The Experience

On this past weekend after a girls roadtrip (which was suppose to be a day thing, that turned into a weekend) I got to experience something new that remind me of the story of the man whose friends place him in the center of healing in a house. So let me retell the story that can be found in Mark 2:4; Luke 5:19. So Jesus was in the town healing people and he was doing it in a house that fully packed with people that were seeking and getting healed. These friends of a paralyzed man decided that they need to bring their friend to this house so that JESUS could heal him. Well they couldn't get through the doors of the house due to the crowd, but they were desperate to get their friend healed. So with teamwork and careful planning they climb to the roof top of the house with their friend who was laying on a cot and beginning to tear the roof off the house. SIDEBAR: You need people in your life who are willing to think outside the box, and who are desperate to see you healed. Ok... Back to the story. So the friends created an opening big enough to lower the friend who was paralyzed and on the cot down to the center of the crowd and in front of JESUS. SIDEBAR: I don't know where they got the rope to attach to the cot to lower him down, but can I tell you, you always need friends that are prepared... So let's continue the story.... JESUS stop and said to the man... Because of the faith of your friends you are healed... Now it doesn't say anything about what happen to the friends, but in my Holy Ghost Imagination (that's what a former pastor of mine use to say) I know that JESUS healed his friends to... Why you say that, you ask? Because it was their selflessness, faith, perseverance, and reluctance love for their friend that they went to the extreme to get their friend healed. JESUS acknowledge that and in his acknowledge I feel he was speaking healing, prosperity, and blessings to them and their household. So with that being said let me go back to the story of my girls roadtrip. We were at a friends house, who told us that we needed to meet this young man who was a prophet. We were open and we had all been a place of needing something great to happen spiritually. So the young man came and begin to prophecy to us individually; afterwards, he begin to pray for two of the friends that came with me on the trip. Well why he prayed, I touch and agree and intercede for them as well. They in return got to experience the power of GOD's glory and healing with the evidence of the Holy Spirit. Now after every thing was over I beginning to experience the healing that I had been seeking Daddy for. Because of their experience I gain a blessing too. Just like the friends of the paralyzed man. Their faith manifested his healing, but they returned got blessed too. That's just like Daddy. He creates an opportunity for one person to get a direct experience of him, but in return others get to experience the effect of his glory too.

Prayer: Daddy thank you for the experience. The experience of your new grace and mercy daily. Your love and eternal peace. Your gift of life and the title to be your child, to be called son or daughter. Daddy we enjoy the experience of you period, never taking it for granted, never losing sight of its value in and over our life. Daddy thank you for the experience of your healing, your provision, and protection through the blood of JESUS. Thank you for the opportunity to always be able to come to you for ourselves and experience the weight of your glory. To dwell in the presence of you. We love you Daddy and we understand that an experience with you is greater than anything that this world could ever offer. In JESUS Name.... AMEN!

The Vision

I am sure you have heard of the famous vision scripture found in Habakkuk 2:2-3: “Write the vision, make it plan that he who reads it can run with it. But the part B is what really gets me... For still the vision awaits its appointed time; it hastens to the end – it will not lie. If it seems slow, wait for it; it will surely come; it will not delay. It will not delay... What a vision! Not only does GOD tell us to write the vision, but he lets us know that it will not come to pass as soon as we right it, that it will have an appointed time for it's manifestation. When it comes to vision there are three ways that we can categorized the sight of. These three vision categories are:

Clear Vision: the ability to notice and acknowledge the facts but activate the faith. Having the boldness to write the vision down and await its appointed time and to be patient enough to wait for its manifestation with confidence

• When you have clear vision you understand that failures are the cosigners to success.

Blurry Vision: knowing and focusing on the facts with the knowledge of what faith can do. Having the courage to write the vision, but doubting in your waiting. Praying for the promise that has already been cosigned by GOD with YES and Amen!

• Placing your value more on your failures over your accomplishments. Allowing yourself to bounded with doubt, confusion, frustration., and stuck in a cycle of insecurity.
• Here you must seek the prayer of Proverbs 3:5: ”Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not to your own understanding; and in all your ways submit him and he will make your path straight.”

Blindness: faithfully doubting in the vision of your heart and paralyzed in fear that you can't even write down the vision.

• Can’t see pass the pain of your past, because the pain is still in your present. You are bound by lack, ignorance, and stubbornness.
• In his vision category you must pray Isaiah 43:18-19: “ Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past. See, I am doing a new thing!”

Now that you know where your vision could be and were it should be, evaluate your vision. Are you possessing a clear vision or one that has you totally blind. Whatever your vision know that Daddy can take you where you need to be only if your wait, hold fast, and trust in his YES and AMEN.

Prayer: Daddy vision is what you had when you form this place we call earth. You saw darkness and created light. You saw void and created substance. You saw loneliness and created partnership. Daddy as we write our visions, give us clarity on the process we should take. Allow us to be connected with our runners, helping us to wait on timing that is perfect for its manifestation. Daddy allow our vision to be that of clear and not blindness. Help us to disconnect ourselves for people, places, and things that keep us in the place of blindness. Daddy we know that in the end you will get the glory and because of that we stay encouraged, hopeful, and remain excited at the greatness of what you bring forth through our obedience. In Jesus Name! AMEN

The Attitude of A Daughter

Ok.. I am coming to you Daddy because I realize that my attitude stinks. I mean truly stinks. For the past couple of months I have allowed myself to be sounded by my issues, situations, and circumstances, while trying to be there for others. I have cause myself to be moved, wavered, and persuaded by the things that others discussed with me. I have a bad attitude Daddy. I mean I am at a point where people just truly get on my nervous and I wonder why they are in my life..UGH Daddy I am totally disappointed with how I feel right now. Don't even know how this feeling came to be, but I do know that I don't like it and it's not me. I do know that this is not Christ like of me. Daddy this is not the attitude of your daughter. This is not how your children are suppose to look. I am filled with envy, which is bubbles over into jealousy, which manifest into anger, and result in disappointment. This is not the attitude of your daughter Daddy. What do I do? What can I pray? To get back to the attitude of your daughter? Daughter seek my word, change your behavior towards me. I have and still am a routine to you. You have to understand that you can't place me inside your box or a box period. I know you stress and strained about the prayers you feel I have not heard or answered. I know you think that things are coming against you and you doubtful about what this life has to offer. I know you had things under control and now they are out of your control. I know that you feel like things are happening for everyone but you. But daughter that should not change your attitude about the goodness of who I am as you father, provider, protector, love, friend, husband, counselor, listening year, and most of all your GOD. Did you forget that I am the "I AM?" Have you forgotten that I will and my will is greater than yours. Daughter change your attitude by changing your sight. Stop looking at the big picture or even the picture through your eyes. Stop looking at things as failure and start looking at the promise victory that I have always told you about. I know you feel like things are not working out in your favor and that you feel incomplete in certain areas. But you are whole in me. Stop looking at things in the perspective of time and opportunity and start looking at things in praise my glory. Here is what I need you to pray when your attitude doesn't look like mine:

*Prayer: Daddy this is the day that you have made I will rejoice and be glad in it. I believe that I will look up at the goodness of you and live in the land of the living. I will rejoice in hope, be patient in tribulation be constant in prayer. For Daddy I know that this light momentary affliction is preparing me for an eternal weight of glory beyond comparison. I know that whatever I ask in prayer I will receive only if I have faith. I will destroy arguments and every lofty opinion raised against the knowledge of  you Daddy, and take every thought captive to obey Christ. I will put off my old self and be made new in the attitude of my mind. Whatever I do I will do it all for the glory of you Daddy. Understanding that I must believe in your exists and seek you to see your rewards. I know that without faith it's impossible to please you Daddy; therefore, I look not to the things that are seen, but to the things that are unseen. For the things that are seen are transient, but the things that are unseen are eternal. Daddy today I place these things into effect in my life by sealing them in Jesus name  and agreeing to this decree with AMEN.

Now daughter pray these things when your attitude seem to to be out of place and it start to stink. Because while you are praying my Holy Spirit is convicting and the blood of my son Jesus is correcting. Remember my grace is sufficient it never runs out and it renews itself daily. Stay focus on me and stop trying to control what is out of your hands or not even meant for you to handle. I have you , but you have to truly trust me with your every thing. I will Daddy! I will work on trusting you moving in your yes instead of  going against your no and my it is so. Well Daughter that's all I ask. Love you! Love you too Daddy.

* The following are scriptures used to write the prayer. They are listed as they appeared in the prayer:
Ps118:24, Ps27:13, Rom12:12, 2Cor4:17, Matt21:22, 2Cor10:5, Eph 4:22-23, 1Cor10:31, Heb11:6, and 2Cor4:18 EVS and NIV

I Can't Handle This!!!

Daddy on yesterday I got news that a friend that I love dearly was diagnosed with cancer. Daddy he is only in his 30's and so young and active. I just saw him two months ago and though he wasn't in his great happy moods he was in a good one. Daddy this is the fourth friend I have battling a disease that can cause them to die. I can't handle this. Seeing my friends how are my age struggling with illness they didn't even ask for. I can't handle the hospital visits any more or wondering will I be receiving the phone call that one of my friends has joined you in the heavenly sky. I can't Daddy!!! I Can't!!! Daughter... Daughter calm down. I hear your heart and not just your I can't! I understand that to see someone you love suffer in such a painful way with life schedule around drug dosage is hard for you. To know that they have to be in the hospital for long periods of times, or even in and out of the hospital for long periods of time is hard for you. To visit them and see the tubes, needles, vital signs, and lack of energy they have and weakness they display. I hate when my children have sick love ones. I do and I hate it worse when they pray for total healing and I take the love with me, and they are mad, angry, disappointed, and create a harden heart for me. I am. But here is what I need you to know this season for your friends is to build their faith and in me. To trust me. To let me do me! This season for you is the same. I know it hurts that I don't dismiss. But I told you in my word that you have the power to do greater works that my son did while he was there on earth. Now healing will not always take form the way you picture it. Sometimes my healing is to give them total rest in me. That means taking them from the earth and placing them in my presence permanently. Other times it means healing them right then and there to show someone that is by them that I am real. This is not about you or them. This is about me and in the end I will get the glory. I know that sounds selfish, but it's not daughter trust me. I do things that your mind will never understand. My plans always work out perfect even if you don't see the perfection of them. So start planning for the victory, shout for the healing, for I am about to manifest greatness in the mist of pain. I will create peace, in the mist of grief, and I will love you  and them through it. You are my Daughter what concerns your heart concerns me. I know that this is not easy for you and you feel you can't handle this, but daughter you can. I will NEVER put to much on you that I have not already prepared you to bear. I know you don't believe right now but I have equipped you for this moment. So daughter know this do you still think you can't handle this? Daddy, I am still a little shakey and I hear what you are saying. I know you have ever failed me and there is nothing to hard for you. I know that you delight in my heart desires. That you are a GOD of love, and you only want the best for your children and that your plan is perfect... But to see them go through hurts. Well Daughter don't hurt their going through is building them for my perfect plan. .... Daddy can you change my eyesight then? Because all I see is the pain for their illness. ... Yes daughter, for you I will do any thing. When I change your eyesight you will see the healing that will manifest. Don't look the outside. Look at what I am doing in the inside. See your flesh want's flesh manifested healing, well that's not true healing.Total healing comes when I am able to heal you from the inside out. If I heal your flesh and never your heart, you will end up back where you start. So daughter know that as you pray for your friends, like I know you will... for their healing... and total restoration....Know that I am healing them from the inside out...Know that total restoration is not allowing them to remain here on earth, but allowing them to rest in my arms. So when that day comes... and it will... Know that I will and would have prepared you for it. I love you daughter I will await your.... I can handle this!!! Because you can handle this, this is not big, this is just a season of trusting me more and focusing on who I am not what I can do. I love you daughter! I love you too Daddy.... I will be waiting... Ok

A Convicted Heart

Daddy at Bible Study the other night I got convicted about my heart. I found myself dealing with issues of things that I had prayed for, but the reaction to the manifestation of those things seem to yield a heart of ungratefulness. Daddy how did I get here. How did I get to a place where my heart has been tainted so that I become so ungrateful for the things I cried out to you about. Daddy Help me! Daughter you need help with your heart. How did you get here? You got here because you forgot how to use your prayers for my glory. I don't give you what you ask for, that you may use it for your glory and your purpose, I give you what you prayed for that I may be glorified. Well Daddy how do I get out of this. How do I get back to a place where my heart is ungrateful? Daddy before you answer that can I talk about another part of my heart. The part that responds to the provoking. The part that speak before thing that makes you become distant in your presence. Daughter, Daughter everything dealing with your heart can be solved by one example the example of the one that won it... My son David. Despite his response from provoking situations he was truly a man of my heart. Take heed to the words and prayer of his heart in Psalms 51:1-17:

 1 Have mercy on me, O God, according to your unfailing love according to your great compassion blot out my transgressions. 2 Wash away all my iniquity and cleanse me from my sin. 3 For I know my transgressions, and my sin is always before me. 4 Against you, you only, have I sinned and done what is evil in your sight; so you are right in your verdict and justified when you judge. 5  Surely I was sinful at birth,  sinful from the time my mother conceived me.6 Yet you desired faithfulness even in the womb; you taught me wisdom in that secret place. 7 Cleanse me with hyssop, and I will be clean; wash me, and I will be whiter than snow.8 Let me hear joy and gladness; let the bones you have crushed rejoice.9 Hide your face from my sins and blot out all my iniquity. 10 Create in me a pure heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me.11 Do not cast me from your presence or take your Holy Spirit from me.12 Restore to me the joy of your salvation and grant me a willing spirit, to sustain me.13 Then I will teach transgressors your ways so that sinners will turn back to you. 14 Deliver me from the guilt of bloodshed, O God you who are God my Savior, and my tongue will sing of your righteousness.15 Open my lips, Lord,and my mouth will declare your praise.16 You do not delight in sacrifice, or I would bring it; you do not take pleasure in burnt offerings.17 My sacrifice, O God, is[b] a broken spirit; a broken and contrite heart you, God, will not despise.

Daughter David got what I need from you and what your heart should look like. He realized the conviction that his heart had brought and how it displease me. Once you realize that your heart is the one thing that I want to win then you will not be easily be provoked by what this world has to over, spoke, or even presents to you. The words and actions of people will not offend your heart to reaction. You will understand that my love the unconditional love that I show to you will be able to give you the strength to respond in love and not in negative action. Daughter give me your heart, I will allow the conviction that you feel to be that of healing and not of disappointment. All I ever want is your broken spirit and a contrite heart that I can draw nigh to you. Daddy I get it! I understand that my heart is more value to you than even my life. Because life flows out my heart... The manifestation of my words, the willingness to be obedient to you, my purpose, my ability to be accessible to you is all in the ability to give you all of me... All of me is found in the heart of me. Daughter you got it... You realize that your heart is the foundation of how I operate in your. Your heart is the foundation of our relationship and once I capture that, I captured all of you.... Once you yield your heart to me, you only pursue the things of me. Daddy today I give you my heart. I know that this is something that I will have to do daily in order for you to use me. I lay on the alter of sacrifice to be the offering that you ask for and to yield only to your voice and instruction. Daughter I know this will not be an easy task, but one that will win my heart, usher you into my presence, hear my clearly, and open your eyes to the true purpose of your life. I love you daughter and I am so excited to accept your heart. Know that you are always on the forefront of my mind and my heart is always in love with you. Daddy thank you. No daughter, thank you!

All I need

Today as I vacation with a friend we had the honor to experience some new things.  We went to a  restaurant and meet of family of women.  A sister and her sister-in-law and their daughters.  As we waited the sister-in-law share with us how her husband was in the military and she was not from Tennessee but New Jersey, and her husband was serving in overseas.  But what caught my attention is when she shared how she adjusted to coming from the north to the south.  She said that she submerge herself in the cultural of the south. I thought to myself that's a great way to adjust. On top of that she shared her necklace.... it said "sweet tea and Jesus..." I was like that is so southern,  but so true. There are times in our lives where we must submerge ourselves in God that the fear in being in a new place,  position,  or even walking in our calling being at peace that allows you do everything at ease.

Prayer: Daddy help us to know that you all we need. We submerge ourselves in your presence and yield to the peace of your  grace. Daddy all of you and none of us.  In Jesus name.  Amen

He Will Fix It

Happy HE will fix it Friday. I realize I need a real handyman n my life. Not the kind that fix pipes, cars, or lights. I need a handyman that can fix the cracks in my heart, the inconsistency of my praise, and mend my broken relationships. While I was getting ready to place my ad in the classifies I ran across the scripture that states u r my workmanship(Eph 2:10). Then I read another scripture that said Daddy you will perfect every thing that concerns me and will not forsake the work of your hand (Ps 138:8). Then I thought to myself there is no need to place an ad when Daddy is the greatest handyman with an awesome track record and great referrals. Always remember if u ever need a fix Daddy has the right tools. Love and have a great fix it Friday!


Prayer: Daddy I sing my heart even now... You will fix it, yes you will, yes you will. Daddy you possess tools that man has no access to. The tools to heal, mend a broken heart, put marriages back together, make a dysfunctional family better. Daddy you go tools that can perform miracles, cause overflow to be stored up for times of need. Daddy you got things that allow the blind to see, and the deaf to hear. Daddy I realize there is nothing in this world or in me that you can't fix , and for that I simply say thank you. Daddy thank you for take the time out to fix me, to fix us! Thank you allowing us to be a tool in your toolbox, assigned to do a great job for you. We love you Daddy and thank you that in our hearts we know your timing will always fix it! Not after while but right no time! In Jesus Name! AMEN

Yes Power

So let God work his will in you. Yell a loud no to the Devil and watch him scamper. Say a quiet yes to God and he’ll be there in no time. Quit dabbling in sin. Purify your inner life. Quit playing the field. Hit bottom, and cry your eyes out. The fun and games are over. Get serious, really serious. Get down on your knees before the Master; it’s the only way you’ll get on your feet.-James 4:7-10 Msg 

It's amazing how easy a yes can be when it comes to achieving the things that we desire for ourselves. Think about it. We say Yes to those extra hours at work to get the money we need to get things done. We say yes to the sinful things that bring us, what we think is peace or joy. We are so quick to say yes to our flesh and so slow to say no..... Let's not talk about when Daddy ask us to do something that is uncomfortable our out of the norm. We are quick to analyze, rationalize, and look for scriptures to back up what the Holy Spirit instructed us to do. Especial when another person is involved. In James 4 we see what the power of YES can do. In the mist of trying to get ourselves in shape through repentance and having our intimate conversations with Daddy, Daddy is preparing greater for us. Our yes to him says we surrender all and we cancel our will to take his. Though James seems to be harsh in his presentation, the reality is in order for us to get back to our place in GOD we must get to a place of desperately saying YES!

Prayer: Daddy we know that the only way to you is through the son and the only way to the son is in our surrendering. We surrender all to you. We lay down our will to take up the cross. We submit ourselves under your authority, trusting you in all that we do. Holy Spirit we ask that you guide and direct us under the light of the father. We ask that you open our ears you to Daddy and keep our sight in focus of you. We know that without you Daddy we are the bottom, and we can't get to the top until we get serious in our surrendering. We love you Daddy and today we sing.. I surrender all... I surrender all.. All to thee my blessth savior... I surrender all. In JESUS Name! Amen

The Love Beyond

Luke 6:28 Bless those who curse you  pray for those who mistreat You.

Its hard to be nice to people who openly mistreat you. Especially when you  don't know what was done to cause them to go from friend to foe. But even if or when the transition happen, be assure that your responds to them is love and prayer. Your response to them is what counts and sets the tone for the love beyond. Your ability to turn the other cheek allows them to see that your trust and faith is not in their relationship with you, but the assignment to be what called you to be. The day you learn how to love beyond your emotional response to other is the day you see with the manifestation of GOD's favor and presence overtake you. Speak life over those that speak death over you.

Prayer: Daddy it's so hard to to respond to negative people with a positive respond, especially those who we have inmate relationships with. It's hard to turn the other cheek, to move beyond our emotions, to not get caught up in being angry or holding grudges. Daddy we need your help. Help us to love beyond. Love beyond the moment of anger, the moment of frustration, the argument, the disappointment, and the heartache. Help us to be in a place where you can use us to love beyond. To love beyond our expectations for that person or people, to go beyond our own sight and to look at them through your eyes. Daddy cover us with your love that we can love them beyond us. In Jesus Name! AMEN

New Series

So as a founding act of this new season in my life I have to bring back so message that I use to send via text message. In these message we will explore a scripture and encouraging message along with a prayer to meditate on through the day. So let's get started with today's message:

Hebrew 11:8 By faith Abraham, when called to go to a place he would later receive as his inheritance, obeyed and went, even though he did not know where he was going.

When GOD says go, go. Stop worrying about direction and get focus on instructions. When you realize who is guiding you will never have to meditate on where you going.


Prayer: Daddy, forgive us for wanting to analyze your  instructions and not obey your directions. For allowing our mind to be the leader of what our heart is assured in. Help us to hear and do what you say. Not hear and talk about it looking for a greater clarity, or even waiting for the manifest of it to make sense to us. Daddy give us that "Just Do IT" spirit. Daddy, remind us that faith is verb and not a noun. That it requires action not conversation. In Jesus Name, AMEN

The Potential of A Promise

While attending a preschool graduation the children begin to sing a song. I am a promise, a promise with a capital P. I am a great big ball of potentiality. As they continue to sing I was amazed that I never realize how great this song was. As many times I have heard and sang this song I never realized the power behind the words.

First, it states that I am a promise. When was the last time you value the promise that GOD created and destine you for? When was the last time you thank GOD for the promise? I realize that the value of a Promise is only as great as the person that desires the promise.

Second, they state that I am a great big ball of potentiality. WOW! GOD has designed us to a place of never failing in His will, that our potential in Him is unlimited. When was the last time you realized that you can’t fail with GOD? When was the last time you dust yourself off and realize that the potential you have is unique and the only one that can carry your potential is you.

You have to realize that you were boring into a promise it was take away out of disobedience and give back to you through the blood of JESUS. Realize what was done on your behalf that your promise cost and that you have to take it at its true value.

Never lose the promise that GOD has given you. Realize the great power of your potential.

Prayer: Daddy your promises are yea and Amen, but while the manifestation of your yea is taking place remind of the potential you see in us. That we are beyond our situations, stronger than our issues, and saved through your son's blood. That by your grace and mercy your allow us to start afresh and anew. That it's in your that we possess the ability to be beyond the thoughts of this world or conform to it's schedule. That your timing is perfect, and in your perfection you will guide us to greater levels of faith. Thank you  Daddy for healing us from negative thoughts, that we are unworthy of your love, valueless, and unuseable. Thank you Daddy for remind us that we are priceless, and have been brought with a price that no man can ever afford to pay. We thank you Daddy that today we are and will continue to be your great big ball of potentiality. In Jesus Name. Amen

The Passion of Past

Hi! I know that I have not blogged in a minute and  I have no excuse. I have really been dealing with my past lately and I don't know why. Have you ever been a place where you feel like you are truly over it. I mean truly... like nothing about a past issues can cause you to react? Have you been in a place were you saw the people that hurt you or heard their voice and you feel like that situation is right there in your face again? But in your mind you thinking I should be over this, this shouldn't effect me like this... Or maybe you think you are beyond this and and that you need to check yourself... Well.. That's me... About three weeks ago I did something that I thought would be the hardest decision in my life. I mean it was a real heart decision. To some people reading this it may be so minuet. But here goes.. I change my phone number.. Yep I did it.. I know some people are like girl that's it.. that was a heart decision for you? Girl I do that at least three to four times a year, just to clean myself of stupid, unproductive, and negative people I have allowed in my life.... But maybe there are others that feel me.. that know that changing your number is beyond a number change. That it is a life changing decision, cause in the end you are saying good-bye to people that meant you no good, but you invest your life in. That you have to realize that you had some uneducated moments when it came to certain relationships and having with certain people. That you realized that you were driven by the passion of your past. A past that held you tight due to one device.. your phone. Your phone gave people access to your heart, your life, and your energy. You allowing others to have your phone number  told them, call me, let me be your trash can, let me take your negativity, even though I got my own issues. Your phone number may not seem so valuable at first, but once you give people access to it, you will start to see how that one number create a character change in your. Hum.. Powerful huh?!? A Number that give people access to parts of you that you never thought of. Well once I change my number I saw the effects of allowing people have it. I am now wise on who I give it to, because I am aware of the consequences of letting them have it. I realize that if the wrong person posses it, it can cause a passion of your past to rise up.


Prayer: Lord teach me how to love the ones that hurt me, to forgive the ones that offend me to pursue peace when I’m pissed; to move beyond the moment into the lifetime. Help me father to remember it’s not about me, but your kingdom. Help me to stop making temporary permanent, and please help me find words of wisdom, compassion, and understanding to give to the ones that refuse to hear my heart. Father create the atmosphere to rebuild the relationships I destroyed and rebuild me from relationships that destroyed me. Open my eyes to what you are showing me and let me not take this assignment in vain. Give me your presence that I may move at your pace; and father when I become impatient with the present task, can you remind me of the future promises you have for me. Cover me father from my own ignorance and allow me to not be blinded by my own thoughts. Let me focus on your voice, walk in your faith, trust you at your word, and hold fast to your presence with the power of your love. Father I’m an available vessel waiting on your instructions and though I have a couple of cracks and there are places that I still don’t want to explore about me, hold my hand and remind me that you can use anything and any one all we have to do is surrender to your will.

Convictley Convenience

Daddy, while feeding into my flesh I was convicted about my actions and I found myself yielding to a place of repentance. Now Daddy I know that repentance is what I should always do when I allow myself to be consumed with sin and to follow the rules of my flesh while being integrated into the lifestyle of this world, but my conviction when further than my repentance. After speaking to you about the situation I started to reflect on why I did it. What was I missing in me that I choose it over you? What did I think it would fulfill that you couldn't overtake? And Daddy... that's when I became convictley convenience that you are the "Great I AM." You are not just my GOD you are my Daddy! I was convictley convenience that I have purpose and I am tailor made for every assignment that you give me. Daddy I became convictley convenience that you would never leave me or forsake me. That you are always there when I needed... As a matter of fact Daddy you are always on time. When I am about to lose my mind...when things seem unbearable, when bills are stacking up, money is dwindle down....when life says you can't make it and the world is telling me I am not good enough.... Daddy when I am sick in my body and the doctors have no cure I am convictley convenience that you are my healer, my strength, my redeemer. You are my peace in the mist of chaos. You sing over me Daddy, blessings, promises, righteousness, love, joy, grace and mercy. Daddy I am convictley convenience that you have prepared me for this life ... That my husband is on the way... I am convictley convenience that I am fearfully and wonderfully made, that victory is just a shout away. That you called me to be a worshiper, that I can speak and it shall come to pass. But Most importantly I am convictley convenience that Daddy Jesus is my savior and without him there will be no us. That by his stripes I am healed, by his blood I am redeemed, restored, and made anew. That in him I have eternal life. Daddy I am convictley convenience that neither darkness, death, sin, or  any demonic force can take away the love you have for me. The passion you have for me is not measured on how many times I talk to you or how many times I repent it is truly unconditional. Daughter your conviction has brought you to the reality of what I always wanted you to know about me. I am your Daddy the one who provides, protects, and always come to your rescue. That I only want the best for your and that my plan is fireproof. Daughter you get the fact that my love is unconditional and the price for it has been paid by Christ. Daughter I am so glad that you are convictley convenience that in me you have victory. All I ever wanted for you is in your conviction and because of your conviction your grow in your faith. Because of your faith you are convenience there is nothing that I can't do for you. I Love you Daughter and so proud that you realize the power of your conviction.


***Special note convictley is not a word, it something that the Holy Spirit gave me.

The Death of Life

Holy Week is a time for us to reflect on the greatness and sacrifice that Christ made for us on the cross. How he spent 33 years on this earth just to prepare for his death. As we celebrate during this week I would like to challenge us to look at the importance of  Death. As people we see death as the final good-bye, but we know that Jesus made death a hello, by given us eternal life. His death give us the opportunity to have an intimate relationship with Daddy. What an awesome wonder he is and continues to be to us, as he intercedes for us, lives in us, moves in us, and loves us back to him daily.  My heart is overjoyed knowing that the son brought us back to the father. Now let us not forget that the death of Jesus was not easy for him. We know that in the Garden of Gethsemane, Jesus beg for the father to figure out another way to save man without him dying. But when he realize that his will could not succeed the will of the father, he yield himself to Daddy with the knowledge, faith, and reminder that Daddy would do something so great because of his sacrifice. So today while you hear about the negativity of this world, reflect on the fact that you are covered by the blood.

Prayer: Daddy, thank you for the conversation that you and Jesus had about us. That together you planned a way to get us back into your good grace. That Jesus volunteered his life to be sacrificed that we may have eternal life, and not just eternal but an intimate relationship with Daddy. Because of the blood of Jesus we have freedom, victory, peace, love, and most importantly  Jesus living inside us, giving us access to the Holy Spirit for guidance. Daddy as we face the days of Holy Week, let us not get caught up in the activities, but the gratefulness of your peace, love, joy, forgiveness, mercy, and grace that you give to us daily with the position of being called your children. Daddy we love you, Jesus we say thank you , and though those words can't express the joy of hearts for your life, it is truly a start, Oh Lamb of GOD, Son of Man, Son of Righteousness, Lord of lords, King of king, Awesome Wonder, Savior, Counselor, and Redeemer. In Jesus Name We pray! Amen and Glory to GOD! 

Fighting Joy

"Looking unto Jesus, the author and finisher of our faith, who for the joy that was set before Him endured the cross, despising the shame, and has sat down at the right hand of the throne of God."---Hebrew 12:2,NKJV

What if in order to receive the joy that you desire Daddy told you, you had to fight for it? What if joy is not easy, but obtainable? Would you pursue joy with the same energy, strength, and even mindset that you pursue happiness? These are questions that I had to ask myself as I was listening to the Joy message from yesterday's sermon. I don't know about you, but when I think about joy, I think about two things, easy to obtain, and not worth much my energy....Can I tell you I was so wrong... So wrong. While looking up a scripture to go with this post I ran across Hebrews 12:2. I read this scripture several times, but never really applied it to Joy until now... Can I highlight something in the verse..."Who for the joy that was set before Him endured the cross." I am stop right there because that in itself just took me into another mindset when it comes to joy. Can I translate what that part of the verse was saying... (embrace yourself)... This verse in simple says: that Jesus took joy in enduring the process of the cross... I am sorry please forgive me... As I cry... Because, what person in their right mind says I will take joy in being a sacrifice? No, better yet who will say.... I will take joy in dying for people who don't even love me enough to see me for who I am...Their savior.... their ultimate lover, the sacrificial lamb, the son of GOD, their personal intercessor... the one that speaks to the father on their behalf, the peace maker, the groom they should be married to, their heart, their healer, their redeemer... I can go on and on... But in the mist of our ignorance, disobedience, selfishness, and just right out fleshy ways; JESUS took joy...Matter of fact he had a Fighting Joy! He fought through his flesh to lay down his will for that of the Father's. Reminding himself that it was not about his satisfaction, but about the Joy that he would bring to the father. He fought the the heartache of being rejected by the people that walked with him and he healed on his way to the cross. He kept silent on the cross so that he could enjoy the Fighting Joy of defeating death and taking back the keys of life. JESUS the one whose blood can wash you white as snow had Fighting Joy in the mist of facing death. So who are we to not to take the action of fight for the Joy Daddy promise us? Stop acting like joy should come with salvation with ease. Where in the Bible does it says... and the Joy of the Lord shall come with ease? It says that the Joy of the Lord is your strength. It says that Joy will come in the mist of victory, but victory is usually achieved after war...With that being said get your war clothes on it's time to fight for your joy!!

Prayer: Daddy we come to you, not asking for Joy, but for help...Help us to be steadfast, focus, and prepared for the fight that comes with obtaining the Joy you desire for us. For you are the Joy of our salvation and there is nothing about you that lacks fight. You fight for our love, for our hearts, and for a relationship with us...you even sacrificed your son to show what you were willing to do to have a fighting position in our lives. Daddy we know take on that same mentality, and we fight for our relationship with you, with a fighting joy. We know that this world, our life, people, things, and just our past will always try to steal the Joy you destine for us to have, but with a fighting praise of victory we grab hold of your joy and the power that comes with it. The power of praise, peace, purpose, and a position in you as an heir to the thrown, and a bride to the bridegroom called Jesus. We know that the enemy comes to steal, kill, and destroy and with that knowledge in mind we take on the characteristics of a fighting joy... trusting, knowing, and assured in the victory of the joy we have in you and through your strength Daddy! We love you and daily we set our hearts to fight for your joy. In Jesus name...AMEN!

The Mindset of A Doubter

"For I know that my mind is powerful enough to manifest my thoughts into reality, but I feel like I can't think positive when all I see with my eyes it the negativity of this world and the difficulties of this thing I call life." 

---Shawndrika  L. Cook (Recovering Doubter)

What is man that You are mindful of him,
And the son of man that You visit him?--- Psalm 8:4(NKJV)

The mindset of a doubter is powerful and it can cause you to delay your GOD given life destiny. I mean it is you setting you up. Lately I have  possessed the mindset of a doubter. I knew Daddy was a Daddy that could cause an encore that would blow my mind, but in my mind I doubt that I was even worth enough for that encore. Have you ever been there? Have you ever been a place where you knew what Daddy could do, saw him do it for you and others, but when the situation came up again at a different level, your doubt went to a different level? Well that is me all the way. I was in pursuit of a new car...My car had done her job and more. It seem the more I drive her in her condition the worst she got. It started with a crack and it ended with a full blow need for a new car. Now I wanted a new car, but I was going to wait until things got right financially. I started my search and I quickly became discouraged. I rested a week and in that week I became overwhelm with stress, frustration, anger, but most importantly doubt. I was in a place where I prayed and worried... But last week after service I told myself to stop praying and worrying. So last Sunday I took my doubter mindset off and I place the mindset of determination and faith. I went into my prayer closet and I simply told Daddy this: "Daddy know what I stand in need of, and today I specifically state out loud what I stand of need of. I am trusting your word, will, and personal promises to me today; therefore I declare today that by March 20th I will have what I need and more. In Jesus name! AMEN!" So after that declaration and prayer I got up and put my faith to work. I contacted the salesman at the dealership that I was working with and I told him that he had a deadline of March 20th to find a car that met my needs. I had a plan to rent a car for the week while I car shop, because I knew my Daddy was about to show up and out. I went into worship, and since I was already fasting because of Lent, my discernment was high and my spiritual ears were open. (Side bar: Don't ask Daddy what to do when you not in a place to receive what he has to say. Prepare yourself for the conversation with him before you go see him) I was a on a mission I had let go of my doubter's mindset and had put on the mindset of a faith believer! So with my sisters and I  looking for a car for me in the price range I was approve for we made a list of dealers we were going to go to. So the day after we made our list we started our journey. I went to the place where I knew I would find my car, didn't find anything. It didn't shake my faith...but I was feeling some kind of way. I went to the next dealership and again nothing...By this time my desperation kicking in cause I have deadline....I went back to a dealership I had been before when I first started my car search journey. I like the saleswoman that help me so I just knew that this was going to be an easy find...Well when I got there my sister and I drove around the lot to see if anything said yes to me...And nothing. I parked the car and asked for the saleswoman that help me before. She came and we walked around. Nothing.... An older gentleman came up to me and said, "Young lady are you looking to buy a car"...I state, yes sir... "He said don't allow them to give you anything because you need a car. Don't except what they give you at first, get what you want and can afford. Don't settle." After he said that he that I left, because we couldn't find anything, and this time (unlike the last) when I told the saleswoman that I didn't see anything she said ok and was like good luck. I told her thank you... By this time... I can admit I am doubtful, the car that I wanted I couldn't get because the dealership would spend more money on getting it to Alabama than I would pay for it....My sister is getting frustrated and we feed off each other so that means I'm getting frustrated too.... on top of all this we are super hungry. So it's ugly. So as we are leaving the last dealership I feel myself about to settle. I was going to go back and buy a brand new car and just call it a day cause I need a car a.s.a.p. But my sister told to to go into another dealership before we return to the one I was going to buy the new car from. When I turned in I was like ok Daddy you know what I want and need. We looked and looked, my sister was like the pre-owned cars are on this row...So I went and looked for what I wanted. The salesman came and met us. He ask did we need help. I gave him the story that I gave at the last three car dealerships. He was like ok... what do you want and we will get it where you need it. I walk over to the car I like told him I wanted to see. He was like you pick the perfect car. We can get this for you today.... Long story short I walked out the dealership with ownership of the car the same day; not just that I got financed for more, payments flexible with my budget, everything I wanted in a car, and peace... I told you this long story to tell you Daddy can even when doubt is the mindset that you have. The day you spoke it in faith about your situations is the day Daddy went to work on your behalf. Stop ask why.....Why is a doubter's mindset, but the day you ask What... You turn doubt into faith, and you start to operate in the anointing of GOD.

Prayer:  Daddy our doubter's mindset is so easy to settle into. It causes stress, frustration, disappointment, and even depression, yet it makes sense to us. Daddy remind us in the mist of having a doubter's mindset that you never make sense. Nothing about you lines up with our thinking. That the day we stop saying why and start saying what we can see that you were already working things out. Daddy forgive us for allowing doubt to be the mindset we take first, before we activate our faith. Forgive us for settling comfortably in a position that allows the enemy to come in and do what he does best, try to destroy us. Daddy we win in you...we have peace in you...we have victory in you..we have joy in you...but most importantly...we have You. Thank you Daddy for always working things out for our good. In Jesus Name....AMEN

Count It In All Joy

"I will not allow things that I can't control, control me any longer."

--Inspirited by Pastor Chris Hodges, Church of the Highlands

This weekend has been a trying one and it ended on a sad note for me. I lost someone that I love and respected and then I was place in a position that I couldn't control. But life goes on....

Yesterday I went to church not with an expectation, but with the heart of just wanting to be in the presence of Daddy. Well I got that and then some. I am in a place in my life where I need more of something. I couldn't put my finger on it, but I knew it had to be something life changing and supernatural. As I participated in praise and worship a song was played... 

When peace like a river attendeth my way

When sorrows like sea billows roll

What ever my lot you have taught me to say

It is well, it is well with my soul

As I meditated on the lyrics to the song something resounded in my spirit. It Is well my Daddy has secured me in his word, action, and promises that all is well with my soul. Not just in my circumstances and situations, but all is well with me.... Internal and External. Can you say all is well with your soul? Can you let go of happiness to receive Daddy's joy... Hum.. that just did something to my spirit. Can I let go of yearning for the happiness that the world offers as a right now pleasure to receive the time waiting, patience enduring, trusting and believing, loving  and resting in peace JOY that Daddy offers to me daily? Can I say no to the temporary fix to accept the process of the permanent fix? I won't share my answer, but know that because of theses questions I Count It In All Joy... I Count It In All JOY that I don't have to stress in the mist of things that I can control. I count it in all joy that my Daddy will show up and out even when I don't see a way or the plan of how he show himself strong and his supernatural will over take the natural world.  So today I encourage you to Count It In ALL JOY! That this situations... this circumstance is so temporary.....so name it that....treat it like it is....give it no value....let it go....Trust DADDY more....COUNT IT IN ALL JOY!!! Don't allow the things of this world or the thoughts of your mind to get you off focus. Stop asking Daddy WHY and start asking WHAT when it comes to the circumstances and situations in your life. Daddy what do you want me to learn... Daddy what do I need to do? Daddy what is the purpose? What position should I take? When you start asking WHAT you will realize the loudness of his response and the evidence of his peace. What gets you to a place of preparation... Why gets you to a place of doubt and worry. With What you demand an answer... with Why you second guess the answer that you receive. 

Prayer: Daddy so many times we find ourselves counting the cost of our issues, situations, and circumstances that we never see the value of your JOY! We seek happiness over you JOY so we chase and pursue the things that help us to accomplish  happiness and not your joy. So Daddy on today we pursue your Joy... He lay at your feet the things that distract us and the things that cause us to lose focus of your grace, and forfeit your peace. Daddy forgive us for allowing happiness to outweigh the value of your supernatural JOY! In Jesus Name!

AMEN

The Connection

"Connect to your purpose, not your type."

Pastor Van Moody, Worship Center Church, Birmingham, AL

What are you connected to? How is that connection productive? Well these are two questions I found myself asking myself after an awesome Ash Wednesday Bible Study this week... What a way to start Lent right? With these questions in mind I start to examine who I was truly connected to. Are the people in my life my purpose or are they my type. What is my type? Can I tell you I really had to talk to Daddy about this and really had to meditate on the word connection. 

Daddy I am lost and confused. I have been challenged with something that I thought I had a clear view of .... Connection...Daddy what does purpose look like...have I lost focus on what type means....UGH!!! Daddy here I am in another season where I feel I am second guessing my purpose, position, and people in my life. I hate moments like this... I really do...Daddy I don't know how many more people I can say good-bye to without feeling alone physically and without feeling like I have let them and myself down. Daddy I have unhealthy connections that I use to make me feel comfort. They are in no way shape or fashion beneficial for the purpose you call me to...(On My knees) But Daddy I have invested in them. I have laughed with them, made memories with them, and Daddy they have become apart of my heart.. Unhealthy and all. What am I suppose to do about the emptiness I will feel when I say good-bye to my type and say hello to my purpose. Daughter, you have solved your own problem you have created your own solution. I know that you are a human being (in flesh), but you are my daughter and heart in spirit and there is nothing more valuable than your purpose in me. I know it hurts to know that the reality of some relationships in your life have no value, they are there for your comfort. That they serve only one purpose and that's to please your flesh... Well Daughter it's time to grow up. It's time to move from the season of your type to the season of your purpose. No longer will you live in the shadows of unhealthy, unproductive, and unrelated relationships Your purpose is greater than anything life can even give you or bring to your life. Daughter let go and let me....Let me take what had no purpose and connect you with purpose. Let me take your type and taste, and create a connection of desire for my word. Let me take what you felt was not worth the time and create a time worth pursing. You are beyond a type Daughter... you are beyond needing people who are just there and never being available to you when you need them...Daughter you are beyond being an option....You are are priority Daughter.....My PRIORITY!!! Connect to me and I will connect you with your purpose....Let go of your type and I will connect you with people design to help you achieve the goals of your purpose... I will replace what you lost, what you say good-bye to, what you let go of......with things that cause you to grow, be healthy, heal you, teach you the lessons of my grace, cause you to trust me at my word. I will increase your faith, I will be the one that shows you the plan. Stop sitting in the middle of the battlefield praying that I would protect you , when I called you to the purpose of being a fighter, a warrior, a intercessor. Stop placing yourself in harms way when I am constantly directing you to a path of safety through my Holy Spirit. So daughter today you  need take hold to the plow and stop looking back, to the left or right of you. Look straight and you will see me. Look up and I will shower you with the blessings of my glory. Stop operating in your strength, will, and even the emotions of your heart. I have you and have you connected to me first and I will bring the right people into your life. I know there are people you know and connected to you that have what you have desired in your heart, that you have interceded for, that you are cried out for and it has cause jealousy to set up in your heart....But know that you are connected to the source that can give you what they have and more in my timing. I love you and there is nothing I wouldn't do for you. So stop worrying about what connections you have to let go of and meditate on the connection you have with me...Daughter I only want the best for you and I love you more than you can even imagine ... Just trust me and let go of your self connections and connect to my supernatural connections...They last longer! Daddy I will. I will connect to you daily and know that the process of the connection is worth the surrendering and letting go of me and losing myself in you.

I love you Daughter... I Do!

The Proper Protocol

Good Morning, Good Afternoon, and Good Evening !

 I don't know where you are and when you would read this blog, but I want you to be prepared for the next 40 days as we get ready for a season of reflection. 
Today marks day one of 40 days in the Lent season. I have heard about Lent and participated in various parts of the Lent celebration, but never have I had the heart to be so dedicated to the process as I am this year. As a way to really get the simple and purpose of Lent I did some minor research and what I found brought me to tears and revelation.
Lent:  a time when many Christians prepare for Easter by observing a period of fasting,repentance, moderation and spiritual discipline. The purpose is to set aside time for reflection on Jesus Christ - his suffering and his sacrifice, his life, death, burial and resurrection.

 Are you amazed or pressed as me about being apart of the Lent Season? If not I hope that the definition alone cause you to really think about The proper protocol of Jesus' position in your life and your relationship with Daddy. I saw that definition and I was overwhelm with emotions, reflection, and praise at the same time. I was overwhelm with the emotions of gratitude, grace, mercy, love, failure, and awe. I know you are like how did failure get in with those other positive emotions. Well...failure in the sense that I have not done all that Daddy has called me to, nor have I allowed myself the ability to be placed under his wings of trust and safety. Yeah that's the failure I feel. After bypassing my emotions I reflect on the power of the sacrifice that Jesus made on the cross. To remain silent in the mist of hearing and seeing people mock you, beat you, destroy and demean your character and body, and to hear those close to you deny you several times. The feeling of being alone to the point your father forsakes you. I can go on and on, but to know that in the mist of all of this, the only person he talked to was the person that set him up for the assignment. HUM! The praise of Jesus' resurrection resounds in my spirit as I read the story of how he went to his disciples to show that not only is he the Jesus that walk with them, but he has scares on his body that have healed, which is shows the end to life as they knew it and the beginning to a life of eternity with him. WOW! IF that doesn't send you into a place of "THANK YOU," I don't know what will.

As I participate in Lent I will focus on the "Proper Protocol." What is the Proper Protocol you ask? Well that's a good question it is the protocol of Daddy's timing and not my own. Knowing that the manifestation of things happen when Daddy says they happen not during the proper protocol of my own time.  As I reflect on the "Proper Protocol," I am left with this one revelation: "Nothing happens in my life that Daddy has not setup to get the glory from." Let me simplify that for you... There is nothing in your life that Daddy will not get the glory for. Whatever happens in your life no matter how hurtful it is, it is a setup for Daddy to use your situation for his glory, and an opportunity for you to experience not only his presence, but his blessings, peace, joy, provision, protection, and most of all his love.

Prayer: Daddy, thank you! Thank you for always reminding us that the sacrifices of our yesterday was a setup for the presence of your blessings today. Daddy as we go through each day of the life you have given us with issues, situations, and circumstances, reminds us that they are just part of the preparation process for your glory to be revealed to someone that doesn't know you.  Daddy today we submit ourselves to your Proper Protocol, knowing it's not about us, only about you; and if we forsake our selfishness, and embrace your selfishlessnes, you will order o. In Jesus Name... AMEN

Victory of Denial (Days 20-21)

I am sorry that the last two days of 21 day of prayer post are late. But these 21 days were so incredible!
The revelation of denial was so powerful to me. I know you are saying how can you get victory in denial? Well can I tell you know.... I had my heart set on something and I mean set.. I had a plan, I was preparing for the destination, I had created a supported  system for the goal, and then it happen.. A bump in the road, one that threw my plan out of wrack. I mean totally out of wrack.  I felt so defeated, rejected, and the heaviness of denial grew stronger and stronger. I felt like my world had crash again. Here I am thinking that this was something good and I had planned it to the "T" that it would truly work and it blew up in  my face... Well can I tell you I found Victory in my denial.. Yes, Victory... I knew three things about my plan: One, I had not consulted Daddy about what I was doing to know if my plan was his plan; Two, my motives for my plan was to not deal with the aftermath of my divorce and to get away from the memory of being married; and last Three, I was doing it for self. I was willing for forfeit my GOD purpose for my fleshly want. So can you see the victory in my denial? Well if you can't let me keep going.... Had I carried on with the plan the way I wanted, I would have missed out on my blessings, lost focus of my GOD purpose, delayed my healing, created some mess that I couldn't get me out of. I would have just given the enemy the key to walk on in and do what he wanted, because I was willing to obey my flesh over the voice of the Holy Spirit.

So let me help someone that is reading this and thinking, ok I understand what you saying about your denial , but my denial is nothing like yours... it's worst... The denial I experience was heartbreaking. To the point that bouncing back does seem to exist. Well denial in any form hurts, no matter how big or little it is...But the victory in having it in your life is... the aftermath in know that Daddy has something greater that we couldn't even see. The victory in know that Daddy is saying... your plan for you is not even good enough... I don't know about you, but that just blessed me. No even the things I plan, create, or develop for myself is good enough for Daddy.... Hum... meditate on that...Because that means that your plans for your life can't even amount to the value of the plans that Daddy has for your life... YES!!!!!!!!


Prayer: Daddy sometimes we miss the mark of your presence with our plan. We get caught up on what we want to do without consulting you on what you need or want us to do with the life you have given us. We never think to meditate on your instructions and obey what you have told us... and for that Daddy we repent. We know understand that there is victory in denial. The world see the word denial as something negative. As a set back, a disappointment, and a thought of being worthless. But Daddy denial is your opportunity to set us up for greatness, to create value, to show your glory, for your presence to be made know. For that Daddy we say thank you. For only can take what meant for our bad and turn it for our good. In Jesus name! AMEN