The heart of a daughter

Daddy..flood me with your love...because I am over flooded with thoughts of doubt...disappointment...despair...depression...destruction...disagreement with your timing... Daddy over power me with your grace...because the words of this world and those I call family...friend...foe...are over taking my heart to the point that I am believing them...I am conforming to them....acting in them...making them part of my character... instead of agreeing to your world.... Daddy cover me in the blood of your son JESUS...because the enemy thinks I am not protected by you... he keeps throwing his dark arrows of destruction in my life...seem like just when I grow in my faith with you..I got my head above the waters...when I trust my anchor that is in and ready to walk on water in the mist of the storm...with my eyes on you...my mind focused on your word....here comes the enemy...telling me it's not worth it....he tells me to look back...not forward...every shoulda, coulda, woulda comes to the fore front of my mind....I start to focus on what I could have...should have...would have done to make the situation better...how I could have avoided the judgement...the heartache...the whispers of how I am...this...that... and other...How I am not of valued...how I brought this on myself... how it's my fault...I how I ruin this....that...and the other with my decisions....how I can't...would...will not...be loved again by them or anyone else....Daddy the guilt of my past continues to haunt me every now and then and when it comes.. it comes like a stormy night with lightening and thunder...like a tornado...like a hurricane...destroying the beauty of my love for you....and I find myself looking in the mirror...not wanting to be here...not feeling your love...your presence...your grace or mercy...yearning for your joy...searching for your peace....awaiting to hear your voice...Daddy do you understand my heart and the hurt that comes with it...Daddy can you see what's effecting me and how to get me out???? Daddy... (on my knees, with tears in my eyes) Daddy...love me back to you...over flood me...I need you...Daughter...Look up at me...my presence will never fail you....even when you don't feel me...hear me...or lose sight of me... I AM HERE....This world presents temporary things in a permanent vision...but know that the only think permanent is what I promise you...as for your past...I have no recollection of it...The only thing I can call back to is your need for me...I give you new grace and mercy so that your past can be erased...I know you need the love, care, and relationship with those you give the title family, friend, and even foe...because I built you for relationship...but don't get caught up in them...just like your life they have a purpose that is ever changing and though they hold value to you and have the power to destroy you if want....that power can only manifest if you allow it...The enemy can use people to get to you..get you off focus..and keep you away from your destiny...but know this...I have giving you victory over them.... and him...Every assignment, attach, and ambush he meant for your good is the turn around path and opportunity for my grace, love, joy, miracle, and peace. Don't get caught up in what he is doing get caught up in my love...presence...grace...mercy...peace...and joy...I LOVE YOU and that's all that matters...nothing in this world has value....but our relationship...Stay focus... my plan has purpose, your life has value to me, your heart can be restored, renewed, and you can love again and do it through me...Daddy not only loves you...he hears you and understand...I AM WORKING!