The Mindset of A Doubter

"For I know that my mind is powerful enough to manifest my thoughts into reality, but I feel like I can't think positive when all I see with my eyes it the negativity of this world and the difficulties of this thing I call life." 

---Shawndrika  L. Cook (Recovering Doubter)

What is man that You are mindful of him,
And the son of man that You visit him?--- Psalm 8:4(NKJV)

The mindset of a doubter is powerful and it can cause you to delay your GOD given life destiny. I mean it is you setting you up. Lately I have  possessed the mindset of a doubter. I knew Daddy was a Daddy that could cause an encore that would blow my mind, but in my mind I doubt that I was even worth enough for that encore. Have you ever been there? Have you ever been a place where you knew what Daddy could do, saw him do it for you and others, but when the situation came up again at a different level, your doubt went to a different level? Well that is me all the way. I was in pursuit of a new car...My car had done her job and more. It seem the more I drive her in her condition the worst she got. It started with a crack and it ended with a full blow need for a new car. Now I wanted a new car, but I was going to wait until things got right financially. I started my search and I quickly became discouraged. I rested a week and in that week I became overwhelm with stress, frustration, anger, but most importantly doubt. I was in a place where I prayed and worried... But last week after service I told myself to stop praying and worrying. So last Sunday I took my doubter mindset off and I place the mindset of determination and faith. I went into my prayer closet and I simply told Daddy this: "Daddy know what I stand in need of, and today I specifically state out loud what I stand of need of. I am trusting your word, will, and personal promises to me today; therefore I declare today that by March 20th I will have what I need and more. In Jesus name! AMEN!" So after that declaration and prayer I got up and put my faith to work. I contacted the salesman at the dealership that I was working with and I told him that he had a deadline of March 20th to find a car that met my needs. I had a plan to rent a car for the week while I car shop, because I knew my Daddy was about to show up and out. I went into worship, and since I was already fasting because of Lent, my discernment was high and my spiritual ears were open. (Side bar: Don't ask Daddy what to do when you not in a place to receive what he has to say. Prepare yourself for the conversation with him before you go see him) I was a on a mission I had let go of my doubter's mindset and had put on the mindset of a faith believer! So with my sisters and I  looking for a car for me in the price range I was approve for we made a list of dealers we were going to go to. So the day after we made our list we started our journey. I went to the place where I knew I would find my car, didn't find anything. It didn't shake my faith...but I was feeling some kind of way. I went to the next dealership and again nothing...By this time my desperation kicking in cause I have deadline....I went back to a dealership I had been before when I first started my car search journey. I like the saleswoman that help me so I just knew that this was going to be an easy find...Well when I got there my sister and I drove around the lot to see if anything said yes to me...And nothing. I parked the car and asked for the saleswoman that help me before. She came and we walked around. Nothing.... An older gentleman came up to me and said, "Young lady are you looking to buy a car"...I state, yes sir... "He said don't allow them to give you anything because you need a car. Don't except what they give you at first, get what you want and can afford. Don't settle." After he said that he that I left, because we couldn't find anything, and this time (unlike the last) when I told the saleswoman that I didn't see anything she said ok and was like good luck. I told her thank you... By this time... I can admit I am doubtful, the car that I wanted I couldn't get because the dealership would spend more money on getting it to Alabama than I would pay for it....My sister is getting frustrated and we feed off each other so that means I'm getting frustrated too.... on top of all this we are super hungry. So it's ugly. So as we are leaving the last dealership I feel myself about to settle. I was going to go back and buy a brand new car and just call it a day cause I need a car a.s.a.p. But my sister told to to go into another dealership before we return to the one I was going to buy the new car from. When I turned in I was like ok Daddy you know what I want and need. We looked and looked, my sister was like the pre-owned cars are on this row...So I went and looked for what I wanted. The salesman came and met us. He ask did we need help. I gave him the story that I gave at the last three car dealerships. He was like ok... what do you want and we will get it where you need it. I walk over to the car I like told him I wanted to see. He was like you pick the perfect car. We can get this for you today.... Long story short I walked out the dealership with ownership of the car the same day; not just that I got financed for more, payments flexible with my budget, everything I wanted in a car, and peace... I told you this long story to tell you Daddy can even when doubt is the mindset that you have. The day you spoke it in faith about your situations is the day Daddy went to work on your behalf. Stop ask why.....Why is a doubter's mindset, but the day you ask What... You turn doubt into faith, and you start to operate in the anointing of GOD.

Prayer:  Daddy our doubter's mindset is so easy to settle into. It causes stress, frustration, disappointment, and even depression, yet it makes sense to us. Daddy remind us in the mist of having a doubter's mindset that you never make sense. Nothing about you lines up with our thinking. That the day we stop saying why and start saying what we can see that you were already working things out. Daddy forgive us for allowing doubt to be the mindset we take first, before we activate our faith. Forgive us for settling comfortably in a position that allows the enemy to come in and do what he does best, try to destroy us. Daddy we win in you...we have peace in you...we have victory in you..we have joy in you...but most importantly...we have You. Thank you Daddy for always working things out for our good. In Jesus Name....AMEN

Count It In All Joy

"I will not allow things that I can't control, control me any longer."

--Inspirited by Pastor Chris Hodges, Church of the Highlands

This weekend has been a trying one and it ended on a sad note for me. I lost someone that I love and respected and then I was place in a position that I couldn't control. But life goes on....

Yesterday I went to church not with an expectation, but with the heart of just wanting to be in the presence of Daddy. Well I got that and then some. I am in a place in my life where I need more of something. I couldn't put my finger on it, but I knew it had to be something life changing and supernatural. As I participated in praise and worship a song was played... 

When peace like a river attendeth my way

When sorrows like sea billows roll

What ever my lot you have taught me to say

It is well, it is well with my soul

As I meditated on the lyrics to the song something resounded in my spirit. It Is well my Daddy has secured me in his word, action, and promises that all is well with my soul. Not just in my circumstances and situations, but all is well with me.... Internal and External. Can you say all is well with your soul? Can you let go of happiness to receive Daddy's joy... Hum.. that just did something to my spirit. Can I let go of yearning for the happiness that the world offers as a right now pleasure to receive the time waiting, patience enduring, trusting and believing, loving  and resting in peace JOY that Daddy offers to me daily? Can I say no to the temporary fix to accept the process of the permanent fix? I won't share my answer, but know that because of theses questions I Count It In All Joy... I Count It In All JOY that I don't have to stress in the mist of things that I can control. I count it in all joy that my Daddy will show up and out even when I don't see a way or the plan of how he show himself strong and his supernatural will over take the natural world.  So today I encourage you to Count It In ALL JOY! That this situations... this circumstance is so temporary.....so name it that....treat it like it is....give it no value....let it go....Trust DADDY more....COUNT IT IN ALL JOY!!! Don't allow the things of this world or the thoughts of your mind to get you off focus. Stop asking Daddy WHY and start asking WHAT when it comes to the circumstances and situations in your life. Daddy what do you want me to learn... Daddy what do I need to do? Daddy what is the purpose? What position should I take? When you start asking WHAT you will realize the loudness of his response and the evidence of his peace. What gets you to a place of preparation... Why gets you to a place of doubt and worry. With What you demand an answer... with Why you second guess the answer that you receive. 

Prayer: Daddy so many times we find ourselves counting the cost of our issues, situations, and circumstances that we never see the value of your JOY! We seek happiness over you JOY so we chase and pursue the things that help us to accomplish  happiness and not your joy. So Daddy on today we pursue your Joy... He lay at your feet the things that distract us and the things that cause us to lose focus of your grace, and forfeit your peace. Daddy forgive us for allowing happiness to outweigh the value of your supernatural JOY! In Jesus Name!

AMEN

The Connection

"Connect to your purpose, not your type."

Pastor Van Moody, Worship Center Church, Birmingham, AL

What are you connected to? How is that connection productive? Well these are two questions I found myself asking myself after an awesome Ash Wednesday Bible Study this week... What a way to start Lent right? With these questions in mind I start to examine who I was truly connected to. Are the people in my life my purpose or are they my type. What is my type? Can I tell you I really had to talk to Daddy about this and really had to meditate on the word connection. 

Daddy I am lost and confused. I have been challenged with something that I thought I had a clear view of .... Connection...Daddy what does purpose look like...have I lost focus on what type means....UGH!!! Daddy here I am in another season where I feel I am second guessing my purpose, position, and people in my life. I hate moments like this... I really do...Daddy I don't know how many more people I can say good-bye to without feeling alone physically and without feeling like I have let them and myself down. Daddy I have unhealthy connections that I use to make me feel comfort. They are in no way shape or fashion beneficial for the purpose you call me to...(On My knees) But Daddy I have invested in them. I have laughed with them, made memories with them, and Daddy they have become apart of my heart.. Unhealthy and all. What am I suppose to do about the emptiness I will feel when I say good-bye to my type and say hello to my purpose. Daughter, you have solved your own problem you have created your own solution. I know that you are a human being (in flesh), but you are my daughter and heart in spirit and there is nothing more valuable than your purpose in me. I know it hurts to know that the reality of some relationships in your life have no value, they are there for your comfort. That they serve only one purpose and that's to please your flesh... Well Daughter it's time to grow up. It's time to move from the season of your type to the season of your purpose. No longer will you live in the shadows of unhealthy, unproductive, and unrelated relationships Your purpose is greater than anything life can even give you or bring to your life. Daughter let go and let me....Let me take what had no purpose and connect you with purpose. Let me take your type and taste, and create a connection of desire for my word. Let me take what you felt was not worth the time and create a time worth pursing. You are beyond a type Daughter... you are beyond needing people who are just there and never being available to you when you need them...Daughter you are beyond being an option....You are are priority Daughter.....My PRIORITY!!! Connect to me and I will connect you with your purpose....Let go of your type and I will connect you with people design to help you achieve the goals of your purpose... I will replace what you lost, what you say good-bye to, what you let go of......with things that cause you to grow, be healthy, heal you, teach you the lessons of my grace, cause you to trust me at my word. I will increase your faith, I will be the one that shows you the plan. Stop sitting in the middle of the battlefield praying that I would protect you , when I called you to the purpose of being a fighter, a warrior, a intercessor. Stop placing yourself in harms way when I am constantly directing you to a path of safety through my Holy Spirit. So daughter today you  need take hold to the plow and stop looking back, to the left or right of you. Look straight and you will see me. Look up and I will shower you with the blessings of my glory. Stop operating in your strength, will, and even the emotions of your heart. I have you and have you connected to me first and I will bring the right people into your life. I know there are people you know and connected to you that have what you have desired in your heart, that you have interceded for, that you are cried out for and it has cause jealousy to set up in your heart....But know that you are connected to the source that can give you what they have and more in my timing. I love you and there is nothing I wouldn't do for you. So stop worrying about what connections you have to let go of and meditate on the connection you have with me...Daughter I only want the best for you and I love you more than you can even imagine ... Just trust me and let go of your self connections and connect to my supernatural connections...They last longer! Daddy I will. I will connect to you daily and know that the process of the connection is worth the surrendering and letting go of me and losing myself in you.

I love you Daughter... I Do!

The Proper Protocol

Good Morning, Good Afternoon, and Good Evening !

 I don't know where you are and when you would read this blog, but I want you to be prepared for the next 40 days as we get ready for a season of reflection. 
Today marks day one of 40 days in the Lent season. I have heard about Lent and participated in various parts of the Lent celebration, but never have I had the heart to be so dedicated to the process as I am this year. As a way to really get the simple and purpose of Lent I did some minor research and what I found brought me to tears and revelation.
Lent:  a time when many Christians prepare for Easter by observing a period of fasting,repentance, moderation and spiritual discipline. The purpose is to set aside time for reflection on Jesus Christ - his suffering and his sacrifice, his life, death, burial and resurrection.

 Are you amazed or pressed as me about being apart of the Lent Season? If not I hope that the definition alone cause you to really think about The proper protocol of Jesus' position in your life and your relationship with Daddy. I saw that definition and I was overwhelm with emotions, reflection, and praise at the same time. I was overwhelm with the emotions of gratitude, grace, mercy, love, failure, and awe. I know you are like how did failure get in with those other positive emotions. Well...failure in the sense that I have not done all that Daddy has called me to, nor have I allowed myself the ability to be placed under his wings of trust and safety. Yeah that's the failure I feel. After bypassing my emotions I reflect on the power of the sacrifice that Jesus made on the cross. To remain silent in the mist of hearing and seeing people mock you, beat you, destroy and demean your character and body, and to hear those close to you deny you several times. The feeling of being alone to the point your father forsakes you. I can go on and on, but to know that in the mist of all of this, the only person he talked to was the person that set him up for the assignment. HUM! The praise of Jesus' resurrection resounds in my spirit as I read the story of how he went to his disciples to show that not only is he the Jesus that walk with them, but he has scares on his body that have healed, which is shows the end to life as they knew it and the beginning to a life of eternity with him. WOW! IF that doesn't send you into a place of "THANK YOU," I don't know what will.

As I participate in Lent I will focus on the "Proper Protocol." What is the Proper Protocol you ask? Well that's a good question it is the protocol of Daddy's timing and not my own. Knowing that the manifestation of things happen when Daddy says they happen not during the proper protocol of my own time.  As I reflect on the "Proper Protocol," I am left with this one revelation: "Nothing happens in my life that Daddy has not setup to get the glory from." Let me simplify that for you... There is nothing in your life that Daddy will not get the glory for. Whatever happens in your life no matter how hurtful it is, it is a setup for Daddy to use your situation for his glory, and an opportunity for you to experience not only his presence, but his blessings, peace, joy, provision, protection, and most of all his love.

Prayer: Daddy, thank you! Thank you for always reminding us that the sacrifices of our yesterday was a setup for the presence of your blessings today. Daddy as we go through each day of the life you have given us with issues, situations, and circumstances, reminds us that they are just part of the preparation process for your glory to be revealed to someone that doesn't know you.  Daddy today we submit ourselves to your Proper Protocol, knowing it's not about us, only about you; and if we forsake our selfishness, and embrace your selfishlessnes, you will order o. In Jesus Name... AMEN

Victory of Denial (Days 20-21)

I am sorry that the last two days of 21 day of prayer post are late. But these 21 days were so incredible!
The revelation of denial was so powerful to me. I know you are saying how can you get victory in denial? Well can I tell you know.... I had my heart set on something and I mean set.. I had a plan, I was preparing for the destination, I had created a supported  system for the goal, and then it happen.. A bump in the road, one that threw my plan out of wrack. I mean totally out of wrack.  I felt so defeated, rejected, and the heaviness of denial grew stronger and stronger. I felt like my world had crash again. Here I am thinking that this was something good and I had planned it to the "T" that it would truly work and it blew up in  my face... Well can I tell you I found Victory in my denial.. Yes, Victory... I knew three things about my plan: One, I had not consulted Daddy about what I was doing to know if my plan was his plan; Two, my motives for my plan was to not deal with the aftermath of my divorce and to get away from the memory of being married; and last Three, I was doing it for self. I was willing for forfeit my GOD purpose for my fleshly want. So can you see the victory in my denial? Well if you can't let me keep going.... Had I carried on with the plan the way I wanted, I would have missed out on my blessings, lost focus of my GOD purpose, delayed my healing, created some mess that I couldn't get me out of. I would have just given the enemy the key to walk on in and do what he wanted, because I was willing to obey my flesh over the voice of the Holy Spirit.

So let me help someone that is reading this and thinking, ok I understand what you saying about your denial , but my denial is nothing like yours... it's worst... The denial I experience was heartbreaking. To the point that bouncing back does seem to exist. Well denial in any form hurts, no matter how big or little it is...But the victory in having it in your life is... the aftermath in know that Daddy has something greater that we couldn't even see. The victory in know that Daddy is saying... your plan for you is not even good enough... I don't know about you, but that just blessed me. No even the things I plan, create, or develop for myself is good enough for Daddy.... Hum... meditate on that...Because that means that your plans for your life can't even amount to the value of the plans that Daddy has for your life... YES!!!!!!!!


Prayer: Daddy sometimes we miss the mark of your presence with our plan. We get caught up on what we want to do without consulting you on what you need or want us to do with the life you have given us. We never think to meditate on your instructions and obey what you have told us... and for that Daddy we repent. We know understand that there is victory in denial. The world see the word denial as something negative. As a set back, a disappointment, and a thought of being worthless. But Daddy denial is your opportunity to set us up for greatness, to create value, to show your glory, for your presence to be made know. For that Daddy we say thank you. For only can take what meant for our bad and turn it for our good. In Jesus name! AMEN

The Confirmation

What a way to wrap up 21days of prayer. My Daddy speaks... confirmation, healing, deliverance, and peace... Speak Daddy!!!!

Try Me (Days 16-19)

Try ME! Those words keep ringing in my ear TRY ME! TRY ME! T-R-Y- M-E!!!

I don't know about you, but when I see those words I always think about the toys in the store that have the sign TRY ME with a small opening on the box for me to press, pull, poke, or punch for me to get a preview of what they toy is capable of doing. I never thought in my wildest dream that TRY ME would be so powerful until DADDY said it. While meditating one day that's all I heard was TRY ME! The conversation with Daddy was amazing.....
Daddy I have tried you and you have proven to be greater than my heart's desires. You move things that I never saw were an issue, you revealed situations that I never thought were problems, you prepared me for greater things that I knew you could only do. Daddy I have tried you. But Daughter you haven't tried me. You have been assured in what I can do because I have done it, but you haven't tried me. Trying me, means trusting me in all things and in all areas of your life. You never have to doubt or wonder if my previews would fail you if you tried me. You don't have to worry about how much you pray to me, or read my word, you just do it when you try me. It become a second nature to you ...like brushing your teeth. Daughter you haven't tried me, because it take all of you to give me your tithes... you have to primp and cheer yourself into reading my word... our conversations our great, but only come when you need me. I am GOD almighty, yes, But I need the interaction of you and I. I would have not sent my son to die on the cross, if I didn't want to be in your life. I want your heart Daughter. Try ME! Try me at my promises, that you can see the manifestation of my blessings. Try me at my heart that you may know real love... the love not moved by your actions, or what you give, but your presence alone and even when you are not there, I will love you back to me. Try ME! Try ME daughter at my grace, that you know that I will forgive you of all your sins if you just asked in my son's name. That his blood alone can give you the garments to enter into my presence. Try ME at my healing. Know that your mind can't beat the power of my healing. Your mind says you sick, but the breathe of my healing says you are whole... from the crown of your head to the sole of your feet. TRY ME daughter... TRY Me...Daddy I will... I will try you at the greatness you hold, the peace you control, the growth that you give, the increase you provide, the intimate atmosphere of us being in conversation, and just you being Daddy to me. Daughter thank you for realizing that trying me will get you to a place of openness, my presence, my peace, my provision, my vision, my healing, my mercy, and most importantly being my daughter.

I love you Daughter,

Daddy

The Realization (Days10-15)

I was on vacation this pass weekend and I came to a realization. One that brought me to tears and brings me to tears now. Daddy is an option. The assignment, purpose, and plan he has for my life are options to me. What a sad thing right. To write a blog called "Daddy Daughter Conversation," and Daddy is an option. But it's not on purpose... truly it's not! It is selfish...yes selfish.... I am the first to admit that my relationship with Daddy is not where it needs to be or where I desire it to be. This was the reason for this blog, but never did I imagine how bad our relationship had gotten. Here I was on vacation having quite moments and never did I even speak to Daddy until I got home.... Wow I know!! The realization of knowing that even in our darkest moments Daddy will be a light. Even in our procrastination he will be perfectly on time. Even when we don't speak he continues to talk. Even when we forget, he always remembers. When we deny he accepts. When we quit he finishes...Do you see what I am talking about. Daddy will be the good in the mist of your bad no matter your actions. What a wonderful Daddy we have.

So with the realization of Daddy being an option I decided that I would respond to it with convicted growth. The growth in knowing that Daddy can't be an option when I don't make myself a priority. So today face your realization of your relationship with Daddy and respond differently. Don't be convicted, be convinced that Daddy has given you another chance to make your relationship with him a true reality and priority and not one to be an option.

Prayer: Daddy we repent from making you an option in our lives. For us getting caught up in handling things on our own and making ourselves a priority. Daddy we have truly created gods in our lives that have taken your place, causing the reality that life without you is not the way. We thank you for giving us a second chance. We label and identify the reality of life's hardship, when you were the answer and calmness, we desire and need. Daddy renew our priorities. Help us to make you number one, remembering that we only need the things of you. In Jesus name. Amen

A Fresh Start (Day 9)

A fresh start! Those three words are so power. A...Fresh... Start! Can you image what a fresh start looks like for you. To go back to the day where Daddy and you met. Where your heart was totally sold out to him and you spent your days in worship and and your heart focused on his word. Or what about the day you felt his presence for the first time. I mean when you had a day where all you could do is cry in gratitude because you knew Daddy was real. WOW to go back to that day would be great! It would will be the Fresh Start that I need in my life. But wait...I get that daily.. Our fresh start, starts with Daddy's grace and mercy. I mean when you open your eyes Daddy blew a fresh breath of his life into you. Whether you are sick,  depressed, sad, upset, discouraged, shifting, or even having moments like me... Daddy looked at you this morning and simply blew life into you with purpose. WOW.. I am in tears at that revelation.... That everyday I devalue the fresh start that Daddy gives me through his grace and mercy. Life has us in a place were we neglect the appreciation of a fresh start. We sometimes find ourselves asking Daddy for what he has already gave us... A fresh start...a redo...a new beginning...newness... I can go on and on....But today we gain the revelation that we get and have those things everyday when we open our eyes. Today I challenge you to take advantage of the fresh start that Daddy has given you, because who is to say you will ever get it again. The words says: "Tomorrow is not promise to any man. Nor does man know the day or the hour in which the son of GOD will appear again." Let's move forward in our fresh start never neglecting it's value as though we deserve it, but Daddy has honored us with it.

Prayer: Daddy we love you and thank you for the fresh start that you give to us daily. We know that we have neglected, devalued, and taken advantage of the freshstart that you have given to us daily. We put off the assignments that you have given us, disobeying your word, procrastinated in our time, and just took for granted the honor of your grace and mercy. Daddy we say forgive us. Grant us a fresh start that we may complete the purpose you created us for. Daddy give us wisdom on what to do with our fresh start, how to make sure you get the glory in it, and what to say to setup the next fresh start you give us. Daddy we now understand the value of a fresh start and no longer discard it as just a day... But with excitement, purpose, worship, praise, and love we take in the breathe of life you give us, with knowledge and antipation  that you will get the glory as we become example of your love towards others. In Jesus Name. AMEN

It Gets Better (Day 7 and Day 8)

Have you ever had something to happen to you and you talk about with other people they and they simply say  "It Gets Better," and that statement alone seems to add more frustration and stress to the situation. Well can I tell you the revelation that I got out of that statement that they don't way. It Gets Better, because Daddy will never allow you to get worst. I don't know about you, but that just brought some people to my spirit. Even when it seems worst, Daddy will never allow it to get to another state of worst even if you think it can. As I reflected on these couple of days of this prayer journey I realized that two things. I have seen the worst of my life, but I have never seen the righteousness of GOD leave me during those worst times. I mean I was about to lose my car, no job, no income, my family in need of money and things in the house going down; but can I tell you that Daddy NEVER Forsake me! Even when I felt like Daddy had abandoned me and wasn't feeling real to me he was truly working things out. There is someone feeling like I once felt. Hearing the same thing I was hearing "It Gets Better, but let me add the B part of that it get's better because Daddy promise you greater; and unlike man Daddy always comes though and they are always yes and amen!

Prayer: Daddy we may never see the better in the worst, but we talk you that you are not like man who will forsake us during our most vulnerable moments. You take care of us even when we don't see it. Daddy we thank you that today we know and acknowledge that "It Gets Better!" In Jesus Name! AMEN

A Rhema Word (Day 5 and 6)

Rhema Word: the utterance of what GOD has spoken and personalized

Isaiah 55:11: so is my word that goes out from my mouth: It will not return to me empty,but will accomplish what I desire and achieve the purpose for which I sent it.

I don't know about you, but I am in a point in my life where I just don't need a word, but I need a Rhema Word. A word tailor made for me and that is truly GOD's personal, intimate message for me, that causes a breakthrough in my life. I need that word that says "Daughter you are on the right path just keep at it." I need the encouragement to keep pressing.

I realize to get to the place of a Rhema Word I need to do somethings first. One, I have to be consistent in my word. If you are any thing like me, you can worship, praise, but it's something about reading the word of GOD that cause you to get confused or a little aggravated; because Hebrew with English makes a hot mess. Well that's how it makes me feel. I have follow and start getting revelation and then that word comes and I can't pronounce it or understand the content of it. Now I got to go to the dictionary, and then the bible study guide to see what's going on, and that one sentence took me three hours to ready. Now I know the words says to study to show yourself strong in the word, but not three hours on one sentence...LOL! However, I have really been praying about the translation understand of the content of what's going on. I mean I can read a chapter or a book of the Bible several times and I am still lost. The second step to gain understanding of the word is ask. Start asking the Holy Spirit for help, it's job to make things of GOD plain and clear; don't deny him his opportunity to give you the revelation you need to move forward in the plan Daddy has for your life. Last, take your time. So many times we want to finish a chapter or the book of the Bible when Daddy may want to speak to you verse by verse. So slow down, take your time when reading...As a matter of read on verse and meditate on it, apply it to your life, and not just that speak it out loud.

Prayer: Daddy we seek you in your word. We thank you that it in order for us to see who you truly are and what you truly can do in our lives all we have to do is speak back to you what you spoke to us. We thank you that for the times that you personalize your word just for our situations and issues. That you not only gave us confirmation, but guidance on how to deal with it and what to do in it. We honor you and thank you for the greatness you are in our lives. In Jesus Name...AMEN!

Slow it Down (Day 4)

As I take on a new journey in my life I realize how fast I want things to move. I was reading in my devotion to day where Daddy simply said:"Slow down. If you you believe that my timing is perfect and you trust my will, then you will not create your own timing." WOW! I create my own timing all the time, not giving Daddy time to do anything, especially since my martial status change. I mean to go from a consistent partner to now being back in this "dating game," has made me feel some kind of way. Can I be real...so as soon as I got the call that my divorce was finalize I went on every online dating site to setup a profile to start dating again. But can I tell you Daddy has a sense of humor. The guys that like my profile were not up to my standards, or even lack something. Now I don't have outrages standards, but I do know what I want... I digress...Because I know you are wondering what does that have to do with your prayer journey...Well everything...here I am trying to find a replacement for the person I just divorce because I don't like being alone, when that's not in Daddy's timing... I need to slow down!!! How many times have you moved in anxiousness because you felt that you were ready? How many times have you said to Daddy I got this cause I know what I want and I learn the lesson on how to identify it? Can I say I have lost count. The devotion today really hit home. Because I have truly been going full speed when it comes to wanting a relationship. I mean I went back to ex's to try to restart something.. That wasn't right because they were ex's for a reason. Then I went from ex's to just being aggressive with men... asking for their number telling me how I felt....Where they do that at??? I live by the scripture that says "A man that findth a woman, findth a good thing, and obtain favor from the Lord." (Proverbs 18:22) Can I tell you that I am trying to be that favor to my husband, my man, my covering... but I can't be that when I am operating in my timing...I have to slow down...Not just with wanting to date again and be in a relationship, but in my ability of wanting to move from one state to another....wanting a better job....My big one is wanting kids....I have truly went to the extreme on that...to the point I had a sperm donor...because I felt that my biological clock is and was ticking...But I need to slow down... Today in my prayer time I realize that my Daddy is a promise keeper...If my divorce was finalized when I wanted it to be, then I couldn't be in a place of true peace at this moment about a new beginning. If I had gotten pregnant when I wanted to get pregnant I would be struggling with how I would pay for the medical expense of having a baby and moving to another state...Do you see where I am going?? Simply put when you slow down you get to experience Daddy's perfect timing... As a matter of fact that's what I want to always experience Daddy's perfect timing with his presence and purpose for me...But to do so I have to slow down...We have to slow down

Prayer: Daddy we are always in a hurry to what life demands of us. Whether it's arriving to a job on time, doing things for our family, spouse, or kids, we are always in a hurry. Daddy today we surrender our time to you... We will be slow to speak, to move, to even think... we will seek you in everything that we do that we can be in your perfect time and that your presence can grant us the wisdom that we need. We know that what we think is slow and long is real fast and on time. We honor you today Daddy and we say thank you in advance for the greatness of your time and the slowing of ours. In Jesus Name, AMEN!

The Journey of 10,000 Tongues (Day 2 and Day 3)

I am always reminded of the saying: "If I had 10,000 tongues I could not praise God enough." Whenever I am in a place of  stress, worry, and frustration. It reminds me that there is not enough in me that could express to Daddy what he means to me. David summed up how our feel in Psalm 119:172 when he said: "May my tongue sing of your word,for all your commands are righteous."

What is your tongue saying? I asked myself that question yesterday and today and can I say what I am saying is not always pleasing to Daddy. During these next 19 days of prayer I am determined to not only make my praise and worship my weapon of warfare, but a habit that I do daily. I want to be like David in the book of Psalms, praising and acknowledging Daddy for his goodness; appreciating the newness of his grace and mercy every time I wake up, and realizing that being surrounded by darkness, negativity, and doubt creates the atmosphere for Daddy's presence and his perfect timing.

Prayer: Daddy if we had 10,000 tongues it would not be enough to praise you for your goodness and mercy towards us. So with our one tongue we will say thank. Thank for always being consistent and true to your word and promises. Daddy forgive us for using our tongue in the wrong manner sometimes. Allow our words to be acceptable in your sight Daddy. Let our praise bring you glory and our hearts be free in your presence Daddy. 
In Jesus name... Amen


Now the other day I said I would tell you how to start your own 21 days of prayer journey. It is truly simple and I can sum it up in 4 steps.

1. Determine when you want to start the journey
1. Make sure you plan it around a time that you can dedicate self to Daddy and not be distracted by other events (i.e. vacation, work events, or children activity that cause you to have little or no time)
2. Set a time you would actually pray. I dedicated 1 hour out my day for prayer...If you new to this prayer thing or actually this is your first time dedicating time to praying I would set at time between 30mins-1hour (Got to give Daddy time to talk back)
3. Go in with an open heart and listening ear
2. Buy a Prayer Journal
1. This can be a simple note book you maker as prayer journal or it can actually be a prayer journal purchased from your local Walmart, Target, or Christian Book Store (it all depends on your budget)
3. Make a list in your prayer journal of things your are praying for, be specific in your list. 
4. Write down in your prayer journal the people in your inner circle . Your inner circle is a reflection of you. They constantly need to be people that you are interceding for because they influence your world
5. Make a list what you are expecting Daddy to do when these 21 days are over. If you go to Daddy with expections then you will be more persistent in your prayer time.
6. Be consistent
1. You may miss your set time, that's ok don't get discourage, just make sure you make time to pray
2. It's ok if you don't do the whole time. Daddy is not concern with time, he is concern with the conversation. He delights in the opportunity to grace you with his presence

The Refreshing of the Refresher (Day 1)

"I have decided to stop doing the things that ultimately lead to  a place of nothing and start doing the things that lead me to GOD... My Daddy!" -Shawndrika (Inspired by a sermon given by Pastor Chris Hodges, Church of the Highland)


For the next 21 days I will be doing something different. I will make it my priority to post 21 blogs one each day as I take a 21 day prayer journey to start my new year. This journey is in collaboration with that of my church, Church of the Highlands. Please check it out, our pastor is doing a sermon series called "I have decided." (www.churchofthehighlands.com) I also encourage you to start your new year with a prayer journey as well...I will give instructions on how to do in tomorrow's blog.

The quote for today was part of the revelation that I received during the series. It was one that lead me to a place where "I Decided...to become refreshed, by the refresher Daddy." In 2013 I face the reality of a few  hard facts. Fact 1. My marriage was over. I realized though I had gotten the revelation of who GOD was, where I went wrong in my actions, thinking, and even loving my husband (at the time) there was nothing I could do to get him to see the same thing. So with that in mind I made the decision to sign the papers for divorce. We had nothing together physically, but spiritual I had to deal with a soul tie that I didn't want to let go or should I say know how to let go due to it being a comfort for me. Fact 2. In march of last year an even took place that ultimately divided my family. It was a reality check for those who had been covering the action up, and a reality check for me of how my family members felt about me. Can I take a side note and say to someone: Not even your family can understand the value of your anointing nor will they congratulate you for the accomplishments you have made in life; no matter how much you do for them. Also know that we have to make decision that sometimes will cause your family members to make heart and hard choice. When they realize they were wrong that the situation is based on their actions too they will not apologize, but place the blame solely on you. But know in the blame you are getting healed and things that have been broken well be amended and healed. "What the devil meant for bad, GOD will turn around for your good, even when you don't see how." Fact 3. My worth is the last thing I had to deal with. Have you felt so beaten down that not even the love of Daddy seems to fill you up or even shake the feeling and action of worthlessness you are feeling inside and out? OO OO OO Can I tell you that was me. It hurt to know that fact 1 and 2 were happening and there was nothing in my power I could do to stop it, correct it, voice my opinion about it to open the eyes of the parties involved, or even prevent it from happening all together. Isn't it like Daddy to show you who is control...Him! So with the facts in my face and constant reminders being around me of the facts... I start losing it.. then I felt that I was losing my mind. I mean I was so depressed that I was on the verge of seeking medication...But can I tell you that there is no timing that Daddy is not perfect in. I had the honor to go to L.I.F.E. Which stands for Living In Freedom Everyday! During life I go the revelation of forgiveness... Forgiveness: The ability to release what someone has done to you or what you have done to someone or yourself without having to reconcile the relationship...  All this time I thought that forgiveness came with the ability to do part A and having to reconcile. That revelation in itself created a refreshing in my spirit. Now let me take a sidebar and say: If  the relationship needs to be reconcile it will happen, but you don't have to force it.  So with forgiveness in play, release from a marriage, and learning that I have family that can move beyond... I realize it was time to be refreshed by the father and it could not come at a more perfect time.
As I pray and intercede for 21 days for this blog, family, brothers, sisters, friends, and other people and things I asked for a refreshing to take place. One that will create not only a newness in my spirit, but in the spirit of those that read this blog and share it with others. I look forward sharing my daily prayer revelations and really speaking into your life as I pray for you and whatever the Holy Spirit tells me.

Prayer: Daddy what and awesome privilege it is to be refreshed by you. To see your presence every morning as we enter into a world filled with chaos, murder, hate, and discord. Daddy there is someone facing more reality facts that I have listed and others who are facing the same facts that I have listed; I pray right now that your presence meet them right now. Daddy we can find ourselves in a depressed state seeking only the things that can numb us to a point of just functioning in the earth. But Daddy you didn't create us to just function you create us to rule, reign, and subdue the earth with your presence, love, and worship. We are the light of this world, and though it seems as though our light has become dim, we change your light bulb and stand tall, look to you for help during the moments of fact facing realities...being reminded that facts and reality don't outweigh  faith, grace, mercy, and love, all the things you have equipped us with. Daddy thank you that for every "moment" we have in our day, creates the atmosphere for your perfect timing. We honor you Daddy and we take heed to your instructions as we move beyond what is comfortable for us to the refreshing presence of your love and grace. In Jesus Name. AMEN!

Christmas Eve Revelation

Today is Christmas Eve and after service last night at Church of the Highlands I realize that JOY is not near it's here. JOY is JESUS and though we look for other things to materialize that JOY during this season or the confirmation of the emotion of JOY... but can I tell you that when I was in service last night and heard PastorChris Hodges message and show the candles light up in the room I remember how the light we called JESUS can be seen during dark times. I am a counselor/therapist and everyday I get the honor to be apart of other's lives and get to be a support system for those with mental illness from anxiety to depression and even those dealing with physical illness as well as grief issues and when I saw those candles light up across the room I realize... I have to let my light shine... So I am singing this prayer (not a Christmas song) over everyone who needs some light today and in this season.... This little of mine I am going to to let it shine... Let it shine, let it shine. Today Daddy light up our hearts, our lives, and the lives of those attach to us. Pour back into us everything we pour into others that we can have a bright light that will reflect your love as people search for JOY during this season and as people seek the confirmation of you JOY through time with their families or just those that they love. For those that have had a season, not just a year of heartache, disappointed, depression, distraught, frustration, and just UGH... with trails and tribulations, I say thank you DADDY... Thank you for allowing them to enjoy your JOY! Thank you that right now they have a light that out shines the darkness of man, this world, their heart, and personal thoughts.... though they don't feel it or see it YET Daddy, they are in it because you cover them. Every lack and empty feeling is filled with your love, joy, light, and grace. Daddy we thank you that this Christmas we reflect on the light and not the lack or the darkness that surrounds us. We are complete in you because you gave us a gift that not even the world can intimate. IN JESUS NAME! AMEN

Christmas Spirit ?

I have been trying so bad to get into my happy place with Christmas... I went shopping for my babies, I got my Christmas outfit, got where I think I am going for Christmas, and even listening to my favorite Christmas song... Still feeling incomplete... Then I sat down and told Daddy what was going on...I told him though I celebrate the life of your son daily and the world dedicates one day to it...I still feel some kind of way. Totally out of order... Then Daddy simply said even in the mist of tradition you have to shift, and in the mist of shifting nothing seems in order, even when it should be. So don't worry about getting in your normal "Christmas Spirit," you are shifting so nothing seems normal even when you want it to be. Enjoy the uniqueness of this season. So for every person that doesn't feel the "Christmas Spirit" because you have lost something or someone dear, the person that you want to be near can't because of various reasons (death, breakup, sickness, divorce, separation, overseas serving our country, work, money, etc.), your money not right, your heart not right, you emotions out of whack... depressed, sad, overwhelm, or whatever you may be... Can I tell you it's ok... Can I tell you that you are in a great place... That no matter what you feel right now it is temporary nothing about it is permanent... So don't feel like you have to follow the character of the world or the atmosphere of the season... Daddy is preparing you for your new while you are still in your present... That's what you need to focus on, not the fact that you not in the "Christmas Spirit."

The Reveal

Today I take off the ashes of....my past, the sorrows of people's judgment about me, the pain of not meeting the goal, standard, and the expectations of others. The disappointments, the heartache, the shoulda coulda, woulda thoughts of what I could be, where I should go, and who would be there to support me. I take off the blame, the finger pointing, the failure of my plans, the destruction of my God image. The insecurity of not fitting in, the rejection of self due to the words and actions of people I gave titles. I take off everything that enemy told me I was and am. Today I became nake that Daddy you can clothe me with beauty. The beauty of your grace, love, mercy, peace, security, joy, favor, success and plan. Daddy I take on the clothing of forgiveness, redemption, freedom, righteousness, found in the blood of Jesus. I take the power back from the enemy and I say no more. I now take my rightful place back as the daughter of the high king. I am your daughter Daddy and today I confess my relationship with you, laying down my ashe cloth at your feet that you can heal that which it represents. Daddy sing over me. Sing that your glorious presence can shine through me. Make me, mode me, use me, and purpose me for your plan no matter how uncomfortable the task can or will be. Daddy simply stated make me beautiful in your image again. Take away the thoughts of what calls beauty out my heart and replace it with yours. Today Daddy let me see you. No Daddy I see you. I realize there is nothing impossible for you. Today I reveal the healed me... Because Daddy you are my healer, you are the provider of all me needs, your protect from danger seen and unseen. You wave your banner of victory over me. You hold me safely in your arms. You are the anchor that holds my life in your presence when storms come with the mission to destroy me. Daddy I reveal you in me. I reveal the rest I find in you as my flesh dies and my spirit lives boldly before your thrown dwelling in presence. I reveal my worship, singing my song unashamed. I reveal that you are the great I Am. I reveal I'm an adopted daughter of a king that has unending treasures. I reveal that I'm an overcomer, standing battle ready. I reveal I'm free, never to be overcome with grief again, my ransom has been paid, thank you Jesus. I understand that lost will come and those that value will leave, but I reveal a spirit of celebration during theses moments. I reveal I'm not my divorce. Man may have rejected, but God you took me in, married me to your son and allow him to prepare a place for me. Daddy take my feet deeper than they would ever wander that my faith would be made stronger in the presence of my groom, my savior, the connector of our relationship, and my redeemer. I reveal a faith without boarders. I reveal an awakening in my spirit. I activated the holy spirit that lives inside me, that it may interact with the spirit of God. Flood me with your glory and presence. I reveal....I reveal.....I reveal that I'm free and part the freedom generation. I rise up with fire in my heart for you Daddy,I will go all end for you. I reveal that I'm a daughter of the king, a bride of the bridegroom, the heir to the thrown, and a princess to Abba.

Encourage Heart

I was seating here reflecting on things that Daddy has placed on my heart in this season and during this season.... so here it tones:
Always cheat on your sins with GOD's presence.
You are never ready for an assignment, but you are always equipped to do it.
The heart of a man is the foundation of his love for GOD
If you want true intimacy seek the heart of GOD and experience the pureness of his love
Healing is not in your Amen, it's in the action of your faith.
Last... Worship is not an act of surrendering it's an offering of yourself and in the process of you worshipping surrendering takes place.

Spiritual Knowledge

Your Spiritual Knowledge for today: The reason you keep having issue over issue problem after problem is because the enemy has been made aware that you have a made up mind and heart... and if he can just knock you off track, get you unfocus, make you devalue yourself with your words, make you meditate on what others have spoken, then he got you... and his awareness now becomes an ease. So now that you are aware of what is going on let's take some action... Action 1: Go ahead and start to worship. Worship prepares you for warfare.. It says to the enemy, you know what Daddy is about to do  and it's something big and instead of chasing  Daddy's hand you are willing to chase his presence and willing to dwell there while he handles the war. Action 2: Dwell in the presence of Daddy and open your heart to what the Holy Spirit is saying. The Holy Spirit was speaking before you became unfocus and he will speak in the mist of you gaining your focus again. He will give you the correction that your spiritual vision needs during this time of tribulation. Action 3: Release... Release your tears whether in frustration, disappointment, need, or pure sadness. Tears create your personal war cry. A war cry tells the enemy I stand firm on what Daddy has for me though I don't see it or knows how it will manifest. The day you realize you have a war cry is the day you get the boldness to speak to your situation with faith and assurance. Action 4: Tap into your giving. Giving is not limited to monetary things. Giving is becoming selfless in the mist of wanting to be selfish. Know that selfishness has no value nor productivity in your life, but seflessness creates the atmosphere for a supernatural harvest. Action 5: Pray. When you communicate with Daddy you tell the enemy that you have created a deaf ear to what he is saying and an open ear to what the father is say. You remind him that your Daddy has rulership over you and not you or him can control what Daddy has set in his will and plan for your life. You also tell the enemy that Daddy's purpose for your life will always overrule his attacks, assignments, and ambushes in your life. Last Action 6: Tap into your heavenly language, not only does the enemy not know what you are saying, neither do you. You submit yourself to the intercession of the Holy Spirit trusting him to tell Daddy exactly what you need and how you need.  So take action today knowing that it will produce the knowledge of great war strategy, and wisdom to make it through the issues, problems, people, and situations.

Encouragement

Today say to yourself... You can cause HE did.. This is not the day for the enemy to know that he got to you despite how your morning started, GOD has the joy for your day. Remove the thought of what you want into the desire of you needing Him. This is not the time to grief into depression but realize that your legacy is more valuable than you think. And without your legacy the people connected to you will not be able to fulfill their GOD given assignment. Remember this.. You are the key to someone else motivation, because you are the living light of GOD's love. You are the priceless gem that brings value to a dying world, only because you press into life with the breathe of GOD in you, JESUS living in you, and the Holy Spirit guiding you. You can make it...because... HE DID! 

Daddy Daughter Lesson

Daddy I think we need to have a date night because there are some things I need to get off my chest. Daddy thanks for meeting with me. Daughter I always love meeting with you, no matter what time of the day it is. That's great Daddy, but this is not a pleasant meeting, because I have a bone to pick with you. Go ahead daughter, speak your mind. Ok I think my bone can be simplified in one word.. Why? Why did I have to deal with the lesson of divorce? Why don't I have kids? Why am I not happily working on a marriage? Why do I have to be the example? Why is life so hard? Why can't I serve you without doubting me? WHY Daddy?!? Why? Well daughter those are good question and I can see you are upset about not having any answers, but in the mist of you asking me Why... I speak why not... Now daughter I want you happy, I want you to be productive there on earth, producing fruit for the kingdom and being the light I called you to be in the world. So these Whys are not to cause mistreatment or make you feel as though I don't love you. These whys are actually why nots. Let's start with the first, why. You aren't getting a divorce because of what you have done in the marriage you are getting one because  someone decided that their will was greater than mine. I told you in my word that a man that finds a wife finds a good thing and obtains favor with me. But what man doesn't understand is that favor is in the obedience of  the vows you all exchange on your wedding day with me. You breaking a vow with me opens the gates to allow the enemy to come in and by the time you have notice, you in too deep, and that's when people want to take the easy way out...do man's provision of my healing. So daughter stop asking why and embrace the lesson of healing. The moral of your divorce is, I make a better husband than any man I have create. And if you trust me with you heart, pursue me, I can give you a man that can meet you heart desires. Ok, Daddy your right I have been crying in pain when I should have been rejoicing in healing... Daddy Daughter Lesson learned. To answer your next two whys is easy... It's not my timing or season. You got some work to do... though these are your hearts desires, and Daughter I will give you the desires of your heart, together you have to delight yourself in me... Can you come to me more often, instead of making a routine out of me. I want a relationship with you and I need you to desire me like you desire kids, a husband that's in tune with me, and a marriage that will minister to broken marriage. If you say "I do" to me I will say "I will to you." Daddy Daughter Lesson learned... Now daughter are you feeling convicted by my response. Yes Daddy, good now I can tear down some of the bricks you have built around your heart and the box you have placed our relationship in. Now that your heart is a little more free, I can answer the next two questions. You are the example because that's what I called you to be. I told you to be the city on the hill for the world to see, that your light can shine before men and show them the way to me. Life is hard, because this world is full of darkness, and they have become content with life without me. You strive to have life with me, the influence around you cause you to second guess my instructions, my will, word, and even my son. They tell you I'm not culturally acceptable, because I lack the ability to submit to the will of man or move when they say it's the right time. So take heed daughter that your light is greater than any words that man can speak, greater than anything that man has taken from you... yes that includes your body, and greater than any judgment man has against you. How is this Daddy? Because my son is the source of your light, my holy spirit guides you daily, and I have order your footsteps towards life not death....Which means that you will always experience my presence if you stay on my path. Ok, Daddy Daughter Lesson learned. The last why is simple as pie... LOL... Daddy really? Yes, really. Die! Die to your flesh. Stop thinking with your emotions and start thinking with MY HEART! Your emotions get you in trouble, but my heart allows you to love inspite of. When you learn that,  living this life will not be base on the condition of your strength, or even you ability to continue the action of love, then you will be able to stop doubting you and look to me. Daddy Daughter Lesson learned? Yes, Daddy lesson learned. Now, before we go our separate ways and I wait patiently for you for another time like this I need you to do me a favor. Anything Daddy. Can you ask my son to be apart of your life... Daddy I know Jesus... Daughter I know, but, can you commit to a relationship with him? .... Yeah Daddy. Well let me get him... Jesus this is your sister, your bride, the one you hung on the cross for. She would like to be in a relationship with and go beyond knowing you. Well Hi! Hi Jesus. Thank you for wanting a relationship with me. No problem I'm excited and delighted to get to know you. Can I hold your hand as we walk together. Yes. Well Daddy I don't think I will have any more Whys for a while... That's good daughter. Know that as long as Jesus has your hand and you his, there will never be a moment of whys, only why nots.

Love you daughter and I look forward to our next date,
Daddy

The Three Cs

Good Morning Daddy! It's been a while since we had a breakfast date. So glad that you are always available to have breakfast with me no matter how I treat you with my time. (SMH). Daddy I have been thinking about some things that I thought were good and now that I look at them I see they weren't what I thought. I hear you daughter please go on and speak your soul... So Daddy I was looking at my life. I mean really looking at my life and how it is going. I don't feel the attacks of the enemy, things are flowing in my life like I desire, and I feel peace. Now Daddy I am thinking to myself this is a great thing I mean a peaceful thing. Then I ready a devotion that shock my peace. It said: "If you are at a place of rest, then you can guarantee that your life has become comfortable. If you are comfortable you can bet that you  have surely rest in the arms of contentment, and if you rest in contentment, then complacency is the wedding band you wear. If you are are experiencing these three Cs then rest assure you have cause yourself from not growing to another level. Never marry the three Cs just enjoy them in the moment of preparation for your new promotion." Daddy I read this thought over and over again trying to figure out why I kept getting this negative vibe. Then it dawn on me... I am married to the three Cs and I am not looking to grow. I like this place of peace, I like knowing what's going on, that I can control or at least be able to handle life now. Daddy I'm good. So I thought....Then I realize this is uncomfortable. Being comfortable is uncomfortable....Daddy how is this so. How can being comfortable, resting in peace, being secure that life is life, and being productive in my box, be bad?????? Daddy help me understand this..... Daughter it is truly simple. If you are comfortable where do we get the chance to have discussion like this. Comfort equals your will and leaves no room for my will, communicating with me, or even allow me to take you to another level of trust in our relationship. You begin to trust me where you want to trust me and you create a routine in our relationship. There is no room for my supernatural to manifest, I can't perform an miracles in your life, or grant you greater favor. When you become content you limited the anointing on your life. You say to me, Daddy that's enough I don't want to be refreshed, revived, or restored, don't make me over,  as a matter of fact the grace and mercy you give me daily is good enough, I don't particularly care for wisdom or even the fact that you want to use me outside of what I have already experience... I think my testimony is great as it is. I don't feel like I need to build the kingdom any more, I don't mind being selfish, I know it's not about me and someone is depending on me to get through this moment, but Daddy you can find someone else.  And daughter do you know that complacency is the key to an open door for the enemy. If you are complacent you say to me, Daddy thanks for the protection this is enough. I know you calm the storm in my life last time but I can handle this one on my own. You limit me  and our relationship. You will not be able to see how I can be Jehovah Jireh, (your provider)  Jehovah Nissi (your banner of victory), Jehovah Rapha (your healer),  and Jehovah Shalom (your peace)... You will never know me as "I AM." You say to me that the salvation of my son is good enough for you and you want no more to do with me. Conversations like this one is not necessary because I  can just read your word and get the answers, I don't need a relationship with you GOD. You say to me you don't want the intimacy we share, you want me to be Lord and  you Servant, nothing more or nothing less. Although your flesh dwells in the assurance of comfort, lives in the presence of contentment, and embraces complacency; these three Cs are unhealthy for your spirit man. They cause your spirit man to die and your flesh to rise, they open the opportunity  for the enemy to do whatever to you, whenever he wants to, and it is a no to my will and a yes to yours. So Daughter how do you feel about comfort, contentment,and complacency? Daddy not so good... Now daughter, know that I want you to experience comfort, but in me, I want you to be content that I am..."I AM" and that's greater than anything you could be, and complacent  in the fact that my son is the true access that you need to get to me, and my Holy Spirit has direct instructions for you to do the will that I desire for you daily. Daughter, now that you know what the three Cs can do to our relationship what do you choose? How comfortable, content, and complacent are you? Daddy I am not. I want to just dwell, rest, and be assure that you are my comfort, contentment, and I am secure that I will always be complacent with you...Because in reality there is no complacency in you... You are always creating something new. Daughter you are so right, and right now I'm about to create a new thing in you starting with your heart.... I love you and thank you for inviting me to breakfast, I always look forward to spending time with you. Hope we can do this more often.

Daddy

The Value of a Title and Name

Daddy what a privilege it is to be called Your daughter. I thought about the benefits of being an heir to your kingdom, how every morning I get to say good morning Daddy. How intimacy you want with me goes beyond my imagination and heart desires. That you breath life in me and give me new grace and mercy daily just to love me back to your heart. Daddy what an awesome joy it is to be identified as your child and given the title daughter. Daughter why stop at the title? Why be satisfied with the identity of child when you can be my heart. I never want you in the norm with me. I never want you to experience the biblical version of my presence. I want you to experience the personal experience of our relationship. The moments no one else has experienced with me. The moments that leave you wanting more me and less of you. Daughter I want to rock your world, turn it upside down that you desire nothing from it. That nothing in it temps you to leave my presence. So daughter are you ready to move from the title to the heart of your father? Daddy I'm ready for you and all your greatness. Great I can now prepare you for greater.

Losing Myself

Daddy I am losing myself... I'm losing my hearing...My vision seems foggy...My heart seems like it keeps lacking love...And to feel your touch seem like a distant memory. Daddy I am surrounded by a world that tells me to pray for someone is unethical... that I can't even have a moment of silence, because it's a waste of the company's time. Daddy I sit at my desk hearing problem after problem while dealing with my own personal problems... I have deadlines...projects...and this and that to do before I close my eyes and start the routine of life again....Daddy I am losing myself...I don't know if I am sad, happy, anxious, or just here...Daddy I try to make time for you... I have a routine...I have you in my schedule... But I think my schedule is getting caught up in something else...Daddy I am losing me...I want me back... Daughter, You are not losing yourself... you are losing me...You have allowed the world to influence your world  and you not allow my Holy Spirit and the love of my son influence your world. You can't be a light when you are full of darkness... or salt when you find yourself being bitter.... The world has you completing its task, but you are neglecting the task of my world...Now don't get me wrong I want you to complete your work and every assignment that your career requires, but come to me first for assistance....As a matter of fact you have your own private assistant that I give direct instructions to daily for you...Have you tried him? Have you even told him what you need... Do you even know him? My Holy Spirit... Have you asked him to help you? Have you calm yourself to hear his instructions from me. Have you ask my SON to love you as you give yourself to others? Have you given me the time I need to refuel you? You are lost daughter... But it's not because of your responsibilities, it's because you have not prioritized me first in your world. I can find you no matter how the world may bury you in their task of check lists. I can give you what you want and  need if you make me first. So daughter are you ready to be found? Are you ready to be restored to your proper place and position? Are you ready for the fool proof plan to never getting lost again? Yes, Daddy I'm ready... Well daughter give me your hand... rest in my arms... for I am about to make your task list consist of one thing... ME.....In me there is peace...rest for your soul... and passion to carry on through the storm of life...I have found you.

With infinite love and outstand peace,

Daddy

Perfect Purpose

Daddy I was having a conversation with some friends about purpose. As we talked I realize none of us had a solid purpose. We even sat down and made a list of things we are passionate bout and though my list was full theirs were empty or only consist of one thing. Now daddy these are educated women who speak with great words and can do great things and there we were looking at their list of few things. And as I looked at my list I realize it had no purpose. Daddy my list has no purpose!!!What a sad outcome... I list  the accomplishment I want to do in my life while here on earth and I realize none of them have purpose.... they are items to create a check list of what the world expects from me.... but it did not have you in it. Daddy my list has no purpose.... how could I create a list with no purpose????  How could I feel that my list had purpose in the first place? Where did I lose my purpose? Have I lost the definition of purpose? Daddy what is perfect purpose? How does it look and where do I go to find it? Daughter the world has tainted your vision, your thinking,  and your ability to find your purpose. You think purpose are great accomplishment that change the world around you and the one you live in. That is so far from the truth. Purpose is found in me. And it's not something you list, it's the things I equipped you for. It's my plan for you, the purpose I wake you up for. You have gotten caught up in listing things that you are not listening to the things I have planned for you. Every morning when you wake up I have already thought about you and planned your purpose.... but I wait for you to ask me this one question: "Daddy what do you have  purpose for me today?" The day you ask me that question is the day....I will give you your daily list of purpose. A list that changes daily, but the passion remains the same. The passion to do my will, to obey my word, to go my way. When you wrap yourself in that passion I will pour out your purpose. So dear daughter, are you ready to be drowned in my purpose for you? Overtaken by my passionate plan for you? Because I am ready to release it. I am ready to give you your perfect purpose.

With a loving heart for you,

Daddy

My Alabaster Box

Daddy I was reading in your word in the book of Matthew, chapter 26 about the woman who presented her Alabaster Box to Jesus as a token of worship. How the box itself was worth a lot of money, but the content she has inside was a price that even she should couldn't pay. How without question she open this box and poured out the content of perfume upon Jesus' head. Daddy I want to give you my Alabaster Box... Now the contents aren't precious perfumes that are worth a price I can't pay, but it is filled with my heart desires. The desires of things that not even I can't do without you. The desires of greatness, love, healing, compassion, passion, increase, harvest, dreams with the actions of visions. Father, my Alabaster Box is loaded with my happy ending, my fairy tale waiting to come true. It holds a peace that I can only dream of, a joy that is formed even during my bad days. Daddy here... My Alabaster Box is my will... It possess me...All of me...From the crown of my head to the sole of my feet... It holds the heart of my love.. my hurts... my beginnings...and ends for ME...Daddy my Alabaster Box holds my seeds....and the generations that will be produced through my seeds... Daddy my Alabaster Box is....... Daughter... your Alabaster Box seems more valuable than you think... It holds what I want...You!!! It lacks me though....Let me hold your Alabaster Box... Let me look inside it...Let me create a new Alabaster Box with my desires for you in it... What you house in it now, you have made up in your mind that you make come true with or without me, but I can give you a new Alabaster Box... One that houses my will and only the things that you can do with me. Do you know why that woman was able to pour the priceless perfumes onto the head of my son? Because she realized that the perfumes couldn't hold the value of the gift he could give to her....The gift of a new life with him for eternity....A peace that could surpass her own understanding, but manifest a love that is unconditional, along with the gift of wisdom. She didn't have to think about which perfume she would use or wait to use for that "special occasion," because this was the "special occasion" she had been waiting on. This was the moment she got to do something different... this was her moment to surrender all to me... Daddy.... through my son JESUS. She understood that surrendering all of her would give her the opportunity to experience the presence of me and dwell in my glory....Daughter I understand that your Alabaster Box possess the most intimate moments of your heart desires, but I have something that will put your heart desires to shame...ME! My son living in your heart, my holy spirit dwelling and speaking to you daily... guiding you into my will and out yours. I have an Alabaster Box to give you....Will exchange it for yours? Will accept my Alabaster Box and treasure it like you did yours, that I may move in you? Will you take it daughter? Will you?  With great love and waiting in expectation for you to answer.... Love Daddy!

The Touch

Daddy I was just reading the story of Jeremiah and I realize that I'm not alone...but I also realize the setup. I mean Jeremiah was a young boy when you called him to be a prophet to the nations...and when you called him he remind you of his age. Daddy I remember when that use to be my excuse, but now I it's not. Then he went on to say he couldn't speak. I truly can a test to this Daddy, because there are times when I want to sound intelligent like the world expects, but the words aren't there...I want to you proper grammar, be politically correct, having the security and confidence that I am reaching nations with my creative vocabulary.... Daddy I want to speak rhymes of thought, words that trigger challenges of the heart....pray prayers that create an atmosphere of healing and restoration.... Daddy I want that mindblowing  speech... Daddy can you give me the words....Daughter I could.... I could give the words and more...but just like I told Jeremiah, I called you before you were even thought of and formed into your mother's womb... to my destine... If I wanted you to speak with elegance I would have given you the words to do so... I called you... not because you were equipped, but because you weren't equipped  for the task and destination I have planned for you. When I knew you I created an atmosphere for you to be placed in. It's not by happen stance  that I placed you in your family, or who your parents are, or even your career status. I knew you; therefore, I placed you in the position  to depend on me... to set an atmosphere for my a touch. So daughter stand still... let me touch your heart that you may love like me...let me touch your eye that you can examine the spiritual things going on in your life...let me touch your mouth that only life can be produced from it...let me touch your ears that you clearly hear my voice...let me touch your mind that you can think only with faith actions...and let me touch your body, that you may experience holistic healing.... Remember one touch from me can set you free and create passion to be obedient to me...Daughter let me touch you...  Love forever Daddy

Ear Drops

 So after the revelation from Sunday the Holy Spirit has been on talk mode while I was on silent. For the next 60 days I will dedicating myself to hear from God....Before my 60 days started I prayed for God to speak loud and clear... Well let's just say GOD answered my prayers and gave me... Ear drops. Let me tell you what eat drops do... They take the fluid that is in your ear and push it out. I know that sounds simply.... but like anything that use to make you feel better, the ear drops come with instructions and different forms....Some forms can cause your hearing to become worst if done in ample amounts. For instance... If you use too many ear drops this  will cause more fluid to build in your ear causing your hearing to get worst. This form is usually found in the mist of the influence of people on your life who speak negatively in your into your life... If you use too little you cause the process to be slow and tidies. This form of use is usually the result of your timing....Today GOD it's me and you... GOD I got to do this...that... and the other.... Ooh but if you use the right amount you can hear with clarity and ease....We call this form obedience... this form produces faith, favor, trust, the ability to press, push, and experience the peace and joy of GOD.... Can I tell you GOD prescribed me some ear drops, and I use them as directed and I can hear. Yes! I thought putting a lot of drops in ear would speed up the process but... I stop putting too many in because I couldn't take the fluid and muffling sound, plus the process was still slow.. I never put to little because I always wanted progress. So in obedience I choose the GOD instructions, his word.... and his voice became clear....So if the voice of God is muffled to you or faint ask for some spiritual ear drops...they work.... P.S. there are eye drops too.

Prayer: Daddy thank you for the ability to hear your voice and the ear drops of your Holy Spirit that speak to us, pushing away the thing that causes blockage to Your voice and instructions. In Jesus name. Amen

The Revelation

Today while driving home from prayer I got convicted by the Holy Spirit. And all I can say is ouch. I was driving thinking bout some things I have really been praying for... and The Holy Spirit said to me what if it ain’t time... I was like what. I had a conversation earlier with GOD bout my healing and the anxiety I w...as feeling. And he was like what if it ain’t time.... I know that’s not right English. But question... what if it isn’t (for the proper saints...lol) time? What if it ain’t time to get married, have the babies, move into the house, or even get healed???? That’s deep... what if your prayers aren’t been answered cause you really don’t trust GOD you just say you do... I know... I know you saying girl I trust GOD... ok... you do let me see... have in the mist doing what the doctors said, ask GOD what he needs you to do in order that you get in the proper position to accept and receive the manifestation of your prayer with clarity and understanding??? Or you saying GOD thank you... do some praise and worship... and do what you think should be done until GOD manifested the prayer.??? It’s so amazing that we go to the doctor we listen to his diagnoses, we get the prescription filled, we change our lifestyle, and we make an follow up appointment.... but when it comes to GOD we ask... we praise, worship, say thanks, and then do our own thing to speed up the process... no follow up or nothing.... just the question GOD where are you.... He is waiting for you to ask and follow instructions.... stop saying GOD I trust you without a follow up...(ouch). You may not be able to get married cause you haven’t truly married GOD... You may not see your physically healing, cause you don’t wait to address your spiritual... you may not see the seeds of your womb because you haven’t taken care of the spiritual seeds GOD has given you.... (ouch...) You are so stuck on time and following the instructions of the world that you causing your own delay through your self afflictions... you taking matters in your hand without GOD instructions, will equal the disappoints that hunt you from your past... and the blame you keep in present, that spills into your future (MAY GOD TODAY)now please know I am preaching to myself cause everything I list... I desire, prayed for, cried about, and even gotten but end up getting hurt by... so know that the conviction is first hand... I'mpraying for everyone that reads this... to evaluate the tactics of their faith and trust in GOD... cause I know I am....

Prayer: Daddy you are so awesome, that you are willing to give us the desires of our heart if we just ask... but not only that you are willing and able to give us clear instructions on how to see, obtain, and multiple the manifestation of each prayer we pray with wisdom, clarity, and understanding... that we may not do our “what we think or know how",” but simply ask you what are the next steps... we have cause our own self affliction doing it our way... so Daddy we ask that you forgive us.... open ears and heart to be bold enough to do what you say and ask of us... Daddy help us not to create a routine of obedience with you, but a passion to be obedient to you... Jesus name. Amen

A Stubborn Daughter

Daddy today I read a quote that truly describe how I feel. It simply said.... “Father I feel like you have became foe, rather than a friend, because my heart seems more heavy than light... but no matter how I feel I will stubbornly rest myself in your arms until.... So what are you going to do Daddy now that I have submitted myself to you? Daddy today I’m stubbornly coming into your presence, be...cause I realize how I feel is not the reality of what you called me to be or where I should be. Daddy I realize that you choose me first. And being chosen causes me to stick out and no matter what I decide your will, will always override it. Daddy it hurts.... And I am sure Jesus can understand that this world is not receptive to those that are different, those that don’t fit into their mode. Daddy how can I be for you and live in this world with the abundant life Jesus says I can find in him, because I am in him? How do I adjust to the loneliness of not being able to do xyz and still have joy while other enjoy the xyz I long for. How do I smile while being judge by the crowds. When other think I have a mask... how do I explain to them I am not wearing a mask just learning how to trust you with my hurt? That I act ok because you said you would handle it...that I act as though it’s not a big deal cause you are healing it... that I want to speak my hurt with joy, because I know it’s my testimony not my earthly story. It makes me better, build charter, and adds to my track list with you... How daddy do I say Daddy has me ... I am trying to trust the process??? How daddy do I say I am facing the facts and building my faith by laying it down at your feet??? It hurts, you know. Daughter why overwhelm yourself with things you can’t control? Why become frustrated with a plan that is meant to grow you. I have called you out. Yes I choose you... I have called you to be apart of a generation of priesthood, a nation that’s Holy. My son suffered ever cost I knew you would have to pay by being in this world. If you will be the salt of the earth and allow your light to shine on the hill...this world will conform to my will and you can see the abundant life that my son promise you with his life. The day you establish yourself in me and my word no longer will it be promises it will become establish facts. Don’t worry bout this world and it’s thoughts towards you nor the thoughts of those connected or around you. I am calling you to a new thing, helping you to become anew... where you going your old mindset can’t take you, so what others think is a mask is actually a veil that I have covered you with. Your loneliness is not what it seems, it’s actually me trying to develop a consistent relationship with you. I want all of you... my heart desire is that you sing to me every morning this simply song...” Daddy give you, everything else can wait.” I will wait for you... I will I will...My Daughter, my heart.

You Will Not Drown

When you go through deep waters and great trouble, I will be with you. When you go through rivers of difficulty, you will not drown!---Isaiah 43:2

So many times life itself can drown you in problems.. If it's not bills....it's family...finances...the house....children...spouse...the list can go on and on....but rest assure that in the mist of feeling beyond overwhelmed......Daddy will not only lift up a standard but he will teach you how to swim, conquer, experience his glory, and understand victory in him... so don't try to swim and worry.... the weight of worry will not drown you, but it will cause you to become blind to seeing THE LIFE SAVER.

Prayer: Daddy the things of life can seem so heavy that it seems like we are drowning in life and that we can't get to a place of safety or even catch a break... but in those moments Daddy remind us that you are our forage... that you will lift up a standard and command the sea of life, the wave of destruction, and the rocking of doubt to cease and your peace that surpasses our understand will take place and over take us like the wind that blow to and fro. Thank you Daddy in you we have victory and that you are our personal lifesaver! In Jesus Name! Amen

I will

I will take you as my own people, and I will be your God. Then you will know that I am the Lord your God, who brought you out from under the yoke of the Egyptians.---Exodus6:7

What are you willing to do? It's amazing that when "I will" is found in the Bible it's an action of obedience or promise.

So I will go to the leaders and speak to them; surely they know the way of the Lord, the requirements of their God.” But with one accord they too had broken off the yoke and torn off the bonds.---Jeremiah5:5

See obedience... But is the "I will" you are speaking out your mouth? For me, my "I will" is... "LORD, I will if you"... are you like me? Do you have an “if” in your spirit at times when it comes to doing something that's uncomfortable to you or out your norm... “GOD I will if....”you give me a sign that I should... “Daddy I will if”.... you just let me get through this one thing or do this one thing....

Our "I will" should be pure with no apprehensions, fear of failure, disappoint, or doubt...but sometimes our "I will" causes us to be in a position of discomfort, one that leads to a place of questioning, and conversation that is unproductive. We need to recognize that this is not the “I will” of the father, but the “I will” of the enemy.... The “I will” of the enemy looks like that of GOD's “I will,” but it followed by negative thinking, speaking, and even seeing. To know the difference and act in the “I will” of the father one must stay in close connection with him. Reading his word, speaking his life, and truly trusting him with a heart of obedience and love.

Prayer: Father “We Will” not because it's right, not because we can, but because it pleases your heart that we do. “We Will,” because you have called us to a place that we are equipped for the will you have assigned us to. We know that say “We Will,” is simply a yes to you, your word, will, and way. So Daddy we say “YES We Will!” YES WE WILL!!! Daddy we know there is power in our yes. Our “Yes We Will” opens doors, ushers in your presence, bring wholeness to our lives, releases your glory, brings your honor, and empowers us to conquer every attack, assignment, and ambush of the enemy... Thank you Daddy for reminding us that “we will” upgrades us to another level in you. In JESUS name we PRAY and GIVE THANKS! AMEN

Let's Stay Together

Daddy I sing to you: All that I have needed Thou has provided, great is thou faithfulness, LORD to me! Daddy to know that your faithfulness never fails brings me a joy that my heart has never know. To live at presence of your faithfulness allow me to walk with confidence in knowing that I have value when the world tells me that my value no longer exist. Thank you Daddy in letting me know that  there is nothing I can do to lose your faithfulness towards me. Thank you for letting me know that your faithfulness is not based on my obedience, love, conversation, actions, words, or even works. It's based on your love, and the obedience, love, conversation, actions, words, and works that I do take me to another level in you and your faithfulness. Daddy man has hurt me so many times with his love, words, works, actions, and even his own desire and will,  Daddy it's a relief to know that in the mist of their  actions of hurting me, you will heal me, restore me, revive me, and finally make me a new. You make all things new Daddy. Everything that I thought I lost in investing in the heart of man and the desire of fulfilling my needs and dreams, you give back to me in your timing, with greater value. You teach me lesson of your unconditional love, the permission of your promises, the greatness of your grace, the submission of your mercy, the comfort of your joy, and the productivity of your peace. Daddy thank you for being who you are. Daughter you are all that I need to get by... My love song for you today as I sing over you, is I'm so love with you...I want to spend eternal life  with you...since we been together...loving you forever is what I want to do...Let me be the one you coming running to.... I will never be untrue... Daughter let's stay together... Loving you whether times are good, bad, happy or sad … I want us to stay together because I am not going any where.. I am here to love you and be with you until you and I are together in eternity... I will love you beyond the love you know, carry you beyond the limits you are use to... protect you from danger you are unaware of... You are truly Daddy's Girl...
Love Daddy