increase our faith, open our hearts to receive your instructions, and help us to lean and depend on you and you alone.  Help us to hear your voice, help us to recognize your presence in difficult and chaotic times. Daddy today we scream HELP US DADDY!!! In Jesus Name. AMEN

Courtship

Yesterday I had the honor of sitting and talking with my friend Ms. Chloe M. Gooden  author and created of the Know Your Worth Rubie Movement and ministry. In our conversation we talk about any and everything but the thing we talk about the most was courtship. If you are single, married, engaged, or looking this blog is for you. I am not going to get deep at all but I wanted to share my heart, because as a woman that has went through all the cycle of a relationship (singleness, marriage, divorce, singleness again)  I realized that the next one I get involved in I want the honor and privilege for it be a courtship. You will know what courtship is when you read the book Song of Solomon. How the bride and groom had their arguments, ups and downs, but through it all they had the support, accountability, and love of family and friends to keep them straight until their wedding night. They had friends that protected their investment in each other, covering them in prayer through the process of courtship, loving them, encouraging them, and making sure they remain in their purpose and will of GOD.  This is courtship to me. The ability to be with one person that purse the father to get to me. The one who says I want to surround myself with people who see my heart of wanting a mate and giving me wisdom on how to pursue, keep, and maintain a healthy, GODly relationship with my mate. I love Proverbs 18:22 " A man that finds a wife, finds a good thing and obtains favor from GOD." That to me is the ultimate instruction for a man in the way that he should pursue his wife until he dies. Keep finding her I don't care if you been married 50 years there is something about her that has developed due to her marriage to you. If you are dating you truly have not arrived yet. There are things about her that you haven't tapped into that cause her to tick, grow, and even become motivated. If you are engaged that doesn't mean that your journey to finding her is over, it simple means that the journey has begun. Don't settle in what you know keep pursing her as though you met for the very first time again. Today I urge you to look  at how your enter, pursue, obtain, maintain, and even purpose relationships. Are you in a place were you dating a person or persons so that you can figure out what you want? Or are you in a place where you are dating, married, or engaged to one person and content where you all are in your relationship with each other that you don't care to get to know each other any more? Wherever you are can I tell you one thing... Courtship is the key to your happiness in GOD when it comes to your relationship on the level of loving with and on purpose. That he wants you to be active in courtship the art of his love in your relationship with detail instructions from his word.

Prayer: Daddy we thank you that even though the world has it's way in how we should pursue relationships and marriage, you have giving us great instructions in your word on what we your daughters and sons should do. Thank you Daddy that we shall be the favor that we should be and the helpmates that we are called to be to our husbands, and they should be the covering that they are called to be along with the priest you purpose them to be. Daddy I lift up every married couple. I plead the blood of Jesus over their marriage, remind them of your word that love is patience, love is kind, it never boost; that what you have joined together no man can tear apart and that means them as well. Daddy remind them that you are a great counselor in all situations and no matter what the issue you can handle it. Daddy remind the husband to find his wife in you for she is the key to his favor in you and remind the wives that their value can't be determine by prize possessions only the blessings that her husband and you speak over her along with her children. Daddy I pray for those engaged to be married. I thank you that they have accepted the call to the process of marriage, cultivate their hearts to receive the work that comes with the title of husband and wife. Help them to deal with arguments in the manner of peace and wisdom, not flesh, feelings, and unwise emotions. Help them to pray for each other daily collectively and individually. Help them to maintain their relationship with you and not getting caught in the details of the a day. Daddy most importantly keep them in a position were they love each other unconditionally.  Daddy I lift up the singles.. OOOOOOOO DADDY being single in a world where sex, sin, and fornication is the normal and expected in our single state is hard. Daddy keep our minds focused on you and your word. Help us to stand on the promise that we are called to your purpose and you have someone that is perfectly made for us. Help us remain patient in our wait and still in our season, waiting on your instructions. In JESUS name! AMEN

Have I settled in My More?

As I was reading my friend's Latoya Tolbert's blog on wordpress (got check it out: latoyatolbert.wordpress.com)  I got a revelation... I really do want more. As I reflect on all the events that happen in the US I am convince and convicted of three things. As Christian we have become wavier in our faith as a representative of Christ. We have lost the aspect of GOD's love towards the people of this world. As I hear the nation glorify the actions that are clearly against GOD's will my heart weeps. I want to be in a place not of judgement, but of love. I want my reaction towards their actions to be of love and I want this desperately for the kingdom as well. I want to see the miracles of GOD manifest right before my eyes, and not be shaken by the things that I can't control or even the weapons formed against me. I want the more. I want more of his presence, I want more of his love, more of his power, I want more of his word, wisdom, and understanding of my position as daughter. I want more. And can I declare there is more. There is more to GOD and today with a heart of vulnerability, I am convince I can't settle I can't compromise, and I can't allow anything to stop me from getting to the MORE. I want to encourage someone that feels like they don't know how to get to more, or even those that feel that they are at more, but feel like the more they obtain has left or they don't know how they achieve it... There is more and there is no need to settle without pursing the more. As I have grown in my intimate relationship with GOD I  realize that the more I experienced at 16 is not the more I am experiencing at 30 something. I realize that 16 I was getting to know my identity in GOD at 30 I know my identity I am just trying to tap into the power, privilege, purpose, and potential of my identity. So today know there is more and don't settle for the more you have keep asking for more and more and more.

Prayer: Daddy thank you that in you there is always more. More love, more power, more purpose, more protection, more provision, more wisdom, more of what we need and all that we need. Today we give you a more praise. Not for what you can and have done for us, but a more praise to tell you thank for the more. Thank you for the more we didn't even ask for, for the more grace, the more mercy, thank you for the more of your presence, your face, your time with us. Thank you for the more of our healing, the more of your restoring, the more of your rebuilding, the more of your reviving. Daddy today we give you more. More of us, more of our life, more of our time, more of our heart, more of our love, more of worship, and more of our praise. We thank you that today we declare we will never settle for any more levels of what we think more is to us. We will pursue more of you until you come back for us or we leave this earth. In JESUS name! AMEN!

Give Thanks

¹⁶ Always be joyful. ¹⁷ Never stop praying. ¹⁸ Be thankful in all circumstances, for this is God’s will for you who belong to Christ Jesus  (1Thess 5:16-18). It's amazing how we go through everyday life wanting nothing but happiness in a world that glamorized death, destruction, and disappointment. But Daddy tells us in his word that no matter what issues the world presents that we should always be happy, never leaving our prayer post, and most importantly being thankful no matter what the circumstances. Now the last part of this scripture is hard for me. Because there are times in my life where I am looking for the strength to say thank you beyond the gratitude of life and breathe. I know what you are saying... "That is good in itself, and it is, but Daddy's word says be THANKFUL in ALL CIRCUMSTANCES.... Whew!!! That's deep that means even if you are in the hospital with tubes all in your body to the point you can't talk or breathe on your own without the assistance of machines, but you are aware of your surrounds, be thankful. Even if you are in the mist of a divorce and your house is tore up from the floor up and you feel like you are about to loose your mind.. Be THANKFUL! If you just lost a love one, or your heart has been broken, or you just in a place that don't know you are of value any more.... Guess what Be Thankful! Now Daddy is so awesome that he will take our thanksgiving and turns it into his glory, which will produce his promises, and manifest our blessings. Just one of his many formulas for us to live by. So here's  how the formula of Thanksgiving goes: Joy+ Never Stop praying+Thanksgiving in ALL things  and circumstances =GOD's glory which translates to your peace, your blessings, your answers, your healing, your forgiveness, and so forth. Seems pretty simple to me ! It's hard to give thanks when your flesh is the loudest voice you hear in the mist of "the circumstance," but when you are reminded of Daddy's track record in your life I am assured that a heart of gratitude can silent your flesh.

Prayer: Daddy this world reflects only on the things that say you are not real or the issues of destructions, depression, and disappointment, but as your children we will not meditate on what the world shows but what you have  and are telling us, and that's to have a heart of thanksgiving. Today daddy we lay down everything at your feet. We lay down the circumstances that say that giving you thanks will not change anything, we lay down the things that keep us from our joy in you, telling us that it's not worth praying about, and we say Daddy thank you! Thank you for breathe in our body, for the ability to know you as our Daddy and not just our GOD, for you drawing near to us as we draw near to you. Daddy thank you for being beyond what we need into what we couldn't even think of. We thank you in all circumstances, not yielding to our flesh, but the guidance, voice, and heart of you through your Holy Spirit.  We thank you for the formula of thanksgiving that you have given us and we will use it to remind us that telling you thank you will only yield greatness for and in our lives. In JESUS Name! AMEN

The Conqueror

Romans 8:37 (ERV) But in all these troubles we have complete victory through God, who has shown his love for us.

Daddy today I take the time to speak to you because this scripture spoke to me. I know lately I have tried and continue to try to drown myself in your word. To gather understanding to move beyond just reading it into putting it into action and it seems the more I try the less I conquer. The more I look at my  life the more I feel victory-less. The more I try to push forward the weight I feel pulling me back. Daddy what do I do? Where do I go? How do I become MORE Than A Conqueror?
Daughter ask yourself three questions: What holds you hostage? What has you in these chains when I called you free? What have you allowed to take away your GOD-given victory? I don't know Daddy fear, worry, stress, anxiety, disappointment, waiting, people... Daddy I don't know!! Well daughter I do. You have forgotten your authority. You forgot that you don't have to fight the battle just show up and call on me and I, your Daddy will show up and fight for you. I  have overcome the world just for you! I have you in my right hand. I am... I am and with that I have the authority to do whatever I want, whenever I want to do it, however I want to do it.  I have given you power to trample over the enemy and to call things that are not as though they were. Daughter how could you allow anything but me to effect how you live your life and dwell in your victory. Even during life changing moments that seem  to break you down, you are more than a Conqueror to think anything less would not be in my will. Daddy I really don't know what to say.. Say what I called you... More Than A Conqueror and stop worrying about tomorrow or even the events of today when I am the the supplier of all your needs. Ok Daddy I will speak what you called me to be and nothing more. Daughter that's all I asked and know that I love you more than you could ever know. Love you too Daddy.

~Daddy and I

All I Need

2Corinthians 12:9 ⁹ But his answer was: “My grace is all you need, for my power is greatest when you are weak.” I am most happy, then, to be proud of my weaknesses, in order to feel the protection of Christ's power over me. To me this is a powerful scripture. If I could sum it up in my own words I will simply stay "ALL I NEED." In this scripture Paul speaking to the church of Corinth to give them encouragement as he encourages himself. He reminds him, them, and us that Daddy's grace is all need though we may be in our weakness, Daddy's strength becomes stronger in that moment. Isn't it like Daddy to take what we have label weak, insufficient, lack, unequipped, and dysfunctional and turn it to a place of blessings and favor? Daddy allows himself to be our incompleteness so that we my be complete in him. He tells us that  HIS GRACE IS ALL WE NEED! So we are searching for a need when we have everything we need in is grace and to know that his grace is renewed daily with is makes it even better.

Prayer: Daddy right now thank you for being all that we need. Thank you for being our weakness that we may be strong. Thank you for giving us your grace that is renewed daily. Daddy we know that our weaknesses are just opportunities for you to come in and draw near to us, and for this we say thank you. With a heart of gratitude we say thank you for your every moment that we fall short. Though we pursue to be in a place of true completeness we know we can't obtain it in ourselves, that you alone can make us complete. You are the only one that can take or lack and make it an overflow, our unequipped to equipped, our dysfunction to order, and our inabilities and make us able. Today we declare that you are ALL WE NEED. In JESUS Name!

I Will Take

You are my defender and protector; I put my hope in your promise. Psalms 119:114 (GNT)

What argument against you have you been trying to defend? What have you been protecting? So many times we find ourselves doing what GOD is suppose to do. We are defending the wrong things and creating arguments that aren't for us. We are trying to explain, compromise, simplify, and defend what GOD is doing in our lives when others question our actions and motives of obedience to Daddy, because it doesn't make sense to them. But can I give you a little wisdom and/or reminder? Daddy never needs our defense he can do that on his own. He is the creator of all things and he can handle his own weight as well as ours, so there is no need for us to defend ourselves in anything that Daddy has called us to do or be. The question is will you take his defense and protection or are you so mindful of your flesh  that you are willing to tell it yes that you will tell you spirit no? (Sidebar: that was deep to me) Will you say to Daddy, I can't be silent because I need to make sure "they understand!" Who are they? They have no power or place to put you in, that Daddy can't deliver you from. Stop trying to do Daddy's job, and start trying to put your hope on the promise that Daddy will even when we don't know how he will or where he will. 

Prayer: Daddy we realize that we have been arguing out of order. That we should never be in the position to argue on your behalf or even get to a place to argue about who you are to us. Today we  lay every argument of our heart at your feet. We take rest in your defense and protection and we place our hope in your promise. We know that there is nothing that we can do that outweighs the greatness found in, and for that we say THANK YOU. In Jesus Name. AMEN!! 

Praying for the Body of Christ

I am sure you all have become aware of what happen last night in Charleston, SC at a church that was in the mist of prayer. Today with a heavy heart I seek to pray not just for this church and those affected by this event,  but the body of Christ. No longer can we sent in the corner observing the news, praying our simple prayers, we must take heed to the posture we should have as Children of GOD. So many times we see evidence of the return of Christ and this one is clearly one. When a person has the boldness to come in and sit for an hour in the mist of the word and prayer and not get convicted by their thought action or no one discern the enemy in the house of GOD we have to do something and quickly. It's time to get back on our post of prayer and cover the body of Christ and this nation in the blood of Jesus. We have to pray for wisdom and we have to get.  #emauelame #prayer

Prayer: Daddy we know that there is nothing that happen on this earth that you are not aware of and because of that we know that you are aware of the heavy hearts of those affected by this horrible event. Daddy allow those affected to find peace and comfort in you. Let help their hearts not to harden towards a race or person, but become soft to the need of your love and sharing your love. Daddy let our nation see this as a call to draw closer to you, and the body of Christ to surrender to the ear of your instructions on what to do. Daddy help us to go into prayer with hearts of intercession realizing that we need more than just answers, we need equipment to fight the enemy with wisdom and not just emotions. Daddy help the body to know it's time to unite and not fight. It's time that we stand up in your standards instead of blending in with the world. Daddy you said in your word: if your people who are called by your name shall humble themselves, repent, and turn from their evil ways you will hear them and heal their land. Daddy we aren't just asking you to hear us or heal us, we ask that you pour out your presence that we may bask in your glory and gain wisdom and insight on what posture we should have. Daddy we lift up every leader, minister, pastor, and family in the body of Christ. We lift up our nation's leaders as they decide on what to do so this will not happen again or help in the aiding on how to prevent this from happening again. Give them wisdom on the direction they should take from the investigation to the conviction of the crime. Daddy we bind up the spirit of hate and fear, In the name of Jesus. Daddy we ask for the release of your boldness, the power of your love, the peace that surpasses our understanding, the comfort that settles all arguments and thoughts of the enemy, and the assurance of knowing that you will provide victory. Daddy remind the body of Christ that we do not war against flesh and blood, but principalities of wickedness, evil spirits, and the plans and schemes of the enemy. Daddy equip us with instructions on what position we should have as we deal with this and may more attacks on the body of Christ. Daddy we are well aware this has nothing to do with race, but with your name. This has nothing to do with a person, but a spirit and plan of the enemy. Daddy we know that no matter what your glory will prevail. Daddy we thank you for your wisdom, we thank you for the blood of Jesus, but mostly we thank you that your word will not return to us void. In JESUS Name. AMEN

I Want to Change

Roman 12:2 (ERV) Don’t change yourselves to be like the people of this world, but let God change you inside with a new way of thinking. Then you will be able to understand and accept what God wants for you. You will be able to know what is good and pleasing to him and what is perfect. 
I don't know about you, but when change is in my vocabulary I always seek to change based on the world standards than Daddy's standards. I know... I know as a Daughter of Daddy shouldn't I seek his standards first. Of course! When I change or measure my change based on the world standards they never last long. I mean think about about many New Resolutions  you made   or even think about the habits you wanted to change based upon world measurements...How long did they last? Yeah mines didn't last that long either, or they have last but with little slip ups here and there. But when I realize that the change I wanted  to make could not be successful based on the measurements  of the world that's when I got the revelation that change must come from Daddy. Daddy has to be our measurement of how we change and he even gives us a formula on how to change to his standards and not the worlds. The formula is "LET GOD." That seems simple I am sure, but is it truly? Let's examine the words "LET GOD" this simply means that we take our will and surrender it to GOD. Our bodies become willing vessels to the actions, thoughts, and obedience to Daddy's word. We transform from a selfish mindset to a selfless one. We surrender what is even in our control to the submission of GOD's control daily. So is it simple?!? YES! Is it easy?!? NO. Because Paul reminds that daily we will have a battle of flesh vs. spirit. Paul says"  that the things we shouldn't do we find ourselves doing, but the things that we should do we have a hard time doing. Then he says we have to die daily from our flesh and pick up the mantel of the spirit of GOD. The more I think about change based on the WORD alone it seems impossible. But nothing is impossible in Daddy and that's why he tells us in Romans to LET HIM. If we try to change based on our own ability we would be messed up. But because our Daddy is great and he is the creator of all things, he can cause change to happen in a matter of seconds. 

Prayer:  Daddy today we come to you yielding ourselves to your change. We know that change with our ability will cause destruction in our lives, but change in You causes success and victory. Daddy we surrender all. We surrender our life, that we may live for you and be use for  your glory. We surrender our hearts that we can love like you even when we are hurt by those that seem not to want or know how to love us back or know the right way to love us. We surrender our mouth, that our lips can only speak the life giving words of your word, only bring love, peace, joy, and encouragement to others. Daddy change us that we may be the city on the hill that  shining so others may see, know, and experience your glory. In Jesus Name. AMEN!!